before i go for lunch...can anyone tell me where to get this?

it would be definitely be the best solution if u could buy FOR me lah! lol...its so nice don't you think so?

off to lunch...i'm feeling depressed...i need food.

"you agreed to be my gf for 12 hours the other time. now, i would like to extend the period to 50 years. would you be my gf for the next 50 years?"

damn of coz i will! so freaking sweet can?

the problem now is...who wants to propose such an agreement to me? teehee...

reality sets in. i'm given more work, more responsibility, more scoldings. they are shifting me into the main office...where the rest of the teams sits. nothing to rejoice about, prolly only the fact that i am allocated the corner seat, AND, i'm sitting beside the NP intern. jovin has already declared that HE is HERS and HERS ONLY. haha...not that i'm interested anyway...kinda young huh? 19 only leh...

but it has been quite bearable working there. generally i get along well with MOST people, i get long lunch hours(illegal of coz!) and the pay is high? lol.

OH OH OH!!!!! I ABSOLUTELY FORGOTTEN TO BLOG BOUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
early this year, this gorgeous guy boarded the train. i was taken aback by his sharp features(reads: his eyes and his nose) and hell-long eyelashes. he looks so good, i can't help taking a couple more glances.

he wore a tag with an attached earnst and youngs landyard. and i happen to be working at the same building as them now.

on mon(or was it on wed?), my sis and i were walking towards the lift lobby, and HE WALKED PAST ME!

its like some megastar walk past u can?

yummy eye candy...very short though.

i've been wanting to sleep since 10.15....and its 10.40 now... just let me say goodnite to the precious ones i am talking to now....

not to forget u guys too...nite nite!!!!

Early in the morning i put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee has it's sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me
Now you say your juice is sour, it used to be so sweet
And i can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting me so deep
I got my pride, i will not cry
But it's making me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everythings ok
Boy i am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk
You're like to think that i'm just crazy when i say that you've changed
I'm convinced i know the problem, you don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair
I got my pride, i will not cry
Still i can't help but care

Ooh baby, look into the corner of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But i can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I give my everlasting love if you return love to me

If you feel it in your heart and you understand me stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me
I need love, i need trust, your love

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everythings ok
Boy i am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

sunday East Coast Park, anybody?

and yx says...u wanna come along? we going cycling and blading...

and terence says...nvm you can look after the bags lor. hee...

and zhao jian says...its okie lor. most impt is spend time as a group mah. i accompany u walk walk lor k?

seriously, i'm just starting to fade from the hideous tann i got from asian aerospace. but now...in the name of friends? i have to go izzit?

not to mention, that place is freaking far from me, and erm...i dunno how to make my way there.

and then zhao jian says...nvm! we can meet somewhere first...

sometimes rejection is hard. -flips open "how to reject someone for dummies"-

on msn...

kc: hey! next thurs you free?
kc: i wanna date you out.
me: next thurs?
me: is it dinner movies and a stroll in the park?
kc: no lah...i'm giving the guys a treat yada yada...
me: yada yada...cannot lah... i working. nvm lah...you xin jiu hao le.
kc: aiya...nvm lah...next time i treat u individually.
me: wah! really mah? so sweet ah?
kc: yah...we will have dinner and a stroll in the park.

everybody....wahahahhahahahahaha!!!!

we sure can crap.

ppl is singapore no3 for his 3.3 exam paper in dec05 sitting k? dunno how these ppl mug one...but kc is real hardworking. he deserves this. he always tells me this "you can afford the time. you still young...i old liao leh..." because of this sentence, he has been passing and breezing thru all his papers. i also wan leh....yah right dream on girl.

but then again, i'm sorry mr msn for saying that we are always crapping. i can't imagine what my life would have been if it hadn't been you accompanying me in the office. i love you to bits...and i will continue loving you for as long as i'm working there.

my hair curled at the ends...i look so mushroom headed...my face looks rounder with the new cut...i dun understand how ppl can say i look nicer with it.

i'm so deprived of shopping!!!!! anyone wanna date me out shopping?! date me leh!!!

