And its hell again.

little boy for sale!!!!!
name: Ho Sheng Teck Jasper
age: going on 11 (pri5)
fav: irritating ppl, talking loudly, using vulgarities, eating macdonalds(boey u have a friend here), acting like he is the boss and getting on his sister's nerves
price: i'll galdly give him for free in exchange of a vow that he will NEVER irritate me again!

bleahz, i'm so mean.

i noe, i always mention how much i love kids. i think i'm more patient towards stranger kids rather than my own family kids. in fact, I CAN'T STAND MY BROTHER!

my house sounds like some market the moment he is home. argh...i dun wanna go on complaining...it makes my blood boil only. it would be nice if i could kick him out of the house. yea dream on girl.

he is such a sissy. a wimp. complaining and throwing tantrums just becoz he has no food. and its his own fault before u guys start saying i'm not a good sister. he didn't call home to tell us he is coming home already. and he didn't inform anyone that he needs FOOD. so spare us, u could take it out on mummy, but boy, u are barking up the wrong tree when u start stepping on my tail.

okie did i just said i'm not gonna complain bout him? i'm having this cramps when its not the time of the month yet. and the cramps come for like 10 seconds then disappear and only to reappear after some time. the best remedy is to keep sprawling on my tummy.

and i dunno if its pms or my brother irritated me. (and so had my mum!) i just feel so irritated! argh!!!

everyone stay away. i'll bite!! no joke.

Love was meant to hurt...

love is the sweetest feeling.
love could slice ur heart like a knife.
love often give one heartaches...
but love gives you beautiful memories...

if there's someone u really love, have u cherished ur chance with that person? love don't come knocking twice on ur door...and love doesn't wait for u to build up ur courage. for some, love was still meant to hurt...

part of a conversation between me and a friend...
friend: haiz i just feel like dying.
me: why?
friend: to me, love is nutting but an illusion. no why...just tired with everything suddenly.
me: why is love an illusion?
friend: becoz its something not true, can't touch, and can't see. but it could blind everybody.
me: yea but its sweet isn't it?
friend: sweet? no i dun feel it at all...coz i completely lost my confidence and faith with it... all the missing and the longing...could really take away my life...its so depressing. maybe it would be great if someone can just remove this emotion in humans. then maybe life would be better for everyone...

sometimes i feel..that love seriously messes up people's minds. becoz i have witnessed living examples already. and its scaring me.

uh-hmmm i wanna linger here...

The only reward of virtue is virtue; the only way to have a friend is to be one.

to dearest flynn, sorry i made u angry again...=gives you a big hugs= cool down alrights? i'll call you flynn in future! i promise!!! hope u could see this before u leave for thailand on monday. and make sure u take good care of urself there. hope that all will be well for you when u come back 3 weeks later. hee.

the flu bug is coming on strong. almost everyone is falling sick and the symptoms are the same old ones: sore throat fever flu and cough. i was a personally a victim, dunno who spread to me....even up till now...my sore throat still lingers. seems like it never goes away. so i'm gonna need to make an appointment to the doc's....and i'm wondering where i left my appointment card...=thinks hard= really gonna remove my tonsils in dec. daddy's been bugging me...darling's worried. so yea...i shall be a good girl and do it!

to mommie dearest, daughter still loves you k. you're my special friend u remember? so stop thinking i abandon you. hehe.

keep your face in the sunshine, and u will never see the shadow. darling with you around i need not see the shadows right? =huggles= get well soon yea...and u better not work if u are still feeling sick tml...be good alrights?

suddenly i feel a little hungry. maybe i'm pregnant all over again...lol! but how could that be?! =shakes head=

ps: er....i really couldn't find my appointment card!

BOO!

i'm so tired i wanna sleep for the whole week!

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart. That's where you'll be dear. loving you...

wow...quite true...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

and it's getting freakier as i continue doing...
The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

and its really giving me crrrreeeps...
What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

oh haha..
How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?
You will never expect to control your boyfriend or husband. Your boyfriend and you will take turns to make decision and the decision is often acceptable to both of you. Whatever you want to let him know, you can just tell him straightforwardly. This is a good relationship, a pretty modern one.

damn...so true..
What are the causes of your conflicts with friends?
Ornaments signify harmony. You are likely to have a habit of criticizing. You tend to talk in such a way that you are always right such as "It is not like that." or "I'm not wrong." You should learn to say something like "I'm sorry."

how deep is your love?
You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.

this is erm funny...
What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?
You chicken out easily and it is very possible that you will back out before a quarrel begins.

i've been talking bout this since i was 16!
When will you get married?
Here is the analysis:
You want to get married as soon as possible. You may get married at the age of 20 or right after you have finished your education.

there are so many tests!
It takes you a long time to develop your relationship and fall in love with someone. Once you love, you will love with all your heart, sincerely and forever.

phew..i'm tired from clicking and cutting and pasting the tests' results. some parts were freaky true...enjoy reading them ba...

