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Monday, October 31, 2005

Headache...

panadol not helping..think i'll just sleep.

goodnites all~


I stopped falling in love @ 10:48 PM

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BIG BIG

the latest picture of the little princess alissa. isn't she cute with her super duper big eyes staring at you like that?

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"say i'm cute!"

anyway, her mama wanted to bring her over to my house last night. but i was out for hark's performance. spoiler...disappointing.

saw sharon's bf for the first time. hehe. looks different from picture, but definitely better in person. and he looks like the kind sharon goes for...so yea...happy for you girl.

the performance...hmm...where to begin...

was quite surprised at last night's "crowd". haha..there wasn't much of a crowd which is good actually. and since i was the very last to perform, i had less pressure.

it was real enjoying to work with amos, given his experience and exposure, he could easily catch my tune and rhythm. i was so thrilled when he offered to be my instrumentalist just 2 hours before the actual performance and we didn't had time for a run through.

so i sang ni shi wo xin zhong yi ju jin tan, dan xiao gui and yi shi de mei hao.

ok just for updates. monday blues.


I stopped falling in love @ 1:42 PM

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Sunday, October 30, 2005

Ning's birthday!

despite everybody's busy schedule and upcoming exams, we celebrate princess ning's birthday yesterday. i forgotten the name of the restaurant we went to. but its at millenia walk, just beside baker's inn.

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look at the amount of food! one set is enough to stuff you so full so full. yet the prices are so cheap so cheap!!

by the time i finished my set, i didn't have anymore tummy space left for desserts, knowing that we still have to eat her cake later. but the three pretty ladies couldn't resist the mango pudding with mango ice cream.

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from left(clockwise): ee mo ti ken, ning the bday girl, xiao hui

it tasted so yummy! no sourness from the mango pudding...yum yum. but it wasn't as yummy as this...dun blink ur eyes ppl!
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i made up my mind, i wan this strawberry shortcake as my 21st bday cake! hehe..

it was really delicious. the cream tastes so much like cheese, yet it doesnt taste like those fattening cream. and the strawberries were so nice, though i dun really eat them. RONGZ ATE THE MOST! she was so excited when i said i'm gonna buy this cake for my 21st. immediately on the spot, she RSVP her attendance ALREADY! see wat a greedy girl she is? hehe..

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here's the pretty bday girl with her oh-so-yummy cake

she DEMANDED us to sing her a NICE birthday song. oh come on, like as though we sing that badly...haha...but it was so fun though. the videos are still in my phone. haven gotten the time to upload them. patience girls! especially rongz! yes you! hee...will do so SOON alrights?

when it was time to open her pressie, meanie ee mo ti ken tricked her with xiao hui's old jacket. and ning still thought that was her REAL present. how much more blur can this girl go? haha...and ee mo ti ken insisted that i ruin her plan! see..it doesnt pay to be kind...pffts.

her actualy pressie: a pair of slippers and a bikini
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ning: eh quickly take quickly take! the ppl behind staring at me le. so paiseh!
jolene: heeheee!

hope u enjoyed urself girl. happy 20th birthday!

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the prettiest girls around...dun bother to ask me for their numbers...i want them all! muahahaha..

small small argument with myboy. forgotten to inform him i was going for dinner. sorry darling..
-huggies- love you dear

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this is bleak. i haven chose my 3 songs. that means that i haven memorise my lyrics. and the performance is only 7 hours away. and my throat started to itch today. and its kinda sore.

god bless me.

i'm gonna croak again tonight. hee


I stopped falling in love @ 12:14 PM

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Friday, October 28, 2005

oh and i nearly forget.

though it seems a little weird for me to say this...but i wan to do so!

congrats to mommie dearest for being an aunt again!

her da sao give birth last night after more than 12 hours of contraction pain at 12.30am, 28th oct. another little precious welcomed into their family of warmth and love. the little princess nurul wahyuni ummairah will be so loved!

haha...and i'm so excited too! babies are simply adorable lah...and congrats to darling too, you are an uncle again. hee~


I stopped falling in love @ 2:31 PM

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Love Scar

this is the story bout 2 brothers who fell in love with the same girl.
girl-karen mok as geng sha
elder bro-jacky cheung as ziliang
younger bro-jerry yan as zilin

1997, Tokyo
geng sha went on a holiday with her best friend. she was very much single when she met zilin. during that trip, her best friend fell in love with her senior and together, they neglected her. zilin was there to fill up that void and they spent 4 happy days together.

when she returned to taiwan, she thought everything would be over between them cause it was afterall a holiday "fling" and she was so much older than him. but no, he came looking for her after two weeks and they continued their love story until zilin's mum discovered his results became bad and approached geng sha.

she asked her to leave him and thus she became the baddie. zilin thought she played with his feelings and made a fool out of him.

