I'm a crabbie!!!

Cancer ( Jun22- Jul 22):
Compatible With:
Very Good : Scorpio Gemini Pisces Leo
Good : Taurus Libra Capricorn Virgo Sagittarius

Cancer Woman: Cancer woman's' moods often keep changing. She is modest.She is always careful with money and shows interest in the growth of thesaving account. She can't stand being rejected, ridiculed and criticism.She is a good cook and mother at heart. She would go to any extent ofsacrificing for those she love. She is very possessive, but neveraggressive.Patience is her virtue and it reflects in her love. She has a goodhumor. She is a pillar of strength to her family. She is a mother bynature as such makes a great mother to her children. The warmth of herlove makes her home rich.

i wanna smack myself!

i was so engrossed in blogging bout the ktv session that i missed out other important things. things like how the taxi driver laughed at me.

make a clever guess why?

coz i was singing lumpy's name game. [its the song thats playing on my blog now] he looked at me and asked "are u okie?" i was so embarrassed can? and it didn't help when the other three of them were like laughing at me. so before i got off the cab, i asked "do u think my singing is nice?" he looked at me as if i was gonna rape him lor...and replied "yes yes very nice". confirm gurantee plus chop...he thinks i'm a crazy lunatic.

dinner was at some italian cafe...the soup was so yucky...i added lotsa pepper...and the powdered chili they would provide if u are eating pasta. so right now...my throat has this "burnt" sensation. i finished my entire pack of lakerol le...

haha chatting with pinksheep now...she's so excited bout her new lappy and her great day...chatting with ex-bf too...haha...goodness...its been so long! haha...anyway gonna sleep soon...gotta drag my ass to hougang by 10.30am...someone wake me up please...haha

My Day...

my mind was tired...my eyes were dry...i popped the muscle relaxant to make me drownsy...yet at 3am in the morning...i still found myself tossing and turning...and it certainly wasn't pleasant when i got my wake up call at 8.45am instead of 9am...

so, too many dots too draggy? okies i think i shd try not to dot too much in case it pisses readers off. it was quite a last min decision to go jb today. when terence called me the night before, i tot the whole gang was going again. but apparently only me and him...and of coz cynthia and jiayan. since i missed the previous one, and i had nothing on today, i agreed.

turns out that jiayan is also a reg visitor of jb, so next time i wanna cross over, i have anothter partner! lol..she is one munchy girl can? she is eating and munching the whole day long one u noe? and after eating one full full meal, she can ask me "eh you full le ah? lets go buy other food leh"

let me see...bought my comics at holiday plaza, bought my heffalump's dvd too! lumpy lumpily lee!!!! so happy...it was my only aim for going jb actually...decided to head back to citysquare for some ktv.

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ATTENTION ALL KTV LOVERS!!! please bring ur student pass there if u have one. its freaking cheap if u produce ur pass. and the happy hours there are so ridiculous...from 1pm to 8 pm. how to tahan so long? and all of us were like sick and having sore throat, haha...so u guys could guess, we croaked...alot.

the answer is obvious...
you just couldn't leave his/her world
why am i being the fool i used to be...
pretending there would be this miracle?

though the sound system isn't as good as the ones in kbox, but listen up all english songs lovers, u will find ur heaven there. not only is there more variety, the mtvs are mostly original! isn't it such a pleasure to see the original artistes' faces than some skimpily-dressed woman in her bikini?

its always after we've gone our separate ways...
after our love's gone...
then we realised how much we couldn't bear it...
there's something i've wanting to say...
you will forever be my one and only...

not only that, the temperature of the room is self-adjustable. theres this control in the room that allows u to set ur preference for the room temp. so good right? wouldnt it be nice that we dun have to freeze our asses off for the 4 hrs there?

i'm so in love with you...
i'm guessing this explains my pain...
when i realised i'm blocking ur path to finding ur true love...

we were given a freaking big room as well. with a big big big tv plus three mics! WAKE UP UR IDEAS KBOX! your rooms are getting smaller...service getting lousier...cannot ask for more mics somemore...sighs...=shake head= the sofa is so big right...that all four of us could comfortably lie down and sleep i think!

will i be happier if i let you go?
maybe i'll find someone new..
or maybe my strong front would just collaspe...
can my world stop raining?
can my heart just stop aching?
can i just switch off completely?
our love went according to ur plans...
more and more characters added to the picture...
wat am i to you?
stop wasting my time...if i'm not the one you love...

oh and i sang my love paradise...finally found the darn mtv...why so hard to find huh?

