I survived.

i've managed to sit thru 8 hrs of lecture today. same lecturer, same topic, same venue, same faces i see. phew~at least the company makes it all worthwhile and less bored.

jingwen and a friend of jasmine officially joined our class after the release of results. i'm so thrilled to see jingwen again. she is the very first friend i made ever since i took ACCA. its been almost 1.5 yrs and still counting...hehe...and she was our very own singapore top placing in paper 2.1 information systems.

i could feel my brain shutting down at 5.30pm in class today. though goh was eagerly still teaching, i could find myself no longer concentrating. this is bad...

and i woke up late today. supposed to meet jingwen at 7.30am. luckily she gave me a call when she arrived, otherwise i would have continued sleeping my day's worth. was surprised when i could reach aljunied at 9.10. aljunied to sembawang? its time like these when i find singapore big to travel from one end to the other. pffts.

my winamp is crazy. CRAZY! they are so in love with BSB's songs...this is the 5th song i'm hearing since i logged on 30 min ago. bleah. maddness.

My fate is sealed...

this is a conversation between mummy, me and the admissions counsellor(AC) at TTSH.

AC: hi good afternoon, miss jolene ho? =nodding at me=
me: yah hi good afternoon.
AC: so you going for op in dec? these are the room rates. =pointing to a chart directly in front of us=
mummy: take the b2 subsidised room lah. can pay by medisave right?
AC: thats right, if u take the private wards, then u have to pay cash deposit as well.
me: i dun wan to stay in b2. got no air con!
mummy: just for 1 or 2 days only mah. the difference alot u noe.
me: u also stay b1 ward when u only stay for a few days mah. unfair!
AC: =laughing away= only child ah?
me: no i'm not.
AC: youngest then?
me: no, i'm the eldest. why leh? i sound spoilt izzit?
AC: hehe...no lah...not spoilt...pampered...
me: 0.o
AC: yea take the b2 lah...normally its only like a few hours stay if ur condition is stable. maybe the doc see you young then scare you. dun worry.

hehe...see ppl...20 is young...i need mummy's consent for the op somemore. and, i sound pampered meh? u guys tell me which part of it sounds pampered? pffts...
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my surgeon would be DR Julian Lee. quite a goodlooking chap for his age. there's something attractive bout him. he actually looks like the kind who has a mistress. haha...didn't get to see him becoz he was busy, so i asked the nurse who fixed up my operation date.

nurse: so ur surgeon would be Dr Lee.
me: female or male?
nurse: male. Dr julian lee.
me: oh which one?
nurse: huh? u didn't see him? he is the one in white today.
me: white? with specs izzit?
nurse: no. he is just next door if u noticed earlier.
me: oh u mean the guy in blue?
nurse: no lah..he is wearing white.
me: oh izzit? i tot i saw a blue guy.
nurse: oh yah hor, hehe...i think he wearing light blue.

its scary to noe u have a blur nurse huh?

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operation date: 16th dec
pre-admission check and bloodtest: 30th nov
and i must be on drip!!!!! =faintz=




stayed over at boey's house last night after our prata dinner. i wanted to watch the korean movie "hui jia" on channel u. and if i were to go home and watch, i would miss like half the show. so its boey's house again. my parents aren't very happy bout the fact that u noe...i'm always imposing on her family, which is true lah...i think they see my face till they sian already. so...maybe i'll have to keep off hougang? hehe...

took pictures at boey's house in the middle of the night. the stupid flash is so glaring it made me see stars...

okie i dunno why...but it doesn't turn out nice on my blog...so i'm not gonna post the pics. if u guys wanna see them...go to boey's blog. hehe...

Huh? wat?

it makes me wonder whether i'm too tired, or u guys simply noe when to humour me with ur replies.

me: wah so u got ur ibook le ah.
alan: yea got it le. it has blah blah blah.....got to show u one day. actually tml also can. hehe
me: come lah...come sembawang show me lah.
alan: huh? stay over ah? abit rushing to come tonight...

misinterpretation....=shakes head=

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liqing: my sch near huixin, can come nus find me.
me: orh u mean go nus find u then go sim find huixin then SHUN BIAN find jianda har?
liqing: no lah...you too sensitive le. come fine me.
me: fine u? can...100 bucks lor. eh u wan his no not?
liqing: i also have. dun wan lah...shy...u mess him lah.
me: i mess him? wah lao ur words very crude leh...

i'm messing lots of ppl everyday then...aren't those who got messed by me so happy? hehe...