2000, Taiwan
meanwhile, 4 years later, geng sha married ziliang in japan. ziliang was transferred back to taiwan for work purposes. though geng sha was unwilling to return, she did becoz of her husband.

it came as a shock when she saw zilin picked them up at the airport together with ziliang's parents. and their love turmoil started from there.

geng sha love zilin. but he was too young and under those circumstances, she chose to leave him.
ziliang is someone whom she can learn to love and accept. he is a caring and bearing and forgiving husband. he is the mature guy who can give every woman a sense of security. but her heart still belongs to the younger brother.

so who would u choose?
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hmmmm....i actually watched this short 3 episodes serial in sec4 when i was like 16? i didn't quite really understand wat they went thru. today i found the discs, and i rewatched it again with my sister.

being the typical youngster my sister was, she said "i would definitely choose zilin lah."

but me? i couldn't answer her. but all i said was "since i already married ziliang, i would try my best to love him and not hurt him further by leaving him and going with the brother."

sounds easier said than done?

i liked a particular sentence ziliang said to geng sha:
"do you remember me saying that in this life, you are the only one who can give me happiness or take it away? i'm thankful that u once gave me happiness, though it was shortlived. i'll be waiting for you, anytime you wanna give me my happiness again, i'll be there for you. there would always be a place for you in my heart...i'll always be loving you..."

it would have melted my heart if i were her.

but geng sha's stand was firm. she couldn't make a choice and she didn't wanna continue hurting both. conclusion? yes u smart people might have already guessed it. she choose to be alone.

how sad can that be?

once again peeps, who would you choose? which path would you take? would you wanna be selfish and hurt one person only, or you wanna put a stop to all the pain u guys are suffering?

what good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
what good is a love, if you're too scared to choose it?
if you're heart is beating, then its for a reason.


I stopped falling in love @ 1:32 PM

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ZZzz..

Its raining
Its pouring
The old man's a-snoring
He got into bed
And bumped his head
And couldn't get up in the morning

time for bed real soon.


I stopped falling in love @ 12:12 AM

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

Blah!!!

I just wanna type something here.

I dun even know what to say.

I'm hungry.

I'm very hungry.

I want food.

I love shanle.

yes that sentence made me felt better.

-off to find food-


I stopped falling in love @ 5:40 PM

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Sad..

no reason to smile. sinking feeling in my heart.

I feel as though someone just slapped me across my face.

and its just so degrading that someone actually thinks so lowly of me.

i know...i may not be an angel, someone who puts others before myself all the time. i'm not gonna deny i'm a selfish girl. but to the extend where i completely neglect or hurt someone's feelings, i would always try to avoid. maybe this proves that i've not tried hard enough. i'm flawed.

i'm not gonna ask for too much but just a gentle reminder from you guys that i'm not doing things right and u feel that i've gone overboard and hurt u in the process. and i'm really sorry if i still continue doing so despite countless attempts at u guys telling me not to. i really didn't know my brainless rantings and jokes can be so detrimental. sometimes i really needed to be hit hard to learn my lesson.

Just like now.

And i deserve it.


I stopped falling in love @ 6:54 PM

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Now till the end...