Happy as can be!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! was so happy when yinting told me she didn't see my name on the list that our school sent to everyone, informing who wasn't being eliminated. in other words, i'm OUT!

YAY YAY!!!!

now now dun start thinking i'm a hypocrite. i really dun wish to continue competing. its just so tiring. at least now i could sit at the cafe and enjoy my fellow schmates' performances while vying to be the sch's performing artistes. i could go to the cafe with a light heart and not stress-stricken.

sorry darling if i had disappointed you. i'm not disappointed so u better share my happiness!

went SIM today with boey to crash lecture. the main reason was i wanted to see her gay classmate, marcus. he is quite cute actually...pity pity... nothing against gays...but i feel...hmm nvm...shall keep my comments to myself.

sighs...i'm too simple-minded...i shd go and live in some kampong...

I'm sorry...

simple as it is, i'm sorry. i dunno wat i said or did hurt you indirectly. and i'm sorry for my insensitivity. perhaps sorry is just a word to make it seem like its putting a full stop to the root of the problem, but apart from that i seriously dunno wat else i could do to make it up to you.

i'm really sorry flynn... maybe you could tell me wat u are upset about...then i'll avoid repeating my mistakes in future. go home okies? everyone is worried. and take care of urself while u are still alone outside. =hugs=

trauma over...

its kinda weird. most ppl who feels tired simply lie on their beds and sleep. for me, right now, i'm actually feeling groggy..but i feel the night is still young...so i'm refusing to sleep. i'm such a weirdo...and since i dun wanna sleep...i shall blog!

guess i was stressed out by the performance tonight...had this bad headache from the night before and it lasted the whole of sat! and panadol didn't seem to reduce my pain in the afternoon....until i took a cold shower...phew~

was late for rehearsal, okie thats nutting new. huiyi said to reach by 6pm. so i took a cab. waste my money can? i reach there they haven even started anything...i even had time to warm up and practise a little and even tie up my hair!

but working with amos is quite enjoyable. never judge a book by its cover...never pass judgements before you seriously get to noe the person. i wouldn't say i noe amos WELL...but at least he didn't seemed as stuck up and anti-social as we tot he was. he was a good instrumentalist...moving in time and rythm of my singing pace. which is good becoz the music and singing shd blend...

we had to prepare 3 songs each, with them deciding which song to sing unplugged, and the other two minus one. for me, they picked "ying wei ni" by elva.

i was singing my "ying wei ni"...then he asked me to sing my "ru guo you yi tian" whilst he played the tune on his guitar. after i finished, he nodded his head and said i could sing this song as well. then i tot he was asking me to sing 2 unplugged and 1 minus one. but apparently he was saying i could sing either 3 or 4 songs.

then when it was sharon's turn to rehearse with him, i had an interesting conversation with this girl, who was also performing tonight.

the girl: hey hi.
me: harlo
the girl: so wat songs u singing tonight?
me: huai tian qi, zhuo tian, ying wei ni and ru guo you yi tian
the girl turned towards our recep and made a why-she-get-to-sing-more-than-me face and questioned :should i be asking why am i only singing 3 songs then?
recep: yah lor 3 songs ah...why you singing 4?
so...i ans: oh amos asked me to sing 4 lor...so i sing lor...

hello...this girl right...she is taking this whole audition thingy too seriously. i noe its like a competition, but does she have to behave like she was at a losing end? the little conversation amused me actually. unbelieveable.

the whole performing ordeal was somewat more relax and laid back as compared to last week's. perhaps there were fewer singers tonight...or perhaps we were getting used to performing already. haha...i sang with a lighter heart and no stress...i wasn't even trembling...maybe it was just the lights...too glaring.

this was the most comfortable performing experience i had so far...but i think i'm still maintaining my stand: i wish to be eliminated. dun wanna put myself into such trauma every week...thinking of wat songs to sing and blah blah.

it was nice of boey jasby and alan to come by the cafe. hehe...jasby even bought me a forever friends bear holding a star with the msg "you are our star"...haha...so sweet of her huh...then boey told me "ezu could play better than amos leh"....see darling, i'm so proud of u! haha...

finally...our shifu sang!!! oh poor flynn...u shd have came...her voice was so power...everyone was stunned...ask boey if u dun believe me. i noe, you hate me right...=draws circles on the floor= so sad...

we left for supper...actually dinner...i wasn't that hungry until i started eating...haha...we walked from princep street to little india k?! haha...impressive or not? okie it was quite near...but the journey was so quiet...and dark...the roads were like deserted with the exceptions of a few cars. then there were "black man"! haha...

boey is busy cleaning her cupboard now. i noe, weird timing too huh? think i'm gonna sleep le. goodnite papa, goodnite mama, goodnite all, and goodnite love.

oh did i mentioned how i sang? haha...better than last week's...sweet dreamz!