you know how is it like, that people always tell you, when u draw a salary, you will always have to see the faces of ur boss and the ones drawing an even HIGHER salary than you.

i experienced that today.

bloody hell.

it just so happened, that the desk i was sitting at faces the empty director's room, which serves as a storage room for boxes of invoices waiting to be shipped out. and i was slotting in the remaining invoices into the 21 boxes together with my sis.

it was a shared storage room, but most stuck to their own territory knowingly. we stacked the boxes on the supposedly another team's table. i swear i didn't know bout that. and it was the team leader who did the stacking. but since i was CONVENIENTLY sitting there, i got the accusing stares. they shifted our boxes and print a notice that reads :

"please be considerate and do not shift the boxes."

i is fucking dulan with those fuckers.

small matter mah right? give me that kinda fuckedup face for what? its not even my blardy fault k?

if not for the 8.50 pay and my intention to continue drawing that 8.50 pay, i woud have snapped at them. so angry!

to applease ourselves, my sis and i made a joke out of them. the one with the fucking-est face is karen. so we added to the notice above:

yours truly, fucker karen.

to the hell with you. i is princess. i do not deserve unwanted stares and glares.

i am so pissed off, i decided to cut my hair.

no really, its because i had split ends. hahhaha....

i am such a sucker for compliements. the stylist said i had healthy hair, and already i was on cloud 10. and i was farther sucked into buying this hair thingy to apply. well...my hair is my precious you know? so its okie lah....the length hasn't changed...but its heavily layered...i wonder if it would start curling at the ends tml after a wash.

i just finished writting my sis's essay for smu's admission. that totally killed my remaining alive brain cells.

work was so tiring and busy today. but i'm glad i still had time to pee.

it doesn't take much to miss someone...but i'm amazed by how much i miss certain people.

i'm tired. i need some sleep.

finally...

i decided to be a little hardworking. i went over to ah girl's house to transfer back my mp3s.

all memories just started flooding my mind when i listened to certain songs again.

not to mention, it not easy to download songs these days....so what i used to have are precious you know...

once again, the songs are making me feel lousy.

sometimes a song speaks a million words....
sometimes it just speaks what your heart is feeling...

initially when i got together with you, i was amused with everything bout you.

i felt that every decision you made was right, and i followed you blindly.

gradually, i discovered i was wrong.

and the feelings started to fade..

eventually, it disappeared altogether...

heard it from somewhere, familiar?

yet another boring day in the office. not really that idle...but not much of a challenge either. today ana(my sis friend and our working colleague) asked me "do you feel insulted that they are asking you to do such simple tasks?

"i dun really care, as long as i get paid."

it may seriously sounds loserish. but as a temp staff only, isn't being paid accordingly all that matters? sure, i get job satisfaction when i finish a certain task on time, but slaving your day away versus slacking most of the time with the same pay given? i would definitely choose the latter.

i was reading boey's blog, where she mentioned the reason one feels insecured, is because we are suspicious of the person.

here's my 2cents worth:
(the bitchy side)
this is utter rubbish. if u feel insecured, this goes to show how lousy ur partner is. if he/she has the ability to make u feel so insecured, it shows they aren't doing enough to love you or to make you feel loved. why put the blame on yourself if you are the 100% faithful kind, but you just can't help thinking that your partner is prone on/already cheating on you?

its never fair in love, but why should it be you to suffer or be at this losing end? dump him/her.

(the angelic side, which is usually whats going through my mind)
no matter how much they do or say to convince you, there's a part of you that would always feel insecured. it maybe due to ur upbringing or bad past experiences or if your partner has a clingy and refuses to admit that they belong to the past tense ex-partner.

you very much want to trust them, and for most of the time, u seriously do. but whenever there's something amiss, all the anxiety and fear naturally surfaces. subconciously, you withdraw urself to prevent getting hurt.

if your partner delibrately says something to spite you or to spark off ur jealousy, they must know their limits and whether or not you can take it. if you can't and you told them you can't and they still continued, they have a serious problem up there.

