Noisy!

Good morning everybody...you guys must be wondering why am i up so early...all thanks to the construction workers drilling away on the roads. But something which i do not understand...why do they have to start work so freaking early?? They begun drilling at 8.20 AM can?!

not that i'm complaining....i had a lecture at 10, which means i had to wake up latest by 7.30am. BUT, i overslept! just when i tot i could enjoy my sat morning lazing in bed, the horrible drilling started!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! life is hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my eyelids are still threatening to shut...

received a call from huiyi last night...seems like i'll have an instrumentalist accompanying me for the perfomance night. haha..coolness...but have to coordinate with him/her. haha...when she told me i was like "huh? really?! i wan junde!!!!" immediately we both burst out in laughter...in case for those who dunno...junde is that good looking guy who was in my former singing class...but i had to switch classes because of work committments. and he also made it through the audition...BUT, sigh...he is performing individually...so i'll end up with some other guitarist or pianist...its fine with me lah...just assign me with someone cute please. haha...
"JOLENE HO you are such a DISGRACE!!! how can u think like that?!"

anyway gotta pick 2 songs to for the instrumentalist to coordinate with me...below are the 5 songs that i might and most probably attempt:
1) zhi de - sammi
2) jie shou - liang jingru
3) ying wei ni - elva
4) bai se hun li - peggy hsu
5) Tiffany - liang jingru

headache...dunno which one to choose also...haha...

Missing is a torture, forgetting is a misery...

finally i know what is producer zhong xiao gang's real name : huo jian hua.
Channel U's dolphin show is indeed quite draggy...but i just enjoy watching such romance stories.. these scriptwriter are sadists...they enjoy tormenting the characters before they have a happy ending.

my entry title was extracted from the show... quite sad that missing someone could actually be a torture. i always thought its something sweet and from the heart until it occurred to me that, whatever or whomever you are missing might not be yours or had never been yours. maybe then i'll feel the torment, and the pain...

But i think forgetting is the worse part...because it shows...something or certain events did really take place that left an impact in ur heart. Forcing urself to forget is the worst off...when u are forcing, it shows u aint ready to move on...it may sound clinche(is that how u spell it?) here...but i believe time plays the major role.

la la la la...i think i am just blogging for the sake for it lah...haha...oh more hello kitty magnets added to my collection...i wanna collect alllllllllll! and maiyo, please return mi my magnets!!!!

PAIN!

My headache is really killing me...maybe i'm dying...

When 2 becomes 1...or will it be 3?

sorry for the 5 days lack in updates. after the interview with mass comm at ntu, i had no mood to blog at all. first of all let me begin by telling everybody the whole interview was a mistake. the interviewer of mine kept harping on the fact that with my results, i couldn't get into the sch at all.. oh come on! why on earth they asked me down for the test and interview then? the blardy test started at 9am can? and i had to wake up at 6.30am lor.. blardy hell...everytime i think of wat that bitch said to me, i'll begin fuming...blardy idiot..hope she chokes on her food.

anyway today we celerated mummy's and cousin chad 48th and 2nd birthdays. it was that sort big family gathering with lotsa food. there's so much to eat that i felt it was a torture to my tummy! didn't really enjoy myself , the main reason was, most of my cousins are at least 10 yrs younger than me...wat am i supposed to talk to them about? and the rest of my aunts and uncles were busy talking bout babies and family and money issues...boring...

but the good thing is, with a bigger family, you get more connections...preparations for my 21st birthday are already one of the main topics discussed today. and i haven even celebrate my 20th yet! haha...so tentatively its gonna be like a chalet with catered food. damn...why are all 21st birthday celebrations so identical?

clara was sent to the hospital at around 8pm because she complained her tummy was in pain..if she gives birth after 12 midnight hor, then both chad and her newborn girl, cheryl, and as well as my mummy will share the same birthday, 25th april! and that explains my bloggie entry title..haha

oh boy the joy of being a mummy...
an extract of a conversation withy mummy earlier on:
mummy: so fast hor, chad is 2 liao =looks at chad cutting his cake=
me: ya lor, wat do u expect? next yr i'll be 21 le leh...
mummy: wah u 21 liao meh? so fast meh? then can get marry liao lor...
me: yah lor i go marry an ang moh k? [this has a family story joke behind it]
mummy: then i'll kill you..you better marry a chinese man!
me: ah why? marry indians wan? then u'll get roti prata everyday...or malays?
mummy completely ignored me...haha

I'm dying of pain!