Stare somemore!

if u are a man, and u disagree with wat i'm saying, get lost NOW.

stare stare stare...singapore men can do nutting but stare. just feel like digging out their eyeballs and stepping onnnn them.

so wat if the girl is wearing a low cut top?
so wat if the girl's skirt is short?
so wat if the girl has big breasts?
so wat if she is a girl and u MUST stare?

okie ignore me, i just get agitated when i see men staring at girls becoz of their lecherous thoughts. and i detest being stared at, be it for watever reason. pffts.

i boarded this particular 25 at hougang. at first i tot i'm on a bus to thailand or something. everyone looks so tanned and thai? and most of them look like those foreign construction workers. to make matters worse, the bus was quite dimly lit, so it made the ride much scarier than it actually was.

it actually takes me an hour to get from hougang to sembawang...who says singapore is small...

okie, i'm hungry. but daddy just finished my dinner. and my darling mummy din even bother to call me to inform me. she assumes i'll eat out just becoz its late. how dumb can she get? okie i noe...i'm not a mummy's girl. =pouts= neither am i a daddy's girl. i shall shift to an orphanage tml. at least everyone is equal. =pouts further=

I'm not late..

okie since i'm like online temporary, i shall blog alittle.

miss stupid chia liqing woke me up at 9am! =grasp= just to date me out to study. girl you could have called me a little later you know dear? for smart ppl who noes me well enough...u shd noe sms-ing me wouldn't work. i would either read it then go back to sleep, read it then delete it and conveniently forget bout it, or completely wouldn't noe i had a msg until i woke up. which might leave most ppl pek chek coz i'll only reply very much later.

kinda weird how all ur programs tend to cramp on the same day. hello ppl, most of my days are like free...why pick only a certain day?

look at today, boey had asked me out for lunch. but i think she is still sleeping now...and i seriously wanna study! so i agreed on studying with liqing. then mummy cooking dinner and i already promised i'll be home for dinner. then zhao jian came and ask me out for dinner at chinatown. =grumbles= so far and i dun drive can? 1hr plus to get there you noe? haha...

my monday and wednesday was free...no one decided to study or have group dinners. pffts...

supposed to meet miss chia at 12. but i was kinda late and msg her "eh i'll be slightly late"

guess wats her reply?

"hehe me too! meet at 1 okie?"

okie on account she's my best friend since sec 1, i shall not smack her later. hehe...

june and xiao hui...i'm missing you guys so muchie! please let me noe when u guys are free leh...we need to go dating together very soon...i'm deprived of ur attention...hehe!

To my dearest...

darling...

sweetie...

little love...

also known as the little devil...

and my brother....

happy 11th birthday!

geez...sorry...kinda broke...otherwise i would really love to get u that gameboy that u want. becoz i'll get to play it OCCASIONALLY too.

hmmm...i know you wouldn't be reading this...

though u are EXTREMELY irritating and annoying..and u get on my nerves most of the time...but still...jie jie loves you to bits!

awwwwwwwww...

Ring-a-ting-a-ling...

I must have been really tired. becoz i slept like a log. maybe crying escalated my tiredness...but i'm just gonna blame it for the lack of sleep for the past week.

slept 13 hours last night...and took another 1.5hr nap in the evening. sounds like a little baby huh? i seriously dunno wat is wrong...its like 11pm now and i feel i could hit the bed for another 13 hours.

=yawnz= wondering how some things happen so quickly and been thinking how to solve it. no answers...i dun wanna run away from it...yet i can't solve it. it leaves me helpless and agitated at the same time...and i'm not appreciating this vulnerable feeling i have inside of me. sighs...

The Big Secret

okie so i failed some, i passed some. no big deal right? stop asking me hows it and stuff..i'm fine. seriously i am...but somehow it just gets on my nerves to keep repeating to ppl that i actually failed, again.

and yes, i'm definitely gonna study this sem. failing consecutively in two sems isn't something i am proud to inform my parents. so...for those who are secretly laughing at my misery, be careful when u walk out in the streets. things happen. boo!

so i am still the happy-go-lucky me.
still whiny
still stubborn
still irritating
still thinks i'm pregnant
still smiling
still loves my darling

and ppl around me never fails to put a smile on my face. thankew.