I am feeling so hungry. but i'm lazy to find some food. -smackz my pi pi-

exams is really nearing. december seems so far but it feels so near.

timeline of the remaining 2005:
now-trying to mug
starting 2 nov-revision classes for tax starting. but its evening class. :( means late nights home le..
5 dec- first paper, 2.1 information systems. yucky computer paper.
7 dec- paper 2.3, Singapore Taxation. love tax. i'm mad.
8 dec- paper 1.1, preparing financial statements. the paper that i've managed to fail twice. dunno why. either i'm a moron or i'm just cut out to be a housewife. i prefer the latter. hee~
13 dec- the final paper! -pops poppers- paper 1.3, managing people. this is a pure theory paper which requires nothing but understanding and memory work. i shall slash my wrist if i fail this paper again. but i think mr wong will be the one killing me if i failed again. haha...
14 dec- a complete free day
15 dec- the wait for the call from hospital to comfirm operation details and fasting instructions.
16 dec- the BIG day! finally gonna cut off my balls! at the base of my throat thats it.
17 dec- i should be rolling on the hospital bed most likely.
18 dec to the end of 2005- doc specifcally said i need to be quarantined at home to prevent any viral infections that will affect the open wound which might cause any bleeding that would led to readmission to the hospital. xmas or new yr eve in ttsh? no thanks! i shall be a good girl..

time really flies by. 2005 is already coming to an end. it feels as though i haven even blink my eyes. BIG 21st in 2006. i am so not looking forward to it. hehe...alrights gonna find food then start studying.

thoughts of you are constantly racing through my mind.
even so, i'm missing you so much darling...
I love you -muackz-


I stopped falling in love @ 10:55 AM

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Monday, October 24, 2005

The Key...

I have something for you...

Something I wouldn't give to just anybody...

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Its the key to my heart...

And I hope you would keep it with you...

Forever...


I stopped falling in love @ 4:57 PM

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K750i

okie here is jolene's personal review of this fantastic phone...

the phone is very light...though not really small

sms is relatively fast and bearable as compared to my gd88

the functions, most of them i've yet to explore...but already those that i've used, i'm contented.

the camera is superb. we just managed to take a super CLEAR picture with the strong flashlight on, and its in total darkness! baby i'm so amazed by you...

okie let me further explore it, and then i'll update more on it.

goodnites ppl!


I stopped falling in love @ 12:11 AM

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

A day without you, is a day without cheer, for you make me smile.

I love being in love with you.

I love missing you all the time.

-huggies and kisses-

I'm a happy lil girl.



I stopped falling in love @ 2:34 PM

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Big Girl already...

Jie Jie is so proud of this little darling..
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Sleeping so peacefully...-sings rock-a-bye baby on a tree top-

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She might be an excellent french kisser. always sticking her tongue out!

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Pink is still the in colour for girls! so sweeeeeeeeeeeeet!

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Look at the smile...it makes me wanna be a mommie too!


I stopped falling in love @ 2:10 PM

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Burr...

Good-the-morning!

Wats up with the heavy showers we've been experiencing these days? not that i'm complaining, i'll usually appreciate them when the weather is unbearable. but these days, the cold is simply too much. haha.

shocked to hear this from the walking human heater? yeah seriously i was quite surprised myself. i had to cover myself under the thick comforter blanket i have and curl up for warmth. so much for daddy getting the air con repaired but not being able to enjoy its comfort. =sayangs my air con=

anyway this morning, i woke up with this coldness it seems to come from within. maybe i'll feeling a little under the weather. or maybe it was the walk in the rain yesterday. watever it is, its cold! gonna study with june in the library. think i shd be sensible and wear long pants.

going off. later~


I stopped falling in love @ 11:08 AM

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Sweet dreams...

dear IE is giving me problems again, hanging almost everytime i surf a different website. so i need to depend on good old firefox to get things going. at times like these, i really wanna thank justin who introduced me to firefox, otherwise everything would be a big panic.

myboy is sick...awwwwwwwwwwww...my silly darling walked in the heavy rain. for wat reason i dunno...but i'm sure he knows wat he's doing. down with a high fever now...my poor baby...

and myboy said..
hmm...so...what do i have here as my girl?
she may not be the most beautiful girl in the world, may not be the most sexiest woman in this universe, but she's the only, the only one who can love me so much.. the one my heart has never stopped loving you.. the one who makes me missing her again and again..and the one i wanna share my entire life with.. you, girl, are the love of my life.

sweet dreams jolene...you're so loved.