My headaches are very faithful followers who never cheats on me, especially these 2 days. I'm not really appreciative of such faithfulness...so if possible please just find a new lover and leave me aloneeeeeee...

thurs is nearing...

Where's the man?!

=wipes off sweat from my forehead=
i just saw this teeny tiny cockroach which i tried to kill with a book, but missed all 5 shots. Where's a man when a woman needs them? please see that my brother grows up fast, but not so fast for me. hehes...

I'm over the moon...i got thru the audition!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! will most probably get to perform at hark music's cafe as a professional singer if i pass their "probation period". life just couldn't be any better for me this week...receiving 2 pieces of great news!

At the same time, life could jolly well be as unpredictable...i was told of news i wished it wasn't true...and the truth hurts...i guess...

I'm one happy girl today...

Dear Miss Ho Sheng Kim Jolene



I am pleased to inform you that you have been shortlisted from a large pool of applicants for consideration to pursue communication studies at the School of Communication and Information.

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This was what I saw the moment I ripped the NTU's envelop open and pulled out a single sheet of paper. Earlier on as I was opening my letterbox, I was shocked beyond words, thinking that this year's rejection letter came relatively early(its only early april now, i got mine last late june). The anxious me just couldn't wait. While waiting for the lift, i started opening the letter. I seriously thought it was a rejection letter because if the school had accepted you, they would have mailed the student a big bundle of materials and forms to fill in. So i wasn't expecting anything important till I saw the interview date. I swear I was jumping for joy and grinning and smiling and flashing my dimple to myself. This good news came at a right time, over-shadowing the bad week I've had.

Come on people, for those who are not sharing my joy and excitement, just go away. But for those who really understand what and how I am feeling now, all i could say is words are beyond what I am going through at this very moment. All the screams and shouts fro earlier on had tire me out. If i'm successful, I'm gonna take mass com. My goodness...this like a dream come true...

I still remember discussing with xiao hui over at her house when i did my online application. I don't have fantastic grades, in fact i failed physics.But I still went ahead to apply for it this year just to give myself some hope. And School of Communication and Information isn't exactly easy to get in. I'm so blessed. Maybe there's still light at the end of the road...or maybe this is just like what people would say a "big break".

I know, its just an interview. Why raise up your hopes so early? What if they reject you later down the road? These are questions running through my head now. But i just couldn't contain my happiness and excitement. And even if I'm really being rejected, I'll still be gald I was given this one chance when I had hope once again.

Show me there's still a miracle...by allowing me to love you
may i love you?
i sort of translated it into english...for those who hasn't listened to it yet, the title of the song is "rang wo ai ni" ("Let me love you") by vic chou and big S.

Did i hear BOOKS?

Managed to finish 2 novels in like 3 days..."just friends" and "shopaholic and sister". both books belong to boey, dunno why she is suddenly crazy over lovey dopey stories. she always stops at bookstores and ending up purchasing a few.

anyway, a brief summary...
"just friends" talked bout this lady, freya, who has many obstacles in her lovelife, not knowing that the one for her had actually been by her side for more than 10 yrs. and this guy is actually younger than her...
"shopaholic and sister" is all bout this becky who is married to luke and she has a serious money control problem. i really couldn't stand her as i read the book...i felt so pissed...i just wanna know how she ended up...but the problem with such novels is, the main characters always have happy endings...no twist at all...but so be it ba...i'm quite gald with this ending...at least i prefer this book to the first...(boey do not tell me my "mini book review" is wrong!)

woke up quite late today cause i slept late..was reading.. i just felt so lazy the entire day..not to mention my rotten mood...

its ridiculous that the NKF charity show actually raised close to 7million bucks in just 3 hours. after hearing my uncles and aunts discuss bout how much reserves nkf has, and the fat bonus that their staff has gotten, i was a little less enthusiatic in donating. BUT, it did not stop me from tearing when they showed real life stories of those patients...somehow my heart soften...Its good to be soft regarding such matters...as well as issues deserving it...

dear maiyo really changed my impression of him..haha maiyo, if u are reading this, keep it up!!

listening to ai xiang shui by emil chau now...suddenly i miss timothy...but i dunno where the hell he disappeared to...haha...i should seriously stop missing people that i shouldn't...=knocks my head=

goodnites people...