Life's miserable...

when u have to sing in public...
when u aren't that prepared to sing in public...
when the songs u sing are those songs u detest...
when mean ppl who calls u low class is going to watch ur performance and critisize u even more...
when u can't even remember the lyrics on the day of the performance...
when ur throat is not in good condition...

eeeeeeeeeeks! i'm really beginning to hate singing in the cafe. call it phobia call me a coward call me whatever shit. i just feel like smacking myself for being so stress. not as if i'm that bad right? i'm good right?

RIGHT! SELF CONSOLATION!

=sobs sobs=

wats worse...results coming out on monday...sighs...someone stab me please!!!!!!!!!

=sings offkey and off tune=
shui hai ji de shi shui xian shuo...
yong yuan de ai wo.....

I want I want I want!!!

anyone wanna bring me on an all expenses paid bangkok trip? i might marry you.

i was psycho-ing mummy to bring me since she is like not working temporary.

all the food...and the shopping...sighs...it would be better if thailand snows...haha...then i can shop in the cold. wheeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

argh...=dreams=

23 sounds old....

but still...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST MOMMIE!

i'm sorry this post came late. didn't have the time to blog it yesterday becoz i practically spent all my time outside.

food
entertainment

we found it all in jb...and its sooooooooooooo cheap! i think all three of us enjoyed ourselves to the max. hehe.

stayed over at boey's house, AGAIN. this is the fourth night in 6 days. i think her family is getting sick to see me walking round her house. hehe...the new bathroom door is opaque! can see the user's shadow. at least theres a door lah...=grumbles=

maiyo's leaving le...so sad...i'll miss you!

flynn is getting worse...on drip now. so poor thing...must get well soon k boy?

i'm so lazy to blog. and i think i need some breakfast.

Angry!

i was lying to myself...now i'm dying in this hell...
pride spilled on the floor...
are you gonna let me in...
if you could see the tears i'm crying...
touch these hands that can't stop shaking
hear my heart that's barely beating...


somehow it hurts real badly to see someone close to you in emotional pain. it makes me wonder whether its all worth it. and how on earth did things managed to always turn out this way.

if loving someone means making assumptions on their behalf, you would be better off being a nun or monk.

if you can't speak the truth and show ur original self in front of the one you love, u are a total LOSER. your life revovles round ur pathetic front that u are portraying to ppl, but deep down u are nutting, just a shallow shell.

wats wrong with these people nowadays? ppl like you distorted the beautiful image i had of love.

the worst would be messing up ppl's lives, and not knowing where u went wrong. u wanna be an angel? go to heaven. but u would probably end up in hell by doing all these to hurt an innocent heart. i despise you. u dun have the courage to love somebody.

i think...

YOU DUN HAVE THE RIGHT TO LOVE ANYONE AT ALL.

do everyone and urself a favour. just remain single.

and if u are ever reading this, yes YOU, stop all ur bullshit bout disappointment. do a comparison and compare the varying degree of disappointment YOU put HER through.

selfish...egoistic...unreasonable...you're everything that falls under the "unfit to love" category.

you made me realised how to cherish the one i love more though. i love you lots darling! =huggles=

Disclaimer

Ladies and gentleman, if future when i am walking beside you, and if u happen to see cockroaches/centepede/millipede/earthworm/watever that crawls, please GENTLY pull me away.

Do not:

• shout out "got cockroach!"
• grabbed me away abruptly
• grabbed me and shout at the same time.

Very scary one you noe. i will SHRIEK! it doesnt matter wat time and where. i just will. =smiles=

miss selyn did that to me earlier on. my arm was red from her grabbing me. and i screamed so loudly one taxi uncle stopping at the traffic light wind down his window and looked at us. haha...so "malu".

and while walking the dark dark route home, i was trying to calm myself down when this toopid boy on his bicycle rode past me. the drain cover made a loud "thud thud" sound. made me jump for the second time in 5 mins.

pffts.