I stopped falling in love @ 12:13 AM

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Monday, October 17, 2005

I miss...I miss...I miss...

the best days of my life, was definitely the growing up process. not many gets the chance to be the first born grandchild to a relatively big family. on my mummy's side, my grandmama had 10 kids, 5 girls 5 guys. and a adopted kid whom we treated her as our very own family too.

i dun exactly remembered wat i did or how i was treated. but i was told, i was like the princess in the household. wo yao feng de feng, yao yu de yu( means getting everything that i ever wanted). this is especially so with my uncles, since i was the chubby and fair and adorable little kid. makes u wanna puke? haha..but i was ok..

i would get extra chicken pieces in my chicken rice. (i suspect the uncle has a crush on me! he is always smiling oh-so-happily whenever he sees me) so my uncles and aunties like to bring me along whenever they bought chicken rice from him.

i would attract stares from strangers when my family members bring me out for walks. and they would pinch my cheek and twist it one big round exclaiming "aiyoh!!! soooooooo cuteeeeeeeeeee!!!" i suspect they have a saddist nature...coz they always laugh when i attempt to rub my swollen cheek thereafter.

bank tellers would often chat with me and give me lotsa sweets. same goes to our family doctor. the first thing i stare at upon entering the consultation room, would be his jar of sweets. and that smart ass doctor would immediately open the jar and say "nah u want sweets ah? take lor. take more".

and i always enjoyed evening walks with my late grandfather. he often brought me to playgrounds where they have swings cause he knew i liked them. and he would swing me high. watching that smile on my face brings out the smile on his tired face after a hard day's work.

and if i wanted anything, i would just need to stop and stare at it. and my grandfather or even uncles would get the hint and asked me wat i wanted. i merely needed to point and the next i knew, i am the proud owner of it.

i miss sunday's mornings, where the whole house is bustling with people and laughters, where breakfast is either fried carrot cake or nasi lemak, where there's always no seats on the sofa and u have to "chop" seats way beforehand and not leave ur seats even if u needed to pee.

i miss going on all-expenses paid holidays with my aunts. where all i have to do is enjoy myself and be happy. i dun even need to do the packing of my luggage.

i miss being the center of attraction and being showered with everybody's love. and getting my way becoz i noe i have my grandparents to back me up in case anyone bullies me.

thinking i'm a little rascal too? nah...i guessed i'm just a little pampered and spoilt. but hey! i'm all tamed now. i had my glorious days and now its the younger devils' turns. hee.

everything sort of changed ever since my grandfather passed away. there is this rule that says u gotta get marry within 99days of his death or wait 3 yrs. so both my aunt and uncle got married and shifted out. gradually most of them did so too.

sunday mornings are no longer rowdy.

my grandfather is no longer around.

i'm no longer three.

i want a family of my own where i can enjoy this kinda family warmth again. where my kids can grow up happily. where everyone in the family would get along just fine. where i'll have my loving husband by my side, a doting daddy to the little ones.

hope this isn't too much to ask for? yes darling? hehe.
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and i miss my primary sch days. where i attended this neighbourhood school and it was so easy to top my class and level. and to date, i'm actually still in contact with my primary schoolmates.

playing five stones..attending higher chinese lessons..doing project together..taking part in the salad making competition..karaoke sessions at elizabeth's house..water bombs sessions..

those were the days...where there is no secret if u ever liked a guy in class..=blush=

it was such a trend to write in someone's autograph book. i'm flipping through it now...let me type some of the comments out...

"its my good fortune to know such a cuuutteeeeeeeee(highlighted in bright orange) friend like you. known you for two yrs, actually more. i found out that you are jovial, funny, cute and nice."-sandy

"i've known you for 4 yrs. during these yrs, i found out that you're a helpful, kind, hardworking and humourous girl. but sometimes you can be quite hot tempered and stubborn." - siahjen

"i've known you since primary 1. you are cute, funny and has an effectious laughter that will be forever in my brain."- chenghoon

notice the lousy grammer of us primary school kiddos? haha..and almost everyone says i'm stubborn and funny and cute!

sometimes i really hate to grow up this fast. i've lived for 2 decades already and its already creeping towards the big 21st day so rapidly. i feel as though i have done nothing at all. except having found the love of my life. argh i'm old!

=bangs my head on the table=


I stopped falling in love @ 1:38 AM

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

Secured lover?

jolene, you tend to gravitate toward romantic partners who have a Preoccupied attachment style.

People with a preoccupied attachment style tend to show a great deal of openness and are eager to get close in a relationship. They can be very devoted partners.