I hate Crowds!

Orchard is definitely full of delinquents. The princess's definition of delinquents: students in uniform, teenagers who look like they haven undergone puberty, teenagers with WEIRD dress-sense, and young people who uses nothing but vulgar language whenever they open their mouths. sure, i did belong to one of these categories 2 yrs ago. in fact i believe at that time, there were people who had my thoughts. so now, its MY turn to think this way.

it simply irks me to see such people...wats wrong with them? Can't they behave? Can't they dress NORMALLY? Can't they talk in a more civilized manner? And fashion has gone haywire these days i think...try shopping in far east...the only stores worth patronizing are the foodstores...

So, back to today, the streets were packed...and I HATE CROWDS...okie i know...i dun own the streets...but please dun stop me from complaining! PLUS the sun was working hard today, no signs of any rain AT ALL. i'm pretty sure i got tanner today...haha...

As usual boey was used to my whines and complains...so she suggested going to the airport, which i immediately agreed. But the freaking bus ride almost made me puke! regretted not taking the train...after what it seems like forever, i finally see the stretch leading to the airport. i think the stupid bus caption should be executed. the way he drove was as though he was sleep-driving...travelling at a steady 50km/hr. To the hell with speed limits...

Made up my suffering with lunch at swensens(terminal 1). There were so many malay families dining there...okie i am not racist...its just so sweet...family day every sat of every week...why didn't my parents do that? oh i'm so deprived...haha... anyway there was this little boy, he must have been 1yr plus, going on 2. he was so strong can? he broke the stick attached to his balloon that the swensen's management gave him. and he is sooooooo cute...the moment i smiled at him, he became so quiet and shy... awww....see...i have this effect on toddlers...muahahaha... pssst...i've got a pink balloon too! =shys=

We went to the animal safari at east point next. anybody wanna buy me a doggie? i'll marry u and give u kids... please leave ur application on my tagboard. thankew.

the dogs are soooooooooooooooo adorable can?! and they look so cuddleble(is there even such a word? or is it just my spelling error?)...too bad...my mummy dun allow...and my younger bao bei bro has asthma...so sickening...

oh and boey had her hair cut too...she looked so boy can? haha...but it was damn ex leh...for her hair length 26 bucks. if i had sat down, it might cost me 50 bucks i think. haha...

Finally went to tampiness mall...i went Toys R Us!!!! but hor, i think me and those kids nowadays belong to different era already.. cause i have absolutely no interest in wat was on display at all! so sad....I'm only 20 mah!

Slacked around...got boey pretty pissed with my indecisiveness in choosing a place for dinner...haha...but i DID tell her to decide anywhere except for Pastamania and Mac...

Quite boring to read my entire day "adventure" huh? i'm tired too...But something can't seem to get outta my head...argh! i hate this!

Another day wasted...

i'm so sorry boey, if i had spoilt ur studying day... haha...was supposed to study together, but i was so tired i couldn't concentrate. and the freaking macdonald's was so cold...

But it did brought back memories as i travelled past SRJC...they repainted the building...i saw yellow colour... and the missing letters of "Serangoon Junior College" are finally back up. and Heartland Mall changed quite alot...with its new extention and more shops... but hougang is also boring! hehe...

think i do silly things every single day in my life... u noe i dun really mind. but i DO mind when i do them in front of people who will constantly laugh at my sillyness! haha... no lah... not that i REALLY mind...i guess i am really just that silly...

sometimes i feel that i'm easily contented. is that good or baD?

LOST...

i suddenly felt so lost today...lost in wat sense? i dunno...i just feel that way...

walked in the rain...i enjoyed it...dun ask me why...i just like it...but its not very enjoyable when i step into the shopping center...haha...but i'm a strong girl...won't fall sick so easily de...

i'm having a headache...i dun wish to type anymore...

