initially when i got together with you, i was amused with everything bout you.

i felt that every decision you made was right, and i followed you blindly.

gradually, i discovered i was wrong.

and the feelings started to fade..

eventually, it disappeared altogether...

heard it from somewhere, familiar?

yet another boring day in the office. not really that idle...but not much of a challenge either. today ana(my sis friend and our working colleague) asked me "do you feel insulted that they are asking you to do such simple tasks?

"i dun really care, as long as i get paid."

it may seriously sounds loserish. but as a temp staff only, isn't being paid accordingly all that matters? sure, i get job satisfaction when i finish a certain task on time, but slaving your day away versus slacking most of the time with the same pay given? i would definitely choose the latter.

i was reading boey's blog, where she mentioned the reason one feels insecured, is because we are suspicious of the person.

here's my 2cents worth:
(the bitchy side)
this is utter rubbish. if u feel insecured, this goes to show how lousy ur partner is. if he/she has the ability to make u feel so insecured, it shows they aren't doing enough to love you or to make you feel loved. why put the blame on yourself if you are the 100% faithful kind, but you just can't help thinking that your partner is prone on/already cheating on you?

its never fair in love, but why should it be you to suffer or be at this losing end? dump him/her.

(the angelic side, which is usually whats going through my mind)
no matter how much they do or say to convince you, there's a part of you that would always feel insecured. it maybe due to ur upbringing or bad past experiences or if your partner has a clingy and refuses to admit that they belong to the past tense ex-partner.

you very much want to trust them, and for most of the time, u seriously do. but whenever there's something amiss, all the anxiety and fear naturally surfaces. subconciously, you withdraw urself to prevent getting hurt.

if your partner delibrately says something to spite you or to spark off ur jealousy, they must know their limits and whether or not you can take it. if you can't and you told them you can't and they still continued, they have a serious problem up there.

i dunno if i'm making any sense. haha...it doesn't sound logical to me. but pardon me, my brain is wasted after writing my sis's admission essay for her. she has me to thank when she gets in man.

sometimes i hate sappy love ballads. its making me feel lousy.