Attachment style begins in infancy with the interactions we have with our parents or primary caregivers. Through these early relationships we begin to understand the dynamics and patterns of close relationships and we carry this perspective into our adult relationships.

Psychologists call your attachment style Fearful Avoidant.

You tend to have mixed feelings about relationships. A part of you may want to have a close, loving relationship, but another part of you may be somewhat uncomfortable with commitment. It's also likely that you are afraid others will let you down or abandon you. Although you tend to be open to relationships, you may not easily reveal the true you, and potential partners are likely to be intrigued about discovering the person you are deep down.

31% of those who have taken our test share this style of attachment.

Your answers on our test show that when it comes to relationships you have grown beyond your earliest attachment issues. While you may not have every issue resolved, you're making substantial progress at establishing healthy relationship patterns.

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my mummy is a bias old woman. my brother just gotten his new psp. yes psp, costing nearly 700 bucks. which 11 yr old would need an electronic device thats so new? and then she refused to buy me the phone i want. eeeks! she's depriving me. daddy already said ok. another henpecked husband. and yet she deprived me and my sister. i'm so angryyyyyyy!!! i dun wanna talk to mummy le. pffts. ANGRY!


I stopped falling in love @ 9:04 PM

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Friday, October 14, 2005

Over the moon

boey: eh go read that shanle's blog when u get home. i bet you will be so touched!

so, i did.

thats the first thing on my to-do list when i switched on the com.

i dunno if i can use the word touched to describe how i felt when i read ur entry dear.

it felt so magical and so fairytale-like, yet i know every word came from your heart.

Together we're the very best
I know that i am truly blessed
Everyday i love you

There's always a new reason for me to love you more everyday.
To fall in love with you again.
And yet feel the presence of our love so strong it keeps me glowing from within.

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
That's when i'll stop loving you

Keep our faith going
Keep our feelings strong
Keep our love intact just like what we are feeling now

I wanna love you with every beat of my heart.
I want you by my side every second of every single day.
I wanna be the first and last person on your mind.
I wanna hold onto the key to ur heart, safe and secured.
I just wanna be yours forever and ever.
For you i promise, i'll always be there.

I think god has blessed me with a lifetime of happiness.
Thank god for you too.
You + Me = Together forever
I'll be saving all my love for you.

love you. ai ni! =muackz=


I stopped falling in love @ 1:17 AM

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

A day at home...

ok i'm tired. daddy woke me up early in the morning just to ask me where's his phone. my fault, coz i was sms-ing with his phone. but daddy dearest, its a little early to be awake when i slept so late the previous night isn't it?

booo...but i shall be a nice little girl, coz he's the one i'm whinning to, to get my new phone. wat to do, i'm a daddy's girl!

myboy once told me this "there's only mummy's boy and daddy's girl. no such thing as mummy's girl."

so i guess this theory is quite proven true, in our context.
-whispers to everyone "myboy is the ultimate mommie's boy"-
i still love you lots though!

hehe..ok i was bored...so i did this zodiac test thingy. apparently, my best matches are the aquarians, cancerians, virgos and leos. oh i'm the crabbie by the way and i dunno if this results works for all cancerians, but this is like my own personal report, so...unless u are 100% identical with my character, dun based it upon ur own.

the report is kinda long for each individual match with the 4 zodiac signs. since myboy is a leo, i shall post the leo's report today. the others could wait...haha

so here goes:
You are very well matched with a Leo. This is due, in part, to the Lion's animal magnetism and pridefulness. You seem to really appreciate the charismatic way most Leos have about them. You're also more willing than most to tolerate a Leo's tendency to be self-centered or egotistical. You probably feel that it's more important to have a mate with personal presence than it is to be with someone particularly humble. Because of these preferences, when romantic sparks fly between you and a Leo, true love may indeed be the result.

You'll recognize potential Leo partners by the way they can capture everyone's attention when they enter a room. The Lion loves to strut at social events and will often be the center of attention. To that end, Leos are typically outgoing, self-assured, and flamboyant. Romantically, it's not uncommon for Leos to have admirers lined up around the block vying for their charismatic company. You're likely among this crowd. After all, personal charm is one of the things that most attracts you.