Day 3!

its a long story why somehow i ended at boey's house again. and i shall not go into it...i just dun feel good leaving her alone at home...where the monkeys are not around to look after and talk to her.

thinks bout the doorless toilet...=shivers=

okie so as usual i was late for my singing lesson. started at 7pm, i left my house at that time!

me: orh i'm so late!
darling: you are always late.

pffts!

there are times when i'm punctual too okie....=pouts=

anyway, the rest were kinda late too. and by time i reached, they haven even started warming up. they claimed they were 'waiting' for me. but.....i think they were like gosipping all the time. haha...

so...performance at the cafe(again?!) this sunday. its a students night...so those performers would be all from hark music. yups...sorry guys...no more 30% off...its all full price now... and i dun really wish to see ur faces...becoz i have to sing that yucky 'yan wei die' and i absolutely hate it! PLUS, i have gotta sing another slow song that we practised long ago....and i detest that song too! because i could nv hold my breath long enough and i kept forgetting the lyrics. the same goes for yan wei die...so many freaking words to memorise. i might just die from a brain overload of chinese characters.

its nutting new when our lesson drags till late into the night. but it is not that fun when shifu isn't in a good mood. amos kept knocking on our door, wanting to discuss some matters regarding the cafe stuff with her. and she kept back with a black face. i was shocked when she sort of stared at me and looked away when i tried to study her expression.

me: die liao. shifu bad mood liao. i so suay...why i always get to sing last? later i better be serious and not anyhow sing.
selyn: haha lucky i finsihed singing le.
me: kaoz. later i must make her happy by singing that stupid 'ji de' but plus 4 key!

anyway...i think shifu is tired ba. she only went thru my songs once. but for the rest they sang so many times. haha which is good too lah. i'm having sore throat and i dun have the strength to pull the high notes without dinner. haha...

i'm tired still after so many hours of sleep....i must be a piggy....

Yawns...

i stayed at boey's house for 2 consecutive nights. last night was rather last min and unplanned for. but hey girl, anything for you! mommie dearest!

met alan and win at hougang plaza for dinner and pool and cs. surprisingly, the prata uncle at joe's corner sort of remembered me and smiled. cute indian fat man..haha...and then...while eating, i asked win questions that made him nearly choke on his food.

i mean hello, they were touching on the sex topic. i dunno so i got to ask right? so i asked stuff like....

wat do you guys do?
wat do u do before that?
huh wat u mean by high?
how you noe when u are high?
huh you mean you did it before?
ONS ah? how you ask the girl? "hi you wanna have a ONS with me?"
why you need tissue paper for?
how long is long?
how wide is wide?

win didn't really believe that i had no absolute idea bout it. seriously speaking, i really don't. they dun show such things on tv mah! i finally kept quiet when he said "aiya find a bf and go explore urself". pffts...

i sat beside him during CS. he is actually a nice guy. can feel that he is the protective kind. but i think he just needs to change his character a little to be more desirable. haha...he is like a woman's guy whereby girls likes going out with him and confiding in him as a friend. but they have no romantice interest in him. haha...change ur character boy! whatever...he is never gonna read this anyway. haha...

i really slept last night. was so lacking of sleep for the past weeks. okie maybe becoz i worked...haha...but thats not a good enough reason to blame. we were watching some anime...i forgot wats the title...the little girl is soooooooooooo cuteeeeeeeee. after one episode, i couldn't take it and dozed off. oh mommie bought a new bolster! its pink! hee!

i refused to bathe in the doorless bathroom. haha...really no sense of security! laugh! laugh all you want. pffts. finally i bathed at her brother's bathroom. hehe...her bro and daddy is sooooooooooooooooo adorable.

on sat night after buying boey's tv and dvd player...in her room...her brother was setting up the tv and adjusting the channels. then he actually touched the screen to change the settings. i was laughing becoz he looked so comical doing that. haha...really funny k? to her dearest cousins reading this, ask boey to demo if u dun believe me!

then her daddy...
boey: ah daddy ask her to help you! she good at packing!
cute daddy: pecking or packer? pecking is the woodpecker you noe? =does the pecking action on boey's wooden door=
boey: wahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!

see...all so cute...even her mummy is cute...haha...okie boey i shall not say wat she said....mean!

flynnnnnnnny is sick...
awwwwwwwwwwwwwww...dengue fever...but luckily he recovered le. hehe...come back soon k flynn? i wanna play with doggies!

maiyo is back from canada too! i tot i was dreaming when i chatted with him on irc. haha...but he's leaving on friday again...so sad hor...hehe but nvm...as long as he is happy...its good enough.

the rainy weather is making me sleepy again...BUT lesson's at seven! =smacks my pipi= okies there i'm awake now. crap.

wo...heng xiang ni...ni zhi dao ma...
ru guo ke yi...jiu rang wo zai jian ni...

