I just feel like typing...

erm is there a change in blogspot's blogging template? i refreshed my IE several times becoz the layout of a new post format was weirdly aligned. and i gave up trying to get back the original page on IE, thinking my reliable firefox would be able to solve the problem. but apparently not, i see the same layout as i've seen on IE. and i feel oddly weird bout it. but nevermind...i still wanna blog blog blog.

it has been a wonderful wonderful friday so far. why? you see, apart from the moonstar ringtone boey set for her hp alarm, that scared me awake, the day's pretty peaceful and smooth. before i left her house, her eldest brother smiled at me. =melts= alright i do not have a crush on him, he is married and gonna be a father in 1 month's time for goodness sake. its just his smile that does wonders. hehe...

okie so on my way to class, i had the sudden craving for mac's breakfast. was queuing up when i saw terence. haha...so i tapped his shoulder and said "good morning, wow buying me breakfast ah?" i was so surprised when he said "ok lor no problem. pick whatever you want lor". oh and he is interested in the same girl chunkeng is interested in. haha...good friends becoming rivals in love...

met jingwen at causeway point coz she was going to return me my notes on tax. i was early, once in a lifetime afffair. hehe...and so i waited...till woodlands started raining. amk had already been drizzling when the train passed by the station. and i was secretly hoping sembawang ain't raining. so i thought when woodlands rained, means the dark clouds and rain direction reached our areas already, and i was very prepared to walk in the rain. but sembawang was only like overcast, slightly sunny, and not raining. hehe..i'm so lucky...lucky...lucky...

oh, for your information, its dark dark and raining now. and i'm safely tucked at home! am i boring you guys out already? i still feel like typing you know...
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was at my aunt's house playing with alissa. not much of playing since she is still so young. more of like i was the partime nanny for bout 4 hours. hehe...so ke ai!!!!!!!!! =drools= whenever i carried her, her head would be turned towards the outter left side. then i was asking my aunt, is my chest crushing her or something? then my aunt was saying "yea i think so leh. she looks so confined. hehe...nvm lah...first class cushion mah." diaoz...doesn't sound very complimenting to me though.

back from boey's house. stayed there for 2 nights. ah well...same old problem my dearest friend is facing. hope you feel better now. smile!

and she is a pervert. i've lost count of how many times she "accidentally" hit my chest aka breasts and butt. told her she needs a better bra already. hehe...

watched many many movies on her small small tv. i had to migrate from the bed down to the floor becoz i couldn't see clearly without my specs.

the weather was so darn hot, i woke up in sweat everyday. and i already gotten most of the fan. i'm not spoilt ok? it was real hot.

her stupid hammies indirectly broke my hp chain! =brawls= for those who had seen me after my june kl trip, you would have saw this metal name hp chain i had on my phone. its my name! so boey wanted to take a pictures of her dearies with my phone, and then....sob sob...the chain snapped. =starts wailing again= so now my phone is so deprived...left my dearest eeyore hanging on it only. =sniff sniff=

everytime i go boey's house, i would have a craving for prata. haha...so we met xianfu and win for prata last night. as usual, i couldn't understand all their crap. i didn't know them that way back like how long they have known each other. but, one thing's for sure, i dun really like that xianfu lah. i mean, i dun mind if he's around, but once he starts talking, i lose all interest. its the way he speaks. and the way he phrases his words. makes me feel that he wants everybody's attention when he is talking and at no point of time should anybody interupt him at all.

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should have gone for lunch with my classmates. now i feel a little hungry. and its pouring. furthermore i'm so lazy to go and buy food when i've changed and all comfy at home. guess its either maggie or starve!

hmmm....xiao an...its really gonna be a pity if u give up on urself now. dun keep everything to urself. talk to someone. talk to us. yes i know, we can't share your pain. we can't really understand wat you are going thru. at this point of time, moral support is simply two words that makes no sense to you. but dun shut urself out completely. give urself a chance to be cared for and let ppl shower concern on you. its times like this that you feel vulnerable and useless. but it isn't gonna end right here yet you noe? you've only seen 20 yrs of ur life. there are still many more beautiful years to come. so much more time to share with people important in your life. its tiring to hear all these words again and again? its tiring to keep trying and see no results? its tiring to feel so much pain? its tiring to hang on? yea maybe i'm like nagging, and kept repeating myself. but its just so disheartening to see you wanting give up. where's the cheerful and thoughtful and sensitive flynn that we all known? where's ur smiles? where's the old you? you're greatly missed back here. hope you're not gonna disappoint us alright? =hugs tight=

i miss you too darling. =muackiez=

i've had a couple of good laughs tonight.

with boey:
me: stop hitting me! pain! =walks out of courts=
then boey lean against the railing, looking down at the center region.
me: get lost lah, your ass is blocking the way.
hehe...funny?