More often than not, Leos are loyal partners and are not the cheating type. On the contrary, they tend to romanticize their relationships and don't allow for much flexibility when it comes to honor. You're apt to find great peace in the knowledge that your love is secure with your Leo. When issues do arise in your relationship, you can trust the Lion to come to you first.

Pleasure can be an enormous draw for Leos. They love to have a good time, and they want you to enjoy life, too. One way they help to ensure this is by being generous. They'll relish seeing the joy you get from any gift that they bestow upon you. However, you may not understand the Lion's need to give so many little gifts. Perhaps you feel that there are more important ways for someone to show affection. However, be aware that displaying this view will only cause your Leo partner to feel rejected and unvalued. The tokens Leos give can get quite pricey, in part because most Leos love to spend money. This habit will likely seem too excessive for your tastes. You're more apt to appreciate a mate who sets sensible limits.

Another one of the Leo's hallmark traits is that they are natural leaders. As such, these individuals often possess both great courage and a high tolerance for risk. The Lion often charges forward fearlessly into new endeavors, letting things sort out as they will. This side of a Leo may be a little hard for you to stomach. When they set out unprepared and unafraid, you may find yourself hanging back and cringing. The amazing thing is, though, that the Lions have a way of landing on their feet. But regardless of whether you're up for joining them, Leos will usually forge ahead. They can't help it. It's in their nature.

No matter what the situation, a Leo partner isn't the type who's afraid to show their dominant side. This might be just fine with you, as it can be fun for you to let someone else take the lead. Go ahead and embrace the comfort provided by your Leo, just as long as you let them know where your boundaries are. Leos can have a tendency toward self-absorption, which may leave you feeling out in the cold at times. However, if you speak up, a Lion will usually gladly reintegrate you into their adventures and aspirations.

The Lion isn't afraid to talk about the problems that come up in your relationship. In fact, their passion can often lead to fiery conversations. All the same, you can count on their warm heart and desire for peace to keep these encounters firmly grounded in loving feelings. The Leo's candidness will appeal to you in matters of the heart. You appreciate a partner who will work through your relationship's sore spots as a team. Together, you and your Leo should be able to take on any conflict that comes up.

In the bedroom, a Leo lover can really turn up the heat. The Lion has a robust sex drive and amazing amounts of passion. A Leo's charisma will kick into overdrive as they romance their way into a lover's heart. This ability to get your heart pumping will go a long way toward your ultimate infatuation with a Leo. The two of you appear to see eye-to-eye when it comes to sex.

Whether in their careers or as a hobby, Leos are the individuals who are often most drawn to the stage and performance. Perhaps this is because they're usually talented in at least one of the performing arts: drama, music, or dance. In this aspect of their life, too, the Lion loves to be in the spotlight and hear the applause of a crowd. You're the perfect audience for such endeavors. In fact, it will probably make you quite proud to see your Leo mate achieve their dreams -whether they perform at a small local cafe or anywhere else.

see...wat did i say bout long?


I stopped falling in love @ 2:47 PM

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I'm a happy girl today!

cause i studied!

cause daddy got the aircon repaired!

cause i might be able to have a new phone! =prays hard=

cause i love le le!

cause le le loves me!

whee!! happy!!!


I stopped falling in love @ 1:12 AM

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

This came late...

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
The world might change my whole life thru
But nothing's gonna change my love for you.

myboy, you may have heard me say this alot of times before.
and now, i'm gonna say it again, i'm sorry.

things are okie now, i'm loving you even more.
but still, i just wan you to know.

you were right, instead to choosing to think positively- "i love
you. i'll believe you"
i chose to feel insecure.

and i hurt you.
by doubting you and not trusting you.

just one phone call and i got all upset.
true, negative thoughts were already racing throught my mind.

you loved her for 3 yrs.
your words, i felt my heart crumbled too when i read them.
and u chose her over me before.
these were the reasons i gave to you last night.
and i just felt that i might just lose you once again.

myboy, i dun wanna lose you again.
thats why i chose to retreat.
i forgot to take into account how u felt with me doing that, and pushing you away indirectly.

i failed to see the many little things u have done to make me feel more secured and less afraid.
i was blinded by my insecurity.

it was my turn to feel the crumbling of the heart when u said "u hurt me"
then i realised after flynn talked to me, that i didn't cherish you enough.
i failed to express myself, my thoughts to you.