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i'm really giving up...

tried so many times...

yet i still failed...

this is so disheartening...

perhaps its not meant to be...

yea it isn't...

limewire is simply a jinx to my com! it hung my com twice in a row...we ain't compatible...

so i'm giving it up...

oh poor boey..fever for 2 days already...okie lah...i'll go accompany u tml. haha...rest well...=hugs=

wedding bells are ringing...

anyone from cashline remembered who timothy is?

he is getting marry!!! lol...so...is this some nice surprise?

my headache is so bad...it lasted for 2 days already...i dun want this pain...how to make it go away? panadol doesn't help...think i'm dying...

woo my winamp is playing love paradise...may life be our love paradise...

hmmm...

been getting this from mails and friendster...is it so fun? since i'm taking a break now...so here goes...

What did you do in the past hour?
cleaned my room, changed my bedsheets, folded my clothes, and swept the floor.

What did you ate in the past hour?
roast duck rice

What did you drink in the past hour?
plain water...without ice...i'm so surprised!

What was the last movie you watched?
i like to move it move it

with?
mommie, daddy, and stepdaddy

last tv show you watched?
eh....=scratch head=...hardly watched tv since i came back from KL

last song you heard?
shou fang kai

last to sms you?
mommie!

last person i smsed?
mommie too! i had to reply wah...

last to call you?
selyn...to tell me lessons had been cancelled tonight...its gonna be a long night then...

rejected anyone recently?
erm......no?

can you keep a secret?
u have to tell me its a secret....

who do you hate?
myself

do you think love is a waste of time?
maybe...but it always hurts...

do you believe in ur horoscope?
not really...i just read them for pleasure...

do you remember your dreams?
only some...and its usually quite a blur vision of it

have you ever cried recently in public?
er yea...think it was in front of boey and alan and jasby somemore...

have you ever loved someone so much that u cried?
shut up

ever written a poem?
in sec 2...forced by that disgusting MRS NAIR

ever lost a friend?
yups...so sad

ever stayed up all night?
there are nights when i just couldn't sleep...and thinking at night invites headaches

ever had braces?
the dentist always said i have nice teeth

ever slept all day?
i'm a pro at that

ever cheated on ur bf/gf?
just kill me

ever fallen alseep outside?
friend's house considered outside?

ever changed urself for someone else?
think so...and i'm not liking it

ever wished u could redo yesterday?
i wanna redo the whole 2005

ever cried urself to sleep?
haha..not gonna answer that...

recently?
still not gonna answer that...

Whats ur one and only wish?
i just want everyone to be happy...is it too much to ask?

What do you wanna say now?
words are all useless...the pain has been inflicted...

Monday blues...and my room is blue...

just in case anyone is wondering how did the second audition went, it was okie...except the fact that i sang off key for one of the note...is this bad news? haha...

it kinda made me realised where i stand after listening to all the singers polishing up their singing techniques. so for those who think i got a good voice, please...i shd just invite you guys to the cafe to hear them sing when its really officially open.

so..as usual...junde was charming...boey would like his crooked smile...plus dimples on both sides of his cheeks.. he sang so well somemore...half the girls in the room was mesmorised...

okies...i wanna go change my bedsheets...the pink colour looks purple to me already. take care peeps. oh and i finally completed collecting all 31 of my hello kitty magnets...aren't u guys so proud of me...

as i walk this land of broken dreams
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion

What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know i've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Maybe

The roots of love grow all around
But for me they come a tumbling down
Every day heartaches grow a little stronger
I can't stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows searching for light
Cold and alone no comfort in sight
Hoping and praying for someone who cares
Always moving and going nowhere

I'm searching though i don't succeed
For someone's love there's a growing need
All is lost there's no place for beginning
All that's left is an unhappy ending

How to install love in your heart...

Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are youready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system.It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off.Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "MyHeart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you.