My Very First Time

it was at boey's house...

i was so scared...

haven done this before...

not even at camps...

guessed it already?

i bathed without a door!

=faints=

and without warm water....=shivers=

but boey's house looks nice with the renovations all set in.

off to sleep soon...need to do my homework first....

goodnites everyone.

Duh!

mummy: eh go eat rice. i off the cooker's switch already.
me: i no appetite leh.
mummy: i cook porridge for you lor.
me: orh okie lor.

40 mins later...in the kitchen...
mummy: eh eat from the claypot lah...dun need to use another bowl.
me: huh so much ah? i cannot finish leh
mummy: wah...when u start eating so little one?
me: no appetite lah.
mummy: you pregnant ah?
me: yah lor. how?
mummy: you crazy. dun joke bout such things.
me: eh wat if i really am?
mummy: siao
me: just asking you lah...wat if i am really pregnant?
mummy: then get marry lor. wat other choices have u got?

hehe...i was grinning at her answer...so my mummy not that ruthless and heartless afterall. she used to say she'll throw me outta the house.

was sitting on the floor, watching tv, when my sister came home.
me: eh dun hit my leg ah...cramp...
mummy: xiao mei, your sister says she is pregnant.
sister: =stares at my feet= yah...looks like it...water retention already.

boey says i look sick...bleah...i'm just feeling weak...and surprisingly, i've got no appetite for food.

Someone HELP!

its her first day at home, and i can't take it already. is it my pms still or simply she's too naggy? maybe a mixture of both...and i dun deny i'm feeling moody and frustrated for the past week.

she woke me up early this morning and insisted to know the average pricing of perlini's silver earrings. WTF? yes 10am sounds late...but not when i slept late and i'm in need of sleep. why couldn't she understand? i mean her colleagues gave her earrings as a parting gift. does she need to wake me up and INSISTED on me telling her how much it is?

heres the conversation:
mummy: eh eh wake up! =shakes me by my shoulders=
me: shut up lah wat do u want?! i wanna sleep. get lost.
mummy: eh wake up lah. u noe perlini's silver? =jiggling the box in my face= how much the earrings cost ah? my colleagues bought 2 pairs for me leh..but i didn't get her anything. so paiseh.
me: =grunts= aiya bout 8 bucks lah.
MUMMY IS STILL NOT SATISFIED!
mummy: har? 8 dollars ah? so expensive ah? all 8 dollars or wat?
PLEASE LOR..I HAVEN EVEN SEEN THE EARRINGS. HOW I NOE THE EXACT PRICE?! AND I DUN BUY PERLINI COZ I'M ALLEGIC TO SILVER LOR. KAOZ!
me: just shut up and get lost can or not?
mummy: fine lah...u then shut up lah...

when i was working at synovate, i told her bout the job and the flexible hours. and the pay's rather good for partime jobs too. she insisted 10 bucks per survey is low and outside surveys she could easily earn 45 bucks. i snorted "alright then, hope u get lucky and be able to find that kinda surveys."

BUT..

this morning...

mummy: eh ur office still got vacancy not? intro ur mummy there to work lah.
me: i quit liao hor. when i'm still working there i ask you, u dun wan. now no job liao u panicking lah...

and then...when i was out today...
mummy called.
mummy: eh coldstorage advertised on the newspapers that they need cashiers leh. why u never go?
me: mummy, please give me a break. results are coming out. let me study in peace can?

i was so exhausted i fell asleep the min i lied on my bed. i woke up 15 mins later to catch project superstar. i was pushing the couch when i slipped and scratch the side of my ankle against the window grills. the skin was peeling and its painful. and RED. the day is bad enough...and mummy just have to pull another stunt. she took out apples and insisted that i eat.

mummy: nah got apples who want?
brother: i want!
mummy: eh girl give u one.
me: i dun wan.
mummy: eat lah. eating fruits is good for health u noe! better eat lah.
i really wanted to just breakdown and cry le.
me: please, give me some peace can or not? i say dun wan means dun wan. dun force me can or not?

just as i thought...peace at last...
brother: eh u ate dinner, ur bowl u no need to wash ah?
me: you and mummy tag team hor, really ultimate. can drive mi crazy.

i stood up and went to bathe. they completely destroyed my mood to watch the show.

i dunno...maybe u guys would say all mothers are like that. all mothers nag. sighs...i really dunno how to tolerate her in days to come. i'm just one big emotional wreck now.