i dunno if i'm making any sense. haha...it doesn't sound logical to me. but pardon me, my brain is wasted after writing my sis's admission essay for her. she has me to thank when she gets in man.

sometimes i hate sappy love ballads. its making me feel lousy.

its kinda spooky when you arrive at the cemmetry and find that you people are the only ones there. the place is pitch dark with red-black sky.

and i stupidly said " so dark hor? how come no street lamps?"

to which someone replied, making me feel stupid, "this is a cemmetry leh. need street lamps for what?"

we discovered we were early in paying our respects. because from past experience, the pathways are usually jammed by time we arrived. and the traffic police would be on duty to control the traffic.

we travelled and entered with ease. to the extend everyone felt weird that the place was so empty( of people of course!).

i didn't know why. nothing could justify how i felt. i actually felt lonely while i was there. its a feeling i never gotten before while being at such a place. i just felt it. haha...maybe i really am ba.

had to wake up at 4am to leave the house. so naturally i had to make it up for my lack of sleep after we returned home. and now, i could feel the Z-ness in me.

and before i sleep...how could bryan win star idol?! he cant act at all! and once again it proves, good looks get u anywhere lah. even the two ah-jies are so smitten by him. lao se mo.

My friend sent me this email. it was titled "open only if you are in love".

the title is so chessy. but i opened it anyway.

Find a guy....
...who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
...Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
...Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
...who kisses your forehead.
...Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
...Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
...who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
...who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." >>>>>>>>>>>> I like this line like ALOT.


how many guys would dare to tell his bestest friends that this is the girl for him?! which guy wants such commitment?! if you are one, please tell me k, because u are a great catch!

ah girl said, if i add on anymore to my guest list, i can hold a "wedding" already.

she said her wedding only had 265 guests, the minimum to consider it as a wedding is bout 250 pax. and she said, i'm not far from it.

so scary meh?

i like this faint tiredness i'm experiencing now. because it shows i'll be able to have an early night.

BUT, no matter how tired i am, i just wanna grumble alittle bout my mum.

on sunday, she loudly exclaimed she is gonna visit my grandma, which is daddy's mom, because she ain't feeling that well. well, you know, old ppl and sickness.

we happened to have lived in the same area for the past 10 years before we shifted to where we are living today.

okie the above is just an introduction on what i wanna grumble. the thing is, she also loudly proclaimed she is gonna buy roast duck for dinner on monday evening, which is TODAY.

she nagged, and nagged, and asked, and asked whether me and my sista would be heading home IMMEDIATELY after work. i'm a roast duck lover, naturally i said yes, and normally i would head home for dinner unless i have a date.

when i reached home, not only there's wasn't a single piece of roast duck, there wasn't dinner at all! i felt so fucked up. after a tiring day at work, you reached home hungry. you were promised ur fav food. disappointed nvm, theres no food at all you know?

i was more pissed at the fact that she failed to inform us bout it.

mum: i tried to wake ur papa up to walk over to other side to buy dinner. call and call but he cannot wake up
me: you knew since afternoon that you failed to get the duck. and you knew you wouldn't be cooking. why didn't you call me? at least i could have bought something on my way home.
mum: i wanted too. but aiya, i forgot lah. then i sit here watch tv. watch watch then forgot lor.

i was so pek chek, i just wanted to cry.

jolene ho proudly presents to you my mummy dearest.

i am not angry with the fact that she didn't cook. i am angry at her fucking lousy excuse.

if you are not working, isn't the basic requirement of a housewife to tidy matters at home and that includes cooking and washing? if i were to come home to an empty dining table, whats the diff as compared to the times while u were still working apart of the 2k less of income?

i thought this was a relatively small matter. a hungry man is an angry man. women too.

but right, i couldn't stand her stick-in-the-mud-fucked-up-thinking.

you see, its granddad's death anniversary this sunday. a trip to the cemmetry is arranged. since my dad had to return his cab by like 5 am daily, he couldn't drive us there. our usual routine was to be picked up by uncle leng in his cab cause he lives near us.