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

Did i ever mention how much i lurveeeeeeeeeeeeee kids? No? hehe...okies so i'm like gonna tell allllllllll of you right now...i do i do i do!!!!!!!!! i love kids to bits!!! they are so adorable and lovable and cuddeable and huggable and carrable.....my gosh...i dun even noe if such words exists!

they are so innocent and guileless and it just makes all my troubles and worries go away whenever i see those toddlers. just makes me wanna carry them in my arms and plant a big kiss on their fat cheeks!

the fav kid in the family is definitely still chad. though he doesnt looks as appealing as compared to when he was much younger, i still adore him lots. he has this extremely soft character which makes u wanna give in and not be harsh to him. perhaps he is born in the yr of the goat...sheeps are like very gentle animals right? haha...

not to mention he gives you a wet goodmorning kiss when u are still sleeping. he lies beside you and watch you sleep. sometimes he even lies on ur chest to get close to you. okie guys, he is not a pervert. he is only 2! aiya, in short...i just like this kid can? and everyone likes him! haha...i wan kids this loveable too!!!!!


this is the little love of my life!

i hate smokers!

absolutely hate it when i'm in an enclosed area and ppl are blowing smoke all over. i mean its like air conditioned can? perhaps the owner knew business wouldn't be this good if he didn't allow his patrons to do so. perhaps its just me. so darling, u cannot pick up smoking. i'll just DIE.

i got reprimanded for wanting to drink the "durian durian milkshake" when i'm like sick. okie nvm...ppl are concerned for me...then they started asking me to drink stuff that i dun take. oh come on! i dun drink tea! no coffee either! bear that in mind in future if u ever wanna dictate wat i'm gonna drink! it got me so agitated that i decided the best would be NOT TO DRINK anything at all.

i almost died in the cafe itself. i couldn't breathe with so many ppl smoking. my nostrils felt like someone lit a ciggie and stick it up my nose. so i stood up and declared i'm going home. sounds like some spoilt girl throwing tantrums? sorry the ans is NO! i swear i will just stop breathing and die there if i sat there any longer!

and now my nicely-smelled hair stinks. my clothes stink. my headache is back. if i need to be a social smoker just to get socialized, i rather stay at home and watch my toenails grow. dunno how those ppl do it, i'm amazed. cheers to these ppl, u will die young.

darling stop working so hard can? i dun need diamonds to be happy you noe. dun overwork and tire urself out okies? =huggles=

and u mr rubbish bin, u liar...tell me boey's heart stopped. i'll smack you when i have the chance. just wait and see...=grins=

BAD NEWS!!!

somehow i didn't croak well enough last sat at hark cafe. just received a call from huiyi informing me bad news. i got into round 2 of the whole damn performing thingy. argh!!!!

its stress all over again...plus i'm sick! i sound really bad now. good...this sat i will really stand there and croak with my all new sick and croaky voice.

my former instrumentalist, esther, will not be able to continue playing. so guess wat?? amos teo is taking over. goodness...someone just kill me ba.

croak croak went jolene the princess...
croak croak she shall continue...
croak croak croak...

Sick...

i realised eating sakae sushi always contributes to a faster and worse sore throat. trailing behind is eating potato chips, then taking chilli. but then again, maybe its becoz that rubbish bin kept calling me low class then i fell sick! pffts..

now my poor throat is in great pain. my already huge tonsils are bigger than usual. and i sound so man now. haha... it doesn't help that its always raining recently, especially given the fact that i do enjoy walking in the rain. dizzle that is...not heavy downpour. and its so cold!!! i cover myself with my blanket with my fan only at speed 1. boey would be surprised since i'm always complaining of the heat.

times like these, i'll appreciate if the air con wasn't too strong. i was freezing in class today. the moment i entered class, i wore my jacket and zipped it up! but i was still shivering! toopid zhao jian still dare to tell me not cold leh...where got cold...

okie my entry doesnt make any sense is it? yah lah my headache and flu is over-riding my thinking ability.

gonna sleep real soon...la la la...

love you dearest.

Was bored, so i decided to do this when i saw pinksheep giving alan the link in irc. i must say its quite true...only the last two points...hmm...not really true...

keys to my heart!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

my birthday?

Your Birthdate: July 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

love type?

Your #1 Love Type: INFJ

The Protector In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls. Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself. Best matches: ENTP and ENFP

Ah-chhhhiuuuu!

somehow after sleeping from 5+am till 2 in the afternoon, i'm still groggy...and i look damn tired. why is this so?

been sneezing non-stop since i was over at boey's. a bad sign of falling sick...i hope not...i dun like being sick. bleahx.

wanna thank everyone for their support at hark cafe on saturday night.

to my classmates who took time off their busy schedule and they actually came down at 6.20pm when i came at 7.40! haha...i was so late, yet they were so understanding...gonna miss you guys when we are no longer in the same class...and to steven and terence who came after your own activities, the princess is touched! i'm too lazy to upload the pics now...will do so if i'm not lazy in future. haha...