The First Day of the Week...

seriously people, i woke up very early today. i woke up at 11.15am can?! i dunno why i can be late for class for 15 mins! wat's wrong with me? perhaps i need the mindset that lessons start at 1.30 instead of 2 in the afternoon...

i was very good in class k...i nv talk...i paid attention...and i understood wat the lecturer is talking about! yes! finally! haha...

met up with boey for dinner...she was late...so i made her treat me dinner..."Fish & Co" haha...
i had seafood platter...goodness...do i look like a calamari "freak" to the cook?! he gave me a mountain full of it!!! and its quite tasteless as compared to those that i've eaten at other branches...so it migrated over to boey's platter of fish & chips...

boey is as usual, mean. she called me a spoilt brat. she says i'm whiny and naive and stupid and silly. today she added i'm dumb. and she says i'm such a baby. the list justs get longer...and i still cannot forget maiyo calling me an "old bat"!!! ezu best...he said "silly and cute goes together" you see...because i'm cute...i can't forsake silly...see how poor my life can be? anyway we took neos...i forced her to smile! muahaha...muz smile mah! otherwise not pretty...

went for singing lessons next...shifu told us wat the judges comment on my singing..."nice voice...clear...BUT, abit like S.H.E." haha..is that good or bad? i dunno...results out in a week...shd be this sat...i'm already mentally prepared for rejections...

do you believe in love..
the way that i do...
and when u find the one...
wherever u go will travel with u...
what can I say...
where do I start...
to pick up the pieces of your broken heart...

No Kite...so sad...

I wanted to fly a kite today...
I wanted to sit by the beach too...
And WE wanted to have steamboat...

BUT...
We had Kenny Rogers...
We were shopping...
We ate ice cream...

Basically we didn't go marina south because it was raining...so we stayed at sun tec...and then we proceeded to esplanade's roof garden...its so serene...so peaceful...i like it there...and we bought hagen dazz ice cream along!! so its yum yum plus fun fun plus click click...click click because we took lotsa pics...

just tell me one more time...
why your heart cannot be mine?
cause i won't believe its true...
till i hear it from you...

I Croak

Audition today at Hark's Music...
JunDe really caught my attention when he began singing...=melts= he looks so cute and charming can? and he played the guitar as well lor...

and one of the judges too..but he is far too short!

okie...i seriously did not sing well...i could sense it...i have no face to go for class on monday anymore...anybody wanna date me out on monday evening?! quickly k!!! haha...

Life was living hell today...

that's probably due to lack of sleep...and sitting thru 6 hours of theory lecture...

slept at 3am, awaken by my bro at 6+ asking me "jie jie i borrow your nail clipper hor?" my goodness..couldn't he just take it off my table and open my door quietly? why must he wake me up? and my parents are perverts i swear...they came into my room to peep at me after my brother's entry...and it irks me because they ain't quiet bout it...

so much for my much needed beauty sleep...my neighbour upstairs decided to refurnish their house by dragging their furniture all over...creating this irritating dragging noise..for those who happen to live on lower levels like me(i live on the 2nd floor), i think you would understand wat i meant. AND FOR THOSE INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE, SHUT THE FUCK UP EARLY IN THE MORNINGS!

i love kids...yes i do...but this freaking kid created such serious noise pollution that i am beginning to doubt myself bout this love i have... she/he was screaming continously at the top of her/his voice! those crying-scream you noe...and kids have extremely high-pitched voices...thanks to that kids...IT KEPT ME AWAKE...

damn i'm so freaking pissed today! sorry if i sounded so un-gentle and un-demure...(i dun even noe if there's such words...but hope u guys get the idea)

couldn't concentrate well in class...maybe its time for me to adjust my biological clock back to more normal bedtimes... but i'm gald i still have my buncha friends bringing me smiles in class...
brandem was telling me why i SHOULDN'T attend the afternoon lessons...and he offered me a chewing gum..haha...i still am easily contented...
kc met me on the way to class...at least there was someone to stroll with me
zhen said my eye-lashes grew longer...thats the only thing worth listening today...
rare gem bully me...and i couldn't push him coz he is so strong...now i noe why girls can't retaliate when guys try to rape them...haha..
we were doing completing the story in class...whereby everyone contributed a line to make the story complete...i shall post it up later...if i have the engery to type it up...

i nearly wanted to cry when boey insisted we walked from taka to far east...sorry girl if i have spoilt your shopping mood...but i was really tired...lethargic...I FEEL SO PREGNANT...i was practically dragging my footsteps!!
boey says "oh my god...the princess is such a spoilt brat today! so whiny and acting like a baby"
i think that was roughly wat she said...i seriously dun remember...i think i really AM PREGNANT. and it doesn't help with maiyo calling me "the old bat". thanks there little boy...I APPRECEIATE IT!