People change...Ta Da!

had my jc class gathering today at the rice table. 22 ppl turned up! including our form teacher... the place was picked becoz its halal, and we have malay friends in class. the food spread isn't that fantastic..i've tasted better. but well, its the company that makes such dinner interesting.

i've never thought of our class as united. until one day after some celebration in sch, then the whole class stayed back for some personal photo shooting. everyone who walked past our class was green with envy...and teachers were surprised that we were all still around while other classes had already went back.

jc was never fun, it was more of hectic. with naggy teachers and piles of tutorials, we could never seem to find some breathing space. the 2 yrs passed in the blink of the eye...i've already spent 2 yrs of my teen-life in SRJC...

i never met up with anyone after the collection of our alevels results. only sihui where i occasionally bump into her in sembawang coz she lives there too! today was quite an eye-opener...memories came flooding back...the guys, going thru NS now are so much more mature and erm...better looking.

as usual we made alot of noise, but i think its the trademark of our class...esp varun...and khai...lol...

ganesh is definitely looking very very good. hehe...

daryl also...he used to have the "pervert" look...but now he look so dependable...haha...

chris...as usual...nice eyes...long eye lashes...but he looks haggard.

daniel! hah! this guy likes to disturb me in class becoz my results so much lousier. now he became more sensitive... and i'm impressed by his driving skills.

after dinner we went to serangoon gardens for coffee. nine of us in total: me, yiling, huili, shuhui, huifen, daniel, junwei, eric and kenny. me,huifen,huili and eric was in daniel's car. the rest in kenny's. kenny is so funny can? he stopped halfway for petrol...and they took so long to arrive that we tot they lost their way.

the girls actually wanted to head straight home after dinner. but the guys wanted to find some place to tok. (the rest already went off) but we were worried bout the difficulty in going home late. so i told the guys "we anything one...as long as u guys send us home can le." haha...so yup...settled...

and that daniel really changed can? he sent us without complains...and he even bought us drinks. hello ppl, i noe wat u guys are thinking...u guys are thinking i'm materialistic and such guy is a good catch right?! please knock that idea outta ur head....i'm praising him becoz this is something he would never have done 2 yrs ago...so..he is a changed man! haha..

yeah..so that explains why i'm home late...my throat ain't feeling well after all the spicy food...and tml is the performance...and...i haven practise YET. haha...good luck jolene!

i've loved you for so long
were u ever touched?
you could take me away
you could simply ignore me
its all because i want things different from others
i think...an aching hug is all i should receive from you
i'll try hard to forget whatever little happiness i'm deprived of from that hug
i think...an understanding smile is what i deserve
love ain't important anymore...i just need ur understanding...

They deserve to be SHOT!!!

princess jo happily went to watch movie that she has been wanting to for so long. then some spoilers will have to come and mess it up all...and the princess couldn't enjoy her show in peace. who are these spoilers?!

KIDS!!!! argh freaking kids!

now now please dun get the princess wrong...the princess loves kids to bits...BUT...not when they are so freaking uncute, uncivilised, and noisy!

situation 1:
now there's this daddy with his 2 daughters. the cinema is fully booked, except for 3 individual seats at 3 different rows. hello to all parents out there, use some brains can? ur kids how old only? how can u guys seat apart? how can u control ur kids this way? no seats then dun watch lah! save the money...save ppl some noise pollution for goodness sake.

before the movie started, the dad was already sitting at the wrong seat. so he kept moving about deciphering where the hell he bought his seat at, while his two daughters are already comfy in theirs. until the movie is almost starting then he realised "oh, my seat is in row I!" which is our row! he has to make his squeezy way all the way into the last seat lor...that i understand. wat i dun understand is, why did he waited till the very last min. do u noe he was still praying that the previous seat that he was sitting wrongly on was empty? USE UR BRAINS lah uncle! if the theatre is not fully booked, then wat makes u think u and ur daughters have to sit apart in such weird arrangements?!

you think this is the end of HIS story? haha, NO!

his younger daughter talks so loudly that i dunno whether her parents got teach her some manners or not. no sense of "paiseh-ness" one leh...then his older daughter, she is actually 2 rows behind the daddy. she could just say loud enough for us to overhear "daddy u wan a drink or not?", "daddy i want the chips". all in chinese though...sighs...kids...

situation 2:
i turned. i stared. for 3 blardy times. still, no effect. hello auntie, your kid is BIG enough to buy him 1 extra ticket liao lah. i dun understand why they admitted her with such a big kid on 1 tix. if they quietly sit there i got nutting to say. if they dun seat behind me i also won't have this grievance. sighs...they just have to seat behind the princess...

throughout the whole show, her precious little boy kept kicking my seat can?! and lido seats right, are those that are slightly reclinable. so i leaned back, he pushed me. wtf, u paid for ur seat. i paid for mine k?! i'm entitlted to recline okie?! he kicked me more than 5 times. he knocked my head when he is going to the toilet. the mother pull my seat that startled me. they shd have just bought the dvd and enjoy the show at home lah...and dun make a nuisance of themselves!