to my singing companions and classmates, u guys had been here every single performance we had since its opening. i'm so so so grateful for the moral support u guys had given me. i'm sure sharon feels the same. a million thanks.

to boey, alan, loraine and huiwen. u guys had ur own plans, yet u made the effort to come down. i'm so loved right? hehe...

to the stinky rubbish bin aka xiao an! i hope u are reading this u low class rubbish chute! thanks for ur wonderful low class "comments"! hope u stink FOREVER! meanie...okie lah sayang k..was just kidding...u are my jie mei right?!

but the bottom line is, i sang REAL BAD. and i dun mind getting eliminated. seriously i dun. its STRESSFUL being in it. i wanna get out of it!!!

went to find boey, alan, loraine and pinksheep at boat quay after i left the cafe at round 1am. they are supposed to close at that time, but in walked this group of super cute guys...haha...so i think they allowed! see...u need the looks to get u somewhere...haha.

i officially declare alcohol sucks! i think the only alcohol drink i enjoyed was the vodka lime i drank at chinablack. so nice! haha...be it beer or watever...the rest just sucks...good right...this proves i'm a good girl!

i'm tired...gonna sleep...AGAIN

Simple thanks...

it actually takes very little effort to make someone's day. simple things you do, simple gestures, could simply put ur love ones on the top of the world...easy as that, have you done ur part today?

talking to one of my friend now. she is over the big big moon just becoz she found out her crush is very much single. a simple sms from him reading "i dun have a gf" could make her go crazy. i can't believe i'm entertaining her on msn at this very moment. but well...sweet lovey moments like these, i dun mind being the friend to share it. afterall, she was there when i was down and out. she gave me advice and encouraged me. for that, i'm thankful for her existence.

surrounding me are my angelic friends...ppl like boey never fails to make me feel i'm the luckiest princess on earth. she pampers me like hell and is always so giving in to me. but hey, there are times when she is awfully stern as well. i could make friends anyway anytime. but to have a friend to stay by ur side, i'm grateful that i have my mommie!

not to mention daddy who is my street directory. and entertaining us with his stupid goofy actions.

my bestest girlies all the way back from secondary sch...liqing, juneyi, xiao hui, liya....our friendship marks way back from our teenage years. we had our ups and downs...but eventually, today, we are still standing strong. though i dun get to see you guys often, i still love you guys!

to my dearest...no one could ever replace you. you're the best thing that could ever happen to me. love you to bits!! =muackz=

Panda?

Does anyone knows wats pandas' greatest wish?

To take coloured photos.

well i tot it was funny when i heard it...and it makes sense. it also makes sense to me when ppl describe their dark eye cirles as a result of lack of sleep as having "panda eyes".

i think i'm blessed. For i dun have panda eyes no matter how little sleep i get. i dun get eye bags. i can save money on consealer..which i believe most vain girls own them.

for the past two mornings, hardworking blagadesh workers had been faithfully drilling on canberra roads. and they start out wayyyyyyyyyy early to disrupt my sleep. not that i'm a piggy, but i do sleep late. so it kinda irritates me that i'm awaken by loud drilling sounds as early as 8am! so now i'm feeling sleepy and grouchy and having a slight headache.

they stopped at round 11plus. to my horror, they are resuming their work NOW. 2.13PM. argh!

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NKF?

we started a family debate about how much NKF is earning and how much money actually goes towards the funding like a yr back.

back then, all i remembered was how pitiful those ppl were and how fortunate i really was. and seeing the dangerous stunts the artistes put up, naturally i donated. Don't get me wrong, i believe they still deserve our donations...provided the money is correctly used and not for some $990 gold tap in the CEO's bathroom.

i stopped, when my uncle and aunt told me "out of a dollar, most of it are spent on the prizes, some to paying the artistes, and only the remaining few cents actually goes to the funding."

it irks me more becoz at the same time, i recieved a call from NKF, thanking me for my donation thru my brother's donation card(u see, they have these cards thingy going on in schools) and asking if i'm interested to take one card myself and go around asking for donations. i firmly said no, but that freaking woman sent me one. it pissed me off becoz i had examz ongoing and i told her NO!

and reading the article on newspapers earlier on, i'm so disgusted. i'm waiting to see wat strategies the hosts are gonna used to make ppl donate for the upcoming cancer foundation show for the third consecutive week. in fact, i even stopped watching these shows since i can't remember when. it just makes me feel that they are making use of our sympathy to get their aims.

1.8 million dollars in 3 years...12 months bonus...wat a good job...interested applicants, please send ur resume to you-know-where.