But once again, u touched my heart by telling me "darling, i only want you. and i love you."

i would give my everything
just to hear you say
someone to have and hold
with all my heart and soul

that someone is you, wong zachary.
I Love You.


I stopped falling in love @ 11:57 PM

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Saturday, October 08, 2005

A love's that for eternity.

This is the story of a girl name Jolene.
She leads her ordinary life until her path crossed with the most amazing guy she has ever known.
The guy who made her fell hopelessly in love with him.
And the guy who managed to touch her heart, thus creating their journey of love.

[love paradise- kelly chen]
You're always on my mind, all day just all the time.
You're everything to me, brightest star to let me see.
You touch me in my dreams, we kiss in every scene, i pray to be with you thru rain and shiny days.
I'll love you, till i die, deep as sea, wide as sky.
The beauty of our love paints rainbows everywhere we go.
Need you, all my life, you're my hope, you're my pride.
In your arms i find my heaven, in your eyes my sea and sky.
May life be our love paradise.

This is the song that never fails to lead me to think of you.

YOU

From being a friend, to being that someone irreplaceable to me.
My dearest darling.
My sunshine.
My laogong.
Myboy.

You're simply my everything.

You say you are not worth it
But I think you are wrong
You are different I must admit
But I have know that all along
You show a lot of pride
In everything you do
You are so strong inside
I just wish you could see it too
I just wish you could see what I do

A man that can teach me a lot
A man who doesn't have a clue
That it's my heart he has caught
A man who makes me happy
A man who means the world to me
The man, whom i wanna spend the rest of my life with
And if not for him, my life wouldn't have made a difference.

I love you for who you are dear.
its for now and forever.

Thank you for painting our beautiful love story.
Thank you for your love that is so strong i could feel it in your words.
Thank you for making me feel more loved every single day.
I wanna be the one, who is gonna be by your side to add onto our story, the many colours of our amazing love.

BABY, I'M SO IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!!!!

and thinking of you never fails to bring a smile on my face.

miss you love you,
That's our love that's gonna be for eternity.
=muackz=


I stopped falling in love @ 11:58 PM

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Friday, October 07, 2005

Bunk over!

no, its not me bunking over at someone's house...

nanny brought chad chad over!!!!!

i'm so thrilled...coz this little darling is so adorable too. he is so charming, he has dimples on both sides of his cheeks! and when he talks to you, he talks gently =imitates his "jie jie, can i play the gameboy?"= and he looks so huggable that i feel like hugging him to sleep!

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but all these comes with a price. i gotta give up my bed and sleep on the floor. i'm fine with it actually.

had a long day at school...studied alittle after lecture...not bad...finally found that the sch is rather conducive for some peaceful studying. then met boey for dinner. went to toa payoh library's children's section while waiting for the rest to arrive. so many cute little babies. i was so excited i wanted to borrow some book on "how to get pregnant". haha...but i was so tired that i left early, after dinner and some chitchatting. anyway win, xf, and this new girl are with her. so she's in good hands i guess. hehe..

gonna sleep soon le. morning lecture, plus alissa's first month celebration, followed by lulu's bash.
i can't imagine how i would feel tml even before the day is over. seems like my sleep is nv enough...


I stopped falling in love @ 11:10 PM

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Thursday, October 06, 2005

and...

i'm so freaking tired. my mind is dead. my feet are sore.

i'm getting real sensitive to every beep my phone is sounding out. a mere sms could wake me up from my deep sleep. how scary is that? and when i meant deep sleep, its really deeppppppppp.

you see, cleared things out with myboy, so naturally it accounts for a good night's rest to make up for the lack of it on the previous night. i felt so deep in my sleep that it seems i was never able to wake up. yes did u guys ever felt this way? like u actually wanna wake up but u can't..

anyway, dinner with my cashline darlings...been so long since we sat together for a meal. and hanchuan was actually present! first time i met up with him after he's back from his studies in aussie. had sakae..so damn full now...

and yes very tired. morning lecture tml. sian. sleep. gdnites!


I stopped falling in love @ 11:27 PM

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

When i'm feeling down...

i'll look at these..