a week ago, my henpecked uncle told us that his family might be going for a holiday and might not be able to ferry us. okie lor, no transport don't go lor at the most. then a couple of days ago, he changed his words. now he said he is available.

and mummy is pissed. she claims she doesn't wan to see ppl's face and having to owe them this favour. she rather not go if she feels unhappy even when she reach there.

i held back my sarcasm, and i tried to reason out with her. if people wanna talk behind your back, let them talk. their mouths will rot someday i believe. but hello, asking u to pay respects to ur late father. very hard on you issit? happy or not happy, i believe its a form of respect. u are not there to celebrate ur birthday for goodness sake. you are there to pray to ur own father!

but, she INSISTED in her own thinking. even my dad is with me this time. i know i maybe rude to mother at times. but i swear i did my best to reason it out with her. she's just too stubborn for her own good.

so i'm arrowed to go. "you are the best rep if no one in ur family wans to go", my uncle said. i don't mind at all, i'm going to pay respects to my grandfather. i don't care what others are gonna say, but i'll request gong gong to bless them with rotten mouths and decaying teeth. sometimes, the woes of having too big a family.

sighs, politics at work. politics at home. i'm going crazy.

**and after reading the post after posting, i couldn't sense any huge anger. i'm probably too tired to make myself sound angry, i'm blabbering le...blah...goodnites everyone...

When you are at work, and you have nutting to do, you blog.

Let me think...i shall draw up the namelist of people i'm gonna invite to my birthday party tentatively then.

The Princess's Invitation List:
(1) Primary School
poh yian
bao xin
yuan xia
kar wai
dong hao
siah jen

(2) Secondary School (the list is gonna be scarily long)
kelvin
zhiwei
kenneth
derek
eugene tan
kiam hong
wei hwa
siang siong
wei song
gary
yirong
glory
chen ru
kityee
paul

annabelle
wanli
yuin hun
suli
huisin
baoli
peijun
teng teng
ruth
peggy
hui xian
dalun
zhengxin
chinhao
weiliang
weiming
shixiu

xinni
winnie
biyun
joc lee

my red cross mates- michelle, rachel, mel tong, chee keong

(3) JC
Mr Yeo
huili
yilin
huifen
shuhui
yingying
zhao ming
zhen jian
kexian
ganesh
jie ying
sihui

alan
ben
wilson
joreen
hweeying

(4) ACCA
jingwen
xiao jing
zhao jian
yong liang
terence
yingxiu
yuzhen
eileen
grace 1 and 2
yeeshan
jasmine
doreen
jennifer
brandem
kenny
kc
junqing
jeffery
fanny
alex
an ni
cynthia
iris
liyun
jiayan

(5) The ones i love
myboy
boey
flynn
alan
juneyi
liqing
huixin
janice
liya

(6) Cashline babes
bestie
ning
rong
de
cindy
weiling
sirong
hanchuan(oops he is not a babe)
lulu

(7) Family
ah ma
uncle john, wifey, 2 kids
uncle danny
uncle leng, wifey, 2 kids
uncle boy, wifey, 2 kids
fatso

auntie tricia, 2 kids
nanny
auntie lulu, hubby
auntie mary, uncle johnathan
ah girl, hubby, silly bunnie

kuku, her husband, 2 kids
ah peh, wifey, ah ber, jenny
su su
popo

eddie
evans

(8) Others
ailvera
minghui
ejenna
fuchin
win
jack
salleh
selyn
sharon
elaine
xiujia
yingting
qingting
weihan
william


well, for those whose name isn't here, and u felt that u SHOULD be invited, please, do drop me an sms. haha...its highly possible that i missed out certain ppl. well, i dun have my name list with me in the office. so...yea...inform me if i forgotten you!!!

I should be sleeping by now...