situation 3:
now this family of 4 sat relatively far from us. but still i couldn't help but noticed them. becoz, this young couple has 2 kids. 1 is only like in kindergarden, the other is like only 1 yr plus can? how can u bring a baby to the movies? how can they keep still and quiet?

so the elder daughter needed the loo. daddy held her hand and brought her out. awwwwww so "sweet" right? like walking ur daughter down the wedding aisle, only he is doing it in the cinema! and they take turns.. after that is the baby...the mommie brought him/her out too. when she came back, the baby was already restless. making noises and crying. but i'm glad some good samaritian(did i get the spelling right? but u guys get the idea right?) told them to keep quiet by "shhhing" them. so the paiseh daddy carried the baby out. see...shd have just stayed at home right...spare urself and us all from the agony.

now now u guys must be thinking i'm such a complain queen and such a bitch. to speak the truth, complaining is my hobbby. but i'm not a bitch lah. it just gets on my nerves that there are still such people around given high levels of education nowadays. or the conclusion is, singaporeans are purely inconsiderate. it in the genes. we should just go back being barbarians. at least everyone treats each other equally in their barbaric behaviour.

oh by the way, i watched madagascar. I like to move it move it...

MOVE IT!!!

angry! plus sick...

damn..i just typed one long long entry and my IE just close JUST LIKE THAT! freaking pissed..pffts!

i must be a genius. i could predict when i'm gonna fall sick.

B.I.N.G.O.!

just 2 days before i return from KL, the sore throat came...today it worsened. and i'm having flu. bleah...wat a terrible way to start the day. i'm hoping its becoz of my air con..=keep my fingers cross=

had music lesson yesterday when huiyi broke the news of the second audition. so now we have to perform the unplug song with our instrumentalist, and another additional song, the minus one mode. the audition is opened exclusively to hark music's students only to mark the opening of the cafe. so i'm so sorry to friends who are so eager to listen to my croaking.

shifu says its not an elimination round. rather, they just wanna monitor our progress...but if u really are horrible, then they will give u the axe. erm...i dun belong to this category right? haha...okie even if i am, please just lie to me can? i'm easily contented one.

met up with boey, jasby and alan yesterday. been a week since i last saw them. and boey bought me this big big big big pink dolphin from batam. its so cuddly and soft. and it seems almost as tall as my singing teacher. haha...

shifu: wow this is like the steamboat's advert, "lobster bigger than 2 yr old girl"
xiujia: no lah...its more like "lobster bigger than 30 yr old auntie
u shd see the change in shifu's face colour. haha...but i fully understand the sensitivity in a woman's age. so ppl...dun ever remind me i'm turning 20. i might cry.

oh anyway back to our dinner...we had KFC becoz miss boey has got craving. sounds so preganty huh? haha..we made sooooooooo much noise that everyone was like staring at us...so embarrassing! =blush=

played pool after dinner at paradiz center. i dunno wat's alan and boey's obsession with that game anyway. personally i feel its quite unsightly for a girl to bend over a table, and esp if she is wearing a skirt! and i could never seem to aim accurately...so i always preferred to be the audience. haha...

bother bother...i'm hardly back for 2 days and i feel so bored already. school's not starting for another two weeks...think i need a job to keep my brain from rusting. or i could start plucking mushrooms from my head. taking only 2 modules next sem...so it sums up to 2 three-hour lectures per week. u guys do the math and tell me how much free time i've got on hand. haha...

okie lah...i shall go and have my breakfast already...got a sudden craving for my tong-ee chicken abalone maggie...been having too much good food in KL that i forgot wats the taste of maggie...haha...see ya peeps...i can bet with u guys that i'm gonna blog again today...too much time to spare le...sighs...its times like these that i wish my brother was home...

I'm so glad to be home!

so everyone...i'm back in singapore...have i been greatly missed? haha...i hope so k? its nice to be missed anyway...

one thing i dun understand...how come all the calls and sms-es always come more often when i'm like over at KL? this ALWAYS happen! so pardon me if i rejected your calls...or ignored ur sms-es...it was unintentional. hehe...

had fun in KL for the first three days with xiao hui and darling...will post the pics up later...coz darling haven uploaded them into her com yet. L.A.Z.Y.!!