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My Wednesday...

lets not allow bad news to spoil my entry...lets talk about yesterday.

i watched this jap movie "crying out love, in the centre of the world". the title shd be right...if i hadn't remembered wrongly. its quite a waste of time and money. dun believe wat reviews it had been given. we were duped into watching it after jiayan claimed it was a GOOD show.

but i think its the company that counts. if zhao jian did not tell me jokes during the movie, i would have simply fell asleep. the movie was bout 2.5 hours. its an agony.

oh, and i k with teng teng in the morning till 2...

so i never fail to meet up with my mommie and daddy. boey was looking so cute in her 3/4s and pink polo, plus her shoes and converse sling bag. i was laughing when i saw her. and she was sweaty and stinky too! haha...i made her go to bodyshop and sprayed moonflower all over her. in the end i ended up buying the moonflower perfume becoz it was on offer...haha...haiz haiz...

alan best. i couldn't believe my eyes when i saw wat he wore. boey couldn't close her mouth after she dropped it. haha...alan is gonna kill me for saying this...but he looked as if he was wearing only a tshirt plus boxers. he claimed he wanted to show off his sexy legs.

i wanna go do my homework le. i'm a good girl. sounds weird if i were to say "i'm a good woman" just becoz i did my homework right? haha...

I really don't learn my lesson...

yesterday i was telling my sister "lesson at 8.30. i'm going to bathe at 7.00 then leave the house by 8pm". my sister was snorting...she knew i couldn't make it...she knew i would dilly-dally and be late in the end.

so, she was so right. i only reached sch at9pm! and my punishment for being late again? another encounter with the blackies.

noticed i used the word "another"?

yea thats becoz this is NOT THE FIRST TIME!

the first time, i was with selyn. heading home after lessons when this black guy ask us for directions. i'm not exactly a walking street directory so i wasn't of much help. guess wat this blackie asked me at the end of his query?

"can we be friends?"

i tot he was refering to selyn. so i pulled her towards me and asked "her?"

"no, you." he said pointing at me.

i quickly said no no we were in a rush and ran off, with selyn laughing like a mad woman.

that was with company...at least it wasn't that bad...

imagine u are a girl, and u are all alone...and the guys followed u?

that was wat happened the second time. from the traffic light all the way till the ntuc house opp paradiz center, this black guy kept blabbering in a language i couldn't understand. but i could see the "leer" from his expression. i stopped, he stopped. i continued walking, so did he. so i told him "if u continue following me, i'll scream."

he had no choice but to back off.

so u guys must be wondering whether i changed my route of walking to sch? haha...no i didn't...indeed i dun learn my lesson. i shd really smack myself...thinking back of how dangerous it was, it gave me chills.

the final straw came yesterday, monday. again i was late for class. this time, as i walked past hotel rendevous, this black guy made a "chui chui" sound with his mouth. you noe...the sound those ah lians and ah bengs used to address each other from far... so i tot my friend saw me and was calling me. not that i'm an ah lian...but i do have friends who do that...

so when i turned, i was horrified to see a BLACK guy! i turned away and continue my pace....only to have him calling me once again. this time i ran! yes u guys din see wrongly. the princess ran. i was panting and all sweaty when i reached sch...i so much wanted to cry...haha...but i didn't lah...i brave mah.

boey was telling me "eh girl dangerous you noe...you could get rape." it didn't occur to me at that point of time...all i wanted was to get away from these freaks. and there's really this possibility lah...so scary hor...haha...

3 times is enough. in future, i'm either gonna meet my classmates...or walk a different route. i dun care if i'm late or not. my decision is final!

nite nite all...

i love my sunshine!

Ways to mend your broken heart...

stumbled upon this article while surfing...

• Throw a small party. The fun of letting loose and being surrounded with your close friends can make anyone feel better. [chey wat if u are not a party person?]

• Gather everything that reminds you of your past love and put it in a box specifically for this. Then give it to a friend or store it somewhere where you won't see or think about it. When you're ready you can either throw away the box or keep it for memory's sake. [just throw it away lah...save urself the heartache...but just dun regret doing so 10 mins later...hehe]

• Start a daily journal, even if it's on your computer. Somewhere everyday take the time to jot down whatever comes to mind. The idea in starting a journal is not to write cleverly or even about anything important. Just write (or type) whatever comes to mind even if your journal starts to look like this: "Went shopping yesterday for a new book oh yea need to e-mail Susan, the flowers on that window sill need watering." The point of your journal is to clear your thoughts. In a few weeks you will be able to read your entries to discover new things and trends about yourself. [i always feel i'm blabbering nonsense...anyway i already have one...]

• Join a new interest group. It's never too late to meet new friends and, at least this way, you'll already have one thing in common. [yeah u never know when u would meet someone real cute too. haha]

• Learn something new. Take a foreign language or art course, or buy a how-to computer program. [ yah lah...learn the piano...learn the guitar...take jap lessons...take french lessons...take gardening lessons...take "how to be a good housewife" lesson...take "how to not be a jerk" lesson...oopsie...haha]

• Pick out an inspirational book or movie to read or watch whenever you start feeling down or depressed. [watching sad movies at this point of time gives you the excuse to brawl!]

• Take yourself out on a date, even if it's a night alone watching your favorite programs and eating your favorite foods. [huh alone? feels so weird...]