...but i'm not.

i just dun feel the tiredness. by right i shd feel so, because i is a good girl today and i cleared certain areas of my room.

firstly, there was my cupboard. bought a few pieces of clothes for work, so some of the ones which i DON'T wear anymore had to "make space". end up, there's a big heap of it. MOST of them i never wore before, and i don't think i'll ever wear them.

secondly, i cleaned my shelves. like AGAIN. the problem with living on the second story and near to the roads is, my room tends to get real dusty very soon. say if i cleaned today, sweep ur fingers along the shelves 3 days later and u will discover a layer of newly formed dust. so, hur hur hur...i did something to it to try to protect the shelves. it doesn't ensure it will be entirely dust-free, but it would minimise dust and make cleaning easier.

so now, my cupboard is neat and my shelves are clean.

oh, and i changed my bedsheets and comforter covers.

i decided, it isn't easy being a full-time housemaker. i wonder why my aunt enjoys it so much.

come the next weekend, i'll have the other side of my room to clear, another set of shelves to wipe, and spaces to evacuate off redundant stuff.

but well, i'm liking my occupied schedule. sets a momentum, makes me feel less lonely, gets me money, gives me working experience which is important and i think less of matters which usually is on my free mind. i'm glad, for my job.

you guys know how i'm always complaining they are paying me so much to idle and surf msn? things are gonna be worse tml i think. the lady who usually gives me work, is going over to korea to bring korea's accounts back to singapore to audit. so, there's no one else to gimme work! they better make sure i have something to do tml...otherwise i might just take a piece of cloth and start wiping the office doors and windows.

i sense Zzz approaching...i just need to pee and kiss you guys goodnite.

-hugs and kisses- goodnites everybody.

sweet dreams darling, missing and loving you.. -muackies-

So Love!!
 

I know you guys lurrrrrrrrve me!!!

First day of work isn't always easy. you worry bout how to impress ur boss, how to blend into the working environment, how to make friends, whether or not you have someone to accompany you for lunch, what to wear, too much make up, or izzit too little.

i woke up at freaking 6.30AM. the sky was still dark dark when i bathed. till i came out, the sky still was dark dark...

reached office, and saw patrick, my BOSS. i nearly flipped when i saw how he looks. my sister has weird definition of good looking. BUT, he is definitely the best looking there. you guys must be thinking "woah, then shd be ok lah...not bad..."

the truth is, the guys there all cannot make it.

we proceeded to have an affair, i mean conversation, in the conference room.

pat: hello jolene
me: goodmorning patrick
pat: -looks at me- -smiles- so you are the younger sister? or are u older than jovina?
me: -grins very happily- well, i look younger? haha...i'm actually the elder sister
pat: oh okies...well...just to be sure you know...some younger siblings do look older. just like me and my younger brother.

i have to admit, pat looks young. a colleage actually reveal he is 40+, but he looks like early 30s to me can?

pat: so i understand, your previous company was synovate. how much did they pay you?
me: -secretly pleased he is mentioning my pay- $6.50 an hour
pat: so how much are u expecting and looking for here?
me: -hesisitates- $6.50, $7?
pat: -looks up at the ceiling thoughtfully- i think based on what we want you to do, that would be UNDER paying you. wait let me just take my calculator, i wanna be fair to you.

meanwhile, the princess is VERY pleased. my sis is only getting $6 an hour, and i'm actually asked to take over what she has been doing so that she can do the more tedious work. but i get paid more!

pat: -molests his calculator when he's back- i think, we will start you at $X.50. is that alright with you?

i tried not to look too shock. i had to stay aloof and maintain my pretty face. lol...
me: so i'll be getting cpf on top of that? work overtime and i'm entitled to 1.5X of my hourly rate? (i needed to ask, because my sis is enjoying none of that)
pat: yea yea. you will. you will be granted a couple of days of leave too. i'm quite flexi with my time. you just gotta tell me in advance. same goes for ur exam break. meanwhile, i'll get HR to draft up the necessary documents.

what CAN i SAY? i'm a happy girl...

i basically spent the first hour idling away, and snapping pictures of myself. then i proceeded to msn. i was given very little work, but i rather i was more occupied. when u are idling, time passes uber slow too you know?



notice its always my left side of face angle taken? i discovered like ages ago that this angle looks best when i take pictures. i know, i'm not some drop dead gorgeous babe. get lost if u dun wanna see lah. hahaha...and from the third row, i had half-tied my hair. that shows how BORED i was.

everyone is alwayssssss free to chat with me on msn. i'll surely be there.

i feel so tired. i bet working is more tiring than having sex.

okie, i have no proof. hahaha...off to bed...off to bed... 

i do not understand....