The day of departure:
darling was late and we waited till 7.20am for her to arrive.( the coach is supposed to leave at 7.30!) Quite shocked when we saw the long and congested queues at the singapore immigration...but it cleared up quite fast...maybe we were busy yaking and yaking that we din realise the time...haha

arrive at KL around 1pm...deposited our belongings at nanny's house then we went mid valley mega mall. i think majority of the girl's shopping was completed at this mall. darling was beginning to panic becoz she felt the amount she brought isn't gonna be enough if this is the continuing rate of shopping. haha...

Day 2:
i never knew i could comb soooooooooooo many shopping centers in a day! the girls really pushed the limit. haha...we went to sungei wang, then times square(the biggest in KL), then sunway pyramid(where sunway lagoon is) and lastly OUG. i felt as though we were doing speed shopping can? haha...

after this trip, i can really conclude once again, that times square really sucks.

went to the pasa malam in the evening...the fried chicken is real good. and i just noticed the guy selling the chicken is quite cute. haha...my aunt was like saying "eh hello, ppl married liao okie? he has 2 kids already!" like wats the big deal right? i also nv say i'm gonna marry him or something...

Joann tay is a con woman! we bought 2 durians and she ate only like 4 seeds, leaving me and xiao hui to finish the remaining! humphz...pffts...bleahz...i nv had anymore durians for my remaining stay...

Day 3:
embarked on the petronas towers...we had to wake up early to queue for the admission tix k? it was more enjoyable and fruitful becoz we had camera with us...so there's like "proof" that we were on the twin towers. haha...we were only allowed to level 41st(the highest floor is 88!) becoz the higher levels are for office purposes...will put the pics up SOON!

shopping at KLCC, then went to 1utama. that place really became blardy big after they completed the extension. walked till i nearly wanna crawl. me and darling felt as though our legs became jelly...and we were walking in a zic-zac manner. haha...

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chadrick is really getting not so cute. he is soooooooooooooo naughty! but at the same time he is so loveable...simply melts my heart when he turns all sweet. he gets shy when u praise him, yet he yearns for it. he is stubborn when he wants things his way, and he doesnt give in, he uses tears to get his way. he gives you a kiss when u least expect him to, and it makes me feel that being a mother is quite a wonderful feeling. awwwwwwwwww....thinking of him makes my heart goes soft again...

you were always on my mind..i never knew i could miss somone so much..love you dear!

ps: i still wanna watch madagascar..is it still on?!

Away...

sorry for the lack of updates...too many things happening plus exams...

i'll be leaving for KL tml morning everyone...if there's anything urgent, u could still reach me on my mobile... i'll be back latest by the 19th, arriving 20th early morning thats it...so i'll see u people around!

to maiyo:
i'm sooooooooooooooo glad you woke up already...u had me so worried u noe...dun try to do that again! i dunno how u are doing now...boey says there hasn't been any calls from ur daddy. so no news means good news! i dun care u must come home safely...and please take extra care of urself now. miss you lots...i'm sorry...really sorry...

to boey:
haha...dun miss me so much...sometimes u gotta cherish those besides u too...its time for u to spend time on ur other friends when i'm not around. haha..but i'll be missing you too..u are my mommie wah! plus daddy too...hehe

to ezu:
i'm sorry darling for yesterday. i'll be missing you...=huggles= love you... There is a place in your heart where only I want to be....

The worse feeling apart from crying, is not being able to cry

sometimes when things happen, its somehow a fortune to be able to cry...rather than to be hurting inside...and the tears just won't fall...

the guilt is overwhelming...the pain is killing me...

i feel so lousy...my heart's so heavy...

sorry may seem the easiest way out...it may sound like an excuse...

but i really am feeling sorry...

i didn't lie...everything was for real...i didn't take you for a ride...

you are probably hating me now...i'm so so sorry...

and its hurting terribly...it really is...

Would you believe me if i said i love you?

came across this blog skin...with my entry title...it sort of caught my attention...its all black with a girl in tears...tears flowing down her cheeks...

so tempted to change my layout...but its so depressing...so i guess better not...

i shd have hate you yet my heart refused to...nice right...yea and sad too...

I'm so loved!!

first paper today..not exactly prepared for it..so i shall try to answer it with commonsense...if i have it. lol. but i've got a bad feeling...that i'm gonna fail this paper and law paper tml. hehes..

thankew everyone for ur "good lucks". love you guys...=huggies=

to maiyo:
cold over there huh? take care of urself alrights? hope you are enjoying urself...and i miss you lots.