my heart aches, whenever i think of you. its the pain of losing a great friend, that keeps the pain so excruciating. the knife that you single-handedly stabbed and twisted in my heart. the path you choose, to give up friendship over love.
maybe you can say, i'm selfish to only portray what i feel, and i neglected ur feelings.
maybe its your fast pace of change, that i can't keep up with.
maybe you valued your partner more than a friend, and i can't blame you.
i once think nothing and no one could shake our friendship. until i was proven wrong. you hurled accusations and vulgarities at me. you change ur attitude towards me. you vented anger out on me.
and all i could do was to move away from you, gradually. i couldn't stand the kinda attitude and the way you were treating me. perhaps you can argue, i didnt put myself in your shoes. but i think, its the other way round.
When someone is near, we didnt cherish. both you and i didn't. to me, it had already reached a point where i cant bring myself to embrace you without feeling any hurt and pain. i chose to retreat, and to leave.
i dunno if its correct. and i hate going through this.