....why some ppl have to sms u in the middle of the night.

if it was of some importance, then perhaps it could be pardoned. then again, if its THAT important, you would have called me.

i absolutely hate it, when u forward those cute beary smses to me, in the middle of the night. read the last part carefully: in the middle of the night.

its okie to forward it on special occasions. its okie to do it before i sleep.

its NOT okie to forward it in the wee hours. its NOT okie to sms me after i fall asleep.

i've grown very attached my my phone. every slight noise it makes wakes me up. and every sms WILL wake me up! for those close to me, you will know its hard for me to go back to sleep once i'm awaken by such methods.

sighs...people nice to me by sms-ing me, i also must complain lots. i'm being such a bitch.

i started out listening to music at quite a tender age. under the influence of my many aunts i guess. when they told me i used to dance to madonna's like a virgin, i went "huh?" that was when i was like 2 years of age and obviously still very cute. or was i 3? 4? 5? well, u guys get it that i am saying i was young at that time right? still am now though!

anyway, the bizzare thing is, my interest for english songs was never really there. i grew to enjoy listening and humming and singing mandrin pop more often than not. what am i trying to say here? maybe early influence might not necessarily help? so pregnant mums need not do those pre-teaching when the baby is still a foetus?

now that i am of this age, i am one fifth of a century old, once again i find myself straying off. maybe perhaps it was my op. i never felt the same again. my passion for singing seems to have died off gradually. i no longer sing for the pleasure and satisfaction that i used to derive from it. i sing, for the sake of it.

sure, when ppl ask me, i would still exclaim that i lurrrrrrrrrve singing to bits. how true is it, perhaps only me myself would know the exact answer.

did i lose interest for it over time? i seriously dunno. but it works this well isn't it? once u grow tired of something, u find something new.

was blog-whoring tonight. my msn kaki wasn't around and the night is quiet. it certainly was a good chance for me to catch up on the previously missed entries by those blogs which i frequently read.

disclaimer: what i am going to say from now, has got nothing to do with my private life or how things are between me and myboy. its just very.random.thoughts.

so i was saying, i was blog-whoring where i came across this particular guy's blog. he mentioned how he was cheatin on his longtime gf with his present colleage. and apparently both of them are very attached while being attracted to each other.

if there happens to be any guy or anyone who can answer my question with a satisfactory answer, please try.
"how can u claim you LOVE your gf, while SCREWING some other girls, and u find urself developing feelings for her? and u LOVE ur gf still?"

wo bu ming bai....wo zhen de bu zhi dao...

is it the same as the old saying "guys can have 3 wives 4 concubines, while women have to stay faithful to one."?

please, someone explain to me!

its interesting to read bout something that's totally so different from my way of life and how such people actually exists. at the same time, it puts me off totally.

i dunno how girls or guys out there are subjected to such treatments. its just another disheartening episode to add onto the whole love story.

i remember reading one of lulu's entry. this was what she wrote:
"i'm in love. but i miss the feeling of falling in love."

i thought bout it, and i agreed.

this post is getting more random than it could randomly be. i can't sleep because i succumbed to a 90min nap earlier on. i was so tired from the 2 lectures we had today.

on a lighter note, i was quite happy to see my fellow career fair workmates. they brightened up my gloomy morning. not to mention, we are now so "popular". once we walked into the office, the admin staff greeted us by our names! wow-whee! its nice though. i'm enjoying it.

oh, let me just talk abit bout my interview on monday.

patrick, the senior manager, smsed me on sunday to tell me he is gonna take leave on monday, and lattifah, the supervisor will interview me instead. still got such nice guys around not? he is the biggest ass in the office. he could simply delegate his authority without even informing me. but he bothered to can? super mr nice guy. no wonder my sis says he is like so nice.