• Do the things you said you always wanted to do when you were with your partner but somehow never did. [i dun understand how this would help]

• Get a new look. [oh this is exactly the way like wat ppl said, u gotta cut ur hair to show u are over that guy/girl and a new haircut means a new start and not dwelling on the past. i'll kill myself if i ever cut my hair short]

• Pick up a calendar and fill out the next 3 months with social events you'd like to attend or things you'd like to do. Browse your city's web site or the entertainment section of your local newspaper to find out ideas, dates and times. [as if there are anything thats so happening that u have to fill out ur calender 3 months ahead of time]

• Spend a "comfy" day. Get out your favorite comfy clothes, pillow, blanket, etc. and just spend the day relaxing doing whatever you want! [finally i could bring my eeyores out?]

• Get a pet or plant to take care of. [ i dun mind having a dog...if mommie ever allows...]

• Rent a few romantic movies or read a few romance novels to remind yourself that love does still have happy endings. [you never know till the end...]

• Write a goodbye poem or letter. Then stick it in a bottle and throw it out in the sea or attach it to a helium balloon to be carried away. [=faintz= might as well burn and drink it up]

• Do something you wouldn't normally do to celebrate your "singleness." [like slashing ur wrist? jumping off a building? drinking alcohol and eating 24 panadols at the same time? or jump down the train track when the mrt is approaching?]

• Redecorate your space. Start off by cleaning out everything and throwing away anything you don't use or need anymore. Make a few self-indulgent decorating additions like a few candles, a favorite painting or fresh flowers! [ i would repaint my room pink!]

• Visit a new city. Pick some place you've always wanted to go or some place closer to home to save money. [anywhere as long as i can take a plane ride]

• Spend time with your friends. [why is this point at the very end? i think this is the most important thing...even if u are attached...]

okie i wanna go take a shower and do my homework le. please take the shocked looks off ur faces...i'm a good student k? so stop thinking i'm lazy! pffts...goodnites ppl...

Performance??

zhao jian said i must wear the earrings they bought me today. haha...so yeah...i wore it for the rehearsal.

i dunno why, i was freaking nervous even before i left the house. when we had the preview performace 2 weeks ago, i was more calm than i was today. and that performace had more audience and other much better singers. to think i even thought of standing them up and not going for the rehearsal...but eventually i told myself its just another form of ktv. if i can sing in main halls of ktv and pubs(thats in KL where nobody knows me!), why can't i do it in the cafe? sighs...yeah...but it doesnt seem to help much...haha

was supposed to bring lyrics of "ying wei ni" out and memorise on the train. but i was late and in a rush so i forgot to bring! i can't remember the words...and i started to panic. when i reached sch, i had to beg huiyi to let me listen to the disc and copy down parts where i wasn't familiar with. and i was the first to sing you know? pressurizing hor?!!

there were only 3 performers for the night...so it wasn't that competitive....i slowly became less nervous. the weird thing is, i was more nervous off-stage. when i went on stage to sing, somehow i was more relaxed and calm. just like the previous preview performace. so yea...i guess its good this way.

i'm not really sure how well i sang or fared. but they said it was good. so.......who am i to argue? haha...rather get positive comments than negative ones right? but dunno why the mic is so soft today...my friends kept gesturing me to sing louder. any louder and i would be screaming already lah girls...

oh..and shifu got her brother to work at the cafe. i must say their family genes is excellent. her brother is so cute can? i like cleanly shaven guys...but he isn't lor. the thing is he actually looks good though he is not "clean". erm yea..and nice eyes...haha okie i shall stop lamenting bout him here huh...not good not good....

my tummy is aching. i have no idea why. it started before i went on stage to perform. and it lasted till like now? pain pain go away...dun ever come back to me again...

I'm so pregnant!!!

i feel so pregnant today. i dunno why. maybe its the lack of sleep...but i dunno...seems to me that i had to drag my feet the entire day...and i was constantly yawning. u guys have any idea wat i had today? 1 dumpling in the morning before i went for class. 1 sandwich in class...courteousy of mr terence tan. bk for lunch with boey. shredded chicken noodles for dinner. and it was like 2 hours after dinner that i complained i was hungry. then we had ajisen ramen...but i only ate dumplings and prawn maiyonese.

quite scary huh?

"little jolene...please stop eating up all my food the moment it enters my tummy can?"

haha for those readers who have mistaken me, i'm not pregnant. haha...

finally i saw miss pinksheep today. well...she is really tall and intimidating. haha...but she kept insisting that i hate her. girl i'm sorry k...was just tired...this crazy girl went to pierce her tongue...i think her backside itchy only...haha...

lecture today was okie. really had to adjust to sami's indian accent in class. sometimes he speaks too fast...sometimes too loud...sometimes he mumbles...i still prefer roy. furthermore roy is so much cuter...his goatee is sooooo MAN. hahaha...=grins=

after class...while packing my bag, terence pulled out a SK jewellery bag and card saying "nah, this is for you." haiz...this guy huh...so unromantic. haha..simply chuck it under my nose like that. how to go after girls huh u? anyway it was a shared gift with my other classmates. in the past after class, i would always tell them while walking past those jewellery shops "eh ur buy me diamonds lah...i dun mind one...haha". see...nagging does help. i got my wish...got a pair of diamond studs from them. thanks guys...=huggles=

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i was mildly horrified when my brother told me "jie jie i got wet dreams leh..."

i turned and stared at my sister who in turn said "yah lor he crazy one..."