at mothercare still with boey:
boey: there, the baby shoes are over there.
me: woah so cute leh...u see this blue one...
boey: i tot u were gonna point out the pink ones.
me: aiya u looking for fernell, he is a boy wah! anyway stop looking lah...just makes me wanna be a mommie too.

on the train:
huisin: jolene!!!!!!! long time no see...i didn't see you leh...my bf noticed you.(her bf was from our secondary school)
me: haha of coz lah...ur face was buried in his chest the whole time, where got time to notice ur surroundings?
ok i was suaning her in a fun way...keep ur nasty comments to urself if u can't understand our joke.

at home:
was watching america's next top model while eating dinner.
mummy: eh xiao mei ah, didi sleep liao mah?
mei mei: sleep liao lah. u dun wanna sleep ah?!
mummy: i watching america's next top model.
mei mei: dun day dream lah you!!!
i nearly choked on my food. haha...and mummy blushed!


so once again, i got stared at by guys. quite weird leh...u guys not embarrassed when u stare at a lady and she noticed you staring and stares back at you? i dunno wats wrong with these men.

i was waiting for the train to approach when this indian man was staring directly at my you-know-where and scratching his you-know-what. i was so disgusted i stared back at him. he was quite taken aback by my fierce stare and stopped scratching. then i couldn't be bothered with him coz i saw huisin and we started yakking.

and who knows now the route while walking home is no longer stares-free? this stupid guy, he was staring at my face with his big big eyes and he looks as if he wanna eat me up. and he walked so close to me. yucks.

wheee! my room is still neat! hee~

To our beloved xiao an!!!!!

wo hen xiang ni..ni zhi dao ma... hee...got miss me not?!

how have you been? been reading my blog huh? leave me a tag so that i know u are fine and well mah... and have u been a good boy?

hmmm...actually heard from boey and ezu that you are encountering some difficulty in walking...must faithfully go for ur physio k? painful yes...but xiao an must be yong gan de xiao bao bao! be good alright...then will recover faster...

dun lose ur confidence becoz of this matter. our xiao an is a brave and confident boy right? you'll be able to overcome this huge obstacle in time. so just hang on strong for the time being. we are all behind you ok? at times when u feel like giving up, think of the reason you hung on for so long. maybe that will give you the strength and determination to hold on.

i'm sorry..but it feels like my fault that u are in this state. let me know if there's anything i could do to make it up to you k? we'll be waiting for u to come back with a big smile on ur face. hee..in the meantime, please do take great care of urself. hope u are in great hands. =hugs=

Its over...

Just like that.

so simple.

time passed.

and here i am typing...sunday is almost over.

downloaded lots of songs from the project superstar. wow-wee! feast my ears on them!

so tired. i cleaned my room, quite thoroughly. hehe i even wiped my dusty shelves ok? its considered NEAT now. so if u wanna witness how clean my room can be, visit me within the next few days ba. becoz i dunno how long the neatness could last. hee~

and i changed my bedsheets again. and i mopped the floor. not just my room k? i mopped my whole house!

i wanna start mugging for exams le. dun laugh at me, i'm not joking!!!! pffts

I adore her.

She is like the little love of my life. seeing her grow up by the day is so fascinating. though i dun get to see her everyday..but new pictures updates from my aunt makes me adore this little princess more. darling u are gonna drool lots reading this entry...becoz i'm gonna post lotsa her pictures today.


the new-born alissa poh. 5 mins old. looks like a baby eskimo dun she? chubby little thing..



orh baby dun cry...jie jie sayang hor...



"yes i know i'm a chubby girl. papa mama do you have to do this?"



"in hospitals, baby boys wear blueeeee. and baby girls wear pinkkkkkkkk. jie jie jolene likes pinky anyway!"



"milk milk! i wan mama's milk!"



nicely wrapped up. later catch a cold how? hehe...babies are little princes and princesses man...



look at her tongue..notti little girl in the making..



so ke ai hor? feel like kissing her cheeks!



this is the little darling. taken today. 12 days old le..still looking so ke ai!!!



together...1..2...3....awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...=heart melts=

isn't she amazing? i mean not only her...i feel that babies are simply amazing. imagine urself coming home from a hard day's work. looking at ur little darlings will energised u again. suddenly all fatigue will just be gone with the wind. and it just makes all ur hard work worth it.

awwwwwwww.........i'm so in love!!!!!!!!

Selyn is never gonna trust me again...

yea...i'm a bad bad friend. i made her forgo the usual 45 min journey home for a 2 freaking hr journey...i'm bad...

you see...she wanna my company in shopping for some accessories for her d&d. so i met her in orchard for dinner and and shopping. so at round 10pm, we were both tired and