and he has this to die for voice. when he called me to fix the date and time a couple of days before, i was very intrigued by how he sounded.

when i told my sister, she added that he is the kind of guy i would like. tall with specs and nice hair and mr nice guy. so the next question was, is he attached. u guys know the answer, good guys are never available. but it was said his gf is the suckiest gf one could ever have. before you guys think i am interested in him, i am not. i am just very interested to match his voice to his looks.

anyway, lattifah couldn't make any decisions on my employment. so it is all up to patrick now, who wasn't present at the interview. a bunch of weirdos.

oh, and i suddenly rememebered that i wasn't entirely gonna speak bout my interview. i was gonna talk bout raffles place. the dreaded area.

the crowd. the people. the crowd. the people.

its a scary amount. its as though raffles place was a big piece of candy, and we are all those bloody big red ants that stings!

be thankful if u ever find a decent table to lunch without sharing it with strangers staring at how u swallow ur rice or take a bite off ur chicken drumstick. the unofficial yet very much obliged rule: a packet of tissue paper on the table, means its taken. so can i put a packet of tissue in myboy's pocket and tell others he is taken?

i am feeling so bored now. my hair seems redder by the day. the more i wash, the redder it gets.
i wanted the colour to NOT fade that easily, but not get more loud by the number of washes!

i finally dugged out the answer to the big question everyone is asking: is terence and yingxiu together? answer is YES! hehehehehe...this guy here is a GREAT catch k? maturity comes with age, and he has a very character to begin with. i'm sure the 6 yrs of age gap is nothing to them. afterall, love overcomes everything right?

my thoughts are freaking contradicting themselves right now.

are u guys tired of reading what i wrote already? i wonder how many actually finishes reading every single word, and understand what i am saying. drop me a tag if u did that yea?!

i am not the birthday girl!!!!


bestie said it was as though it WAS my birthday because i was busy snapping pictures with my cashline friends.

well, i have to start practising how to smile right? my big day is only like *counts on bunnie's fingers* *gasps* less than 4 months away!

damn...i feel so stress even like now.

there's the place to fret about, where to book, where hold it...taking into consideration who is coming...

there's the food to cater, who to cater from, blah blah...

there's the cake, where's the best and nicest, and blah blah...

and these are the major and the suface of it only. i hate this feeling and all the hassles.

ironically, i dun resent the thought and fact that i'm actually older. its like i accepted it, not that i couldn't before this, but its more like i dun wanna argue and be in denial. hehe...maybe i've just grew up by this little bit. more to come more to come...the princess is growing up le! 

Busy Days!!!!

sorry for the lack of updates for the past few days. i know and hope i'm greatly missed! hehe...at least its just for a couple of days, not like some others you know? (reads: bestie, xin, rongz, myboy and the list goes on)

wednesday, i went to dye my hair. hur hur...dark red base with bright red highlights. i love my hair!!! your love my hair too?! sorry, the pictures i took of my newly coloured hair looks damn spastic. so i'm not posting any lah. hahaha...u could try to look look see see from the pics below i guess.

helped out at my sch's booth during the career 2006 fair. was there thruout thurs to sat. so fun! made lotsa new friends and i is happy lor! somemore not very tiring. plus its kinda good money. so no regrets.


on sat, it was xin's 21st! i rushed down from sun tec in less than 45 min k? admiralty k?! xiao hui u touched or not!? i walked at lightning speed despite my big-ass blisters. wouldn't wanna miss my best friend cutting her bday cake.




then me, june, and jan stayed over the night. we had lotsa fun taking pictures and doing stupid things. look closely at the pictures...look at my hand and hui's big boobs. i swear it was the angle! my hand didn't touch her at all!



we took these pictures at like 5am. so it kinda explains our dreamy expressions and half closed eyes. i'm so sleep deprived, my head is spinning now. hehe

these are just the consolidation from xin's cam. more to come very soon...

know what's the con of attending bday parties? u get more upcoming 21st invitations!!! -faintz-