"no lah, today health education i learnt one."

erm excuse me MOE, i understand u teach the kids bout puberty. but wet dreams? hello?! to make matters worse, he even added "my teacher very funny one leh...he dun like to say penis, so he says ku ku bird."

=faintz=

i dun wanna say anything more with his wolfish grin on his face.

afterall i guess...he is growing up...

sleep sleep...pregnant ladies gotta sleep.

miss you dear..=hugs=

More added onto the list...

i'm having this terrible headache as i'm typing this out. one thing that puzzles me, why am i always having it? i'm getting lotsa sleep everyday u noe...so maybe i'm right...i have a brain tumor and i'm like dying soon.

okie so enough of my nonsensical blabbering.

so..was late for class. wats new? today was a record late. i left my house at 8.30pm can? its just so coincidental that my lesson happens to start at the same time! haha. lucky the previous class ended late...so when i arrived at 9pm...i was just in time.

thats just the problem with me. i dun learn my lesson. i'll continue going for class late. and that happens to my classes at ACCA too. i'm a lazy bum. someone shoot me.

i was shocked when sharon appeared with a cake and 2 BIG candles. yes this is the same sharon as mentioned on my sat's entry. and this signifies the 3rd cake i'm cutting...but this time...they are celebrating shifu's advanced bday on the 9th as well. so yea!! i've got 3 wishes!!! 1 per cake!! wheeeee..

philosophy of the day:

• quiet
• noisy

saw this on the board...and its the key to finding our bday cards. mine, obviously was noisy...so i found it hidded behind the speaker's casing. shifu's card was slot behind a painting. it was just so nice to know that they had painstakenly went thru great lengths to plan it. thanks guys...

was even more surprised when they gave me a pressie, saying its from qingting. she did a "winnie the pooh" jig-saw puzzle and framed it. she even apologised for being unable to find a puzzle with lumpy...u see..she read my blog...so she had the idea...awwwwwwww...thankew girl...

mr sweet is attending lecture with me tml... wheeeeee... lonely... i am not lonely... hehe...

this is fast...

lessons officially starting tml at SAA from 2 to 6pm. mr sweet aka zhao jian is still recovering from his dengue fever. hope he is in time for lecture...otherwise i'll be sitting all alone!! very poor thing one u noe...sitting all by myself...please please be discharged by then. hehe...

still deciding whether i shd go over to granny's place to stay over or not. coz going SAA would be much faster from her place...well well...=considers considers=

going for my singing lesson soon...sighs...

Just for laughs...

Marriage (Part I)
Typical macho man married typical good-looking lady and after the wedding he laid down the following rules:"I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time I want and I don't expect any hassle from you. I expect a great dinner to be on the table unless I tell you that I won't be home for dinner. I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing and card playing when I want with my old buddies and don'tyou give me a hard time about it. Those are my rules. Any comments?"

His new bride said, "No, that's fine with me. Just understand that there will be sex here at seven o'clock every night... whether you're here or not."

(DAMN SHE'S GOOD!)
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Marriage (Part II)
Husband and wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding anniversary! The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads:"Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever.'

"Yeah?" she replies. "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads:"Here Lies My Husband Stiff at Last.'"

(HE ASKED FOR IT!)
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Marriage (Part III)
Husband (a doctor) and his wife are having a fight at the breakfast table. Husband gets up in a rage and says, "And you are no good in bed either," and storms out of the house. After sometime he realises he was nasty and decides to make amends and rings her up. She comes to the phone after many rings, and the irritated husband says, "what took you so long to answer the phone?"

She says, "I was in bed."

"In bed this early, doing what?"

"Getting a second opinion!"

(YEP, HE HAD THAT COMING, TOO!)
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Marriage (Part IV)
A man has six children and is very proud of his achievement. He is so proud of himself, that he starts calling his wife," Mother of Six" in spite of her objections. One night, they go to a party. The man decides that it's time to go home and wants to find out if his wife is ready to leave as well. He shouts at the top of his voice, "Shall we go home 'Mother of six?"His wife, irritated by her husband's lack of discretion shouts right back,"Anytime you're ready, Father of Four."

(RIGHT ON, LADY!)
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THE SILENT TREATMENT
A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly the man realised that the next day he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't waked him when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up

(moral of the story? men can't live without women. period.)