We're 40!

NOT ME OKIE? i'm HALF that number!

its our homeland, Singapore! happy 40th birthday!

okie i'm not exactly a die-hard country lover. but somehow it always touched me whenever i watch the parade. appreciating all the efforts all the performers put up...and how much training and hardwork went into it just for a 3-hr performance. and its nice to see faces u noe of broadcast on national tv.

i saw joshie marching as the army's GOH.
i think i saw hanshun marching too...he was the airforce's GOH.
then i saw shuhui dancing beside fiona xie at the jurong east site.

damn...i shd have gone to see the fireworks. so nice can? a star featured in the middle of the circle...so freaking spectacular! okie i'm a mountain tortoise lah...say watever u wan...meanies.

recently i'm hardly home till late at nights. and so i seldom catch the 7pm as well the 9pm tv serials anymore. so today i had the chance to watch the 9pm channel 8 show, dream in ur hands.

people, i'm traumatised. troubled. scared.

ladies, could u imagine urself married to that shen congye? a husband who is unreasonable and treats u as a punching bag even though u are pregnant? a husband who is so demanding he locks u up? a husband who is sweet and thoughtful when he is sober but turns into a violent freak whenever he drinks?

i was seriously disturbed after watching today's episode. and i dunno why. there's just this unsettling feeling in me...my gosh. i just hope i dun marry someone like him.

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oops i did it again....

to papa and mama....i swear i am not pregnant. i swear i did not just fall outta love. i swear i did not fail examz becoz the results ain't out yet. i swear i have no major problems.

so...the mystery is...i did not try to kill myself.

as well as to burn down the house.

again.

and i think i need stop boiling water. everytime i do it, i forgot to turn off the stove. the last time i left it on the stove for bout 1 hr. today i left it boiling dry for nearly 2!

this isn't exactly a nice way to die...and i dun wanna die...yet

today's the 9th.
boey's birthday on the 18th
darling's birthday on the 19th
results coming out on the 22nd.
u might find me dead on the 23rd. i'm gonna fail my exams. bleah. maybe then i shall boil water again.

MELTING

the weather is so warm and humid that i'm drinking fresh milk with icecubes added to it. its nice ppl, try it! no regrets. but for those lactose intolerant ppl, better not huh...

heard jason sing this song at spaceship. i kinda like it...endless love...

My love
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right

My first love
You're every breath that i take
You're every step i make

And i
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do
And your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Oh, yes you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives had just begun
Forever I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
I'll be a fool for you
I'm sure
You know i don't mind
You know i don't mind

'cause you
You mean the world to me
Oh, i know
I know i found in you
My endless love

Oh
And love
I'll be that fool for you
I'm sure
You know i don't mind
You know i don't mind

And yes
You'll be the only one
'cause no one can't deny
this love i have inside
And i'll give it all to you
My love
My endless love...

Nice~

had the chance to listen to BSB's newest tracks on their latest cd, never gone, like a couple of months ago. tracks like crawling back to you and never gone were like one of the nicest songs. but i actually like this track "over her" alot when i listened to the tune and lyrics. hehe...i'm not exactly a fan of them...but well...good things are meant to be shared.

Over her...
You know I been trying to figure out
Just what's going on
Am I over her?
I been doing a lot of thinking lately
Am I over her?
And I'm really missing you

It's been 3 months, 3 hours, 3 days
Since the last time I seen your pretty face
My decision to bring this to an end
And I'm caught up in reminscing
Having faithful visions of long walks, long talks
Play fights, late nights
It's been on my mind since Valentine's
Cause I had your heart and I let it slide

I ask myself time and time again (again I'm trying to comprehend that)
Unanswered questions still (things to be are meant to end)

Am I over her? (am I over her?)
Am I over us?
Am I over her?
Tell me am I really over my my love (am I over her?)
I can't think straight
Cause I'm too busy thinking of her
Am I really over my love?

I was going through some things that I couldn't explain
Now my situation's taking a big change
They say the grass is greener on the other side of town
Now I'm kinda wishing you would come back around
Is she sad or is she mad?
Does she have a new man, does she have it like that?
It's been so long, thought I would've moved on
Could've been strong and picked up the telephone

I ask myself time and time again (again I'm trying to comprehend that)
Unanswered questions still (things to be are meant to end)

Am I over her? (am I over her?)
Am I over us?
Am I over her?
Tell me am I really over my my love (am I over her?)
I can't think straight
Cause I'm too busy thinking of her
Am i really over my love?