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even so...i couldn't find the reason to smile today.

seems as though a knife is being twisted around in my heart. and i dunno wat is it that made u so unhappy. to the extend i realised ur words can be so hurtful. somehow i'm a girl, strong as i may try to portray myself to be, it still made me felt so fragile once again. everything i do just can't seem to please you, tell me, wat can i do? does it hurt you to know i'm hurting inside? my heart is crying, tears are flowing. i'm lost.


I stopped falling in love @ 12:34 PM

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Not thinking straight...

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but If you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears streaming down your face and I
Tears streaming down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
fix you by coldplay. benjamin's recommendation. quite nice, not bad. this guy really surprised me when he asked me to bring alissa out so he could play with her. he was saying "i like kids. i will dote on her. at most i go over to sembawang lor. near enough to ur house le ba?" haha see.. someone dying to play with babies. wonder how would he be like when he is a dad himself. =sniggers=

8 hours of lecture today. goh had us laughing at the last hour of the day. i'm too tired to type it out...but its the first time i enjoyed lessons this much. haha...more to come..more to come..


I stopped falling in love @ 10:22 PM

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Monday, October 03, 2005

A very random monday...

i'm tired. physically and of watever things which are happening to me and friends.

maybe the emptiness i'm feeling inside of me now is due to the fact that 2 weeks ago at this time, i'm in my vocal class. but not anymore. had since suspended classes due to upcoming exams.

argh yes exams, time to mug. which is something i've lost touch for. perhaps i've been too slack with my studying life, other than attending lectures faithfully. or perhaps its the flexibility of my classes that changed my lifestyle completely. frankly speaking, i do wish i had more things on hand to do rather than to idle my days away...

i get fustrated whenever i think of the advice i give to a particular friend. becoz i feel my advice are too rational and it doesn't seem to fit into the situation. i mean hello, who on earth can break up with their partners and be on the ok track a few days after? giving comfort, being there for them, giving moral support, all these seemed ok, but not if the problem is recurring. i'm even more fustrated when this problem happens again and again and i keep having to repeat wat i had already said long ago.

and watching ur friend crumble in front of you, yet unable to do anything, thats the worse off feeling. wats up with us humans? too soft-hearted huh? holding onto something that seems dear but in actual fact not so? i'm agitated. i'm fuming actually.

"life is like a box of chocs" my GP lecturer used to quote this to us, thinking we are morons. but to a moron with the surname ong, ur life is full of drama. everything bout you seems nothing but a lie. u are a freaking dreamer. you fantasized bout perfect situations but u failed to realise humans have flaws. no one is perfect, and you, are FAR FROM PERFECT. your existence is a joke. go on, freeze urself, cut urself with a knife, if u had meant to die, u would have died long ago. stop ur acts in front of us and get a life. dun try to be a prince when u dun have a dick. and if u are too bored, mess up ur own fucking life and stay away from the innocent.

lesbianism is simply not healthy! for those who thinks u are happily attached and thinks i'm crapping, please just click the "x" button at the top right hand corner of this page. otherwise, listen to me, it screws up ur life! u will undergo an emotional turmoil(okie straight ppl do too, but at least they are straight!). and u end up in a shitty mess that sinks u further into watever u are going thru. argh!!! i feel so disgusted!

i dunno if i've gone too far to critisize someone my friend once loved. well its my blog, dun like wat u are reading? then stay away.

i feel so pms-ed. but it isn't. perhaps its becoz my friend is down, and so i am indirectly affected. think i'm better off taking a shower and doing some work.


I stopped falling in love @ 8:05 PM

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Saturday, October 01, 2005

sorry...

to those who tried to read my blog from this afternoon.

apparently my bandwidth exceeded and no one was able to view my blog, except for myself, which i dunno why too.

and this problem did not surface on my com till evening time...when i tried to access it. then i went around asking the reason.

darling told me something like, its becoz the host tried to host a pic and failed or the host decided to abandon this blog or something. he got me all confused! no dear...its not like that k? delon said its becoz too many ppl viewed the blog. then the allocated bandwidth exceeded. thus u guys were unable to view my page.

and damn it, my new bloggie has no stats counter. so i dunno how many ppl actually visited.

it must be alissa's fault! blame it on her for being so adorable! so many ppl are so fascinated by her that they must come and look at her once every few mins!

hehe...so i'm sorry to have caused any inconvenience to anyone.


I stopped falling in love @ 12:33 AM

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