On your birthday...


i no longer wanna think bout the past...i wanna move ahead and see my future...a journey whereby i may have to walk alone. and i'm not gonna let minor setbacks get me down...becoz i'm the princess...

boey's mum is a good cook. the nasi lemak we had for breakfast was good. unlike my mum, who is simply too lazy to cook. oopsie...but thats the truthsiee...

met alan at ps. had my second cake, and finally got to open the big big box of presents they got for me. haha...there were exactly 20 items in it to signify me going on 20. so "sweet and thoughtful" of them isn't it?

the items...

1. lumpy! (mac happy meal's toy)
2. a pinky pen which lights up when u writes
3. a pack of nappy sacks...in other words wet ones...(for? by time i have a baby, it might have dried up already)
4. a pack of chocs that looks like ciggies
5. sticky notepad (again for?)
6. toothpaste...the kiddy kind with the disney princesses' faces
7. a warmer...to keep me warm...they forgot i'm a walking heater..hehe
8. eeyore hp pouch...so cutsiee
9. eeyore mirror...my life revovles round eeyores...
10. screen cleaning mobile straps..they came in a pair...haha
11. a door sign reading "our princess sleeps here"...now now thats the right gift!
12. a pinky eeyore bag...man i love u guys...
13. a file...jasby said sch is starting for me soon...
14. stickers...
15. more stickers...
16. aussino towel...
17. a box of tissues featuring winnie the pooh and gang...
18. a pinky bin reading "princess"...even has a crown above the words...
19. candles reading "happy birthday"..they wanted me to blow it at marina south...but luckily they forgotten...
20. a packet of sanitary pads...just to fill up the 20th item. haha

next up we went marina south. i so badly wanted to fly a kite...and they have hello kitty kites can? haha...but right...no matter how hard we tried...the kite cant seem to stay in the sky. really i tried many many times...so i figured its not meant to fly. why force? think i'm such a person...i give up easily...i walk away when i encounter problems...

think we spent quite some time getting it to fly...becoz it was quite dark when we finally went to the video arcade. alan and boey really lousy lor...every game we play they lose to me. the funniest incident, was when we were competing daytona. boey drove backwards, meaning the the opposite direction. and she was trying ultra hard to ram into us. too bad...she FAILED...miserably...

headed to lao pa sa for some dinner...the prices of the food were so ridiculous. the only thing i felt was not exaggeratingly marked up was the prices of canned drinks. i do not wanna mention the things alan did. just makes me regret not smacking him there and then.

went home after that...thanks guys for making today happen. =huggles= love you all...

ps: to boey's elder brother, if smiling at you means i'm flirting with you, then i'm flirting outrageously every single day of my life. and yes even to strangers...lol...but u are kinda good looking...so yea...i dun mind smiling at you! hehe!! and to boey's daddy...yea i think u are cute...u remind me of my daddy...

Walking out of teenage life...

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me~, happy birthday to me!

as well as to kiam hong, liya, and suli...happy birthday! we are officially 20!

had a great day. went spaceship for ktv wtih sharon karen and jason. karen was saying she's gonna intro us to some guys who could see really well too. wat rubbish was that...haha....and one of them is a gay! nothing against gays...i just couldn't stand his sweetness when he sang the female part of a duet. bleah...it was such a nightmare. sharon kept eating popcorn in order not to puke. haha....

i cut my first cake today(sat). sharon bought the cake and they sang me a birthday song with the mtv. haha...it was so sweet of them can? considering the fact that i only knew karen and jason for 1 week...and today was just our second meeting. lol...then after that jason even sang me another individual bday song. =drowns in honey= haha....i think its such times that u feel the sweetness and such love!

dear maiyo, thankew for ur flowers. it made boey so embarrassed carrying the flowers and she was so glad to hand it over to me. hehe...yes u got ur wish, this is my first present. =hugs=

met boey and jasby, alan and win. together we made our way to erm...geylang, the land of good food plus pros.the weather so warm and humid...we almost drowned in our perspiration. and geylang is so crowded. we finally settled for the famous you tiao and tao huay.

next up, we paid the pros a visit. win brought us to walk thru all the streets and showed us which areas belong to which races. it may seem very normal for the prostitutes to be standing there and being leered at by lecherous man. but to me, i was so disgusted by that sight. its just so er xin...it was even worse when boey and jasby told me the guys are actually looking at me.

"its obvious they know u are not a prostitute. but they are looking at u becoz u look young, and u were carrying flowers." - boey

"jolene come u better walk near me, the guy kept staring at you. he almost touched you if u were walking any slower le." - jasby

eeeeeeeeyew...my goodness...so if anything happens, i asked for it becoz i went there willingly? pffts...MEN!~

headed back to yck...boey convinced me it would be easier if i stayed over at her place tonight...so yup here i am....its so warm...she really needs a daikin...

haha...i'm bored....jasby is slping...mommie is playing game...no one is entertaining me....booo.....

missing you....