It's water under the bridge
But I can't seem to forget
All the plans we made, all the time we spent
Makes me reminisce
I still see your face
All this love I can't replace
Am I over (am I over)
Am I over her? (her now)

And i like it...

When it is so refreshing and cooling just after it rained...

stepped outta office at 12.30. was supposed to accompany yinting for lunch..but looking up at the dark dark clouds, i had second doubts. plus, i could feel the faint light drops of rain already. so i apologised to her and made my way to bugis mrt. u see..burlington square is quite far off from the train station. and i dun wanna be caught in the rain when i only had 3hrs of sleep the night before.

i was complaining to darling that i didn't have an umbrella. so he made boey bring this enormous red one! i was shocked when i saw it and i REFUSED to carry it around. cause knowing my clumsiness...i will hit ppl.

the beach was so cooling. the sun was just right and we just sat there and chilled. there was the occasional gentle breeze and the air wasn't humid. wat a way to spend the afternoon! and the time was well spent with a special friend. so yea...it made it all worth it by leaving work early and sarcrificing some sleep.

it was so hilarious when we saw wat three little malay boys were doing.
me: boey i saw something blue fly! flying fish izzit?!
boey: wat flying fish? i didn't see anything.
me: huh really lah i saw something fly...i think one of the boy threw it ba.

the three boys were actually wearing their school shorts when they arrived at the beach. after goofing around in the waters, they decided to strip down to their underwear. it really doesn't matter to me...haha...becoz i couldn't see clearly without my specs.

boy 1: lets play crocodile! i be the crocodile and catch ur!
boy 2: so big already still play crocodile?!

when it was time to leave, 2 boys put on their shorts. i saw the third boy still parading in his undies. then i told boey "eh i think he lost his shorts leh. hahaha!" boey didn't believe until....

THAT BOY TRIED TO WEAR HIS PE TSHIRT AS A PAIR OF SHORTS!!!!

he fitted his legs into where u normally slipped ur arms into. that left a big portion that house ur main body dangling in between his legs. i was laughing like mad already. and so were his friends! i couldn't stand it when he folded the dangling material and tucked it behind him, into the waistband of his underwear. he looked as though he is wearing a nappy. and then he wore his school shirt!!!

HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!

XIAO SI WO LE!!!!!!!!!!!

so cute right the boy? i dunno how is he gonna go home looking like that. but in the first place, why he let them throw away his shortS?! all boils down to a little stupidity here...

so many baby girls this yr!!! wheeee...i want a girl too!

The devil and the angel....

in me...
the night before...
angel: sleep early tonight. tml got morning lecture. 8 hrs somemore. better sleep.
devil: sleep so early for wat? i bet you can't wake up. even if u do, you'll be a walking zombie. cannot concentrate in class one lah. dun go lah!
angel: shut up and let her sleep!

this morning...
angel: wake up dear princess, its 6am!
devil: go back to sleep, u are exhausted.
angel: dun listen to the devil. come on this is ur usual class. u wouldn't wanna join the sunday class...
devil: listen to me lah...who can stand 8 hr lectureS? somemore ur friend not with u today. u need to have lunch alone. ALONE leh!

the devil gained victory. the next when i looked at the clock, it was already close to noon. seriously i would rather waste my sundays to spilt up the 8 hr lectures into two 4-hr lectures on two different sundays. can't imagine going class without company, i'll die there.

appointment fixed on 29th aug for my throat checkup. i'm so bored at home today. maybe i shall be a good girl and go mop the floor. but before that...i need vitamin F. FOOD!!

I wish...

that i'll wake up tml and find everything's a dream.

on a lighter note, thanks for everybody's concern. sorry girls to have made u guys suffer thru the 3 hrs spent with me.

saw shifu's mother at hark cafe today. they look so alike and she's quite attractive for a 60 yr-old. okie she's not that old...almost there i guess. very smart woman and quick witted. she even taught us how to date her younger boy(he's 25 FYI), who happens to work at hark cafe. =faintz=

8 hrs lecutre tml...starting from 9am! till 6 in the evening...how much worse could my life be?

i hate to smile just to show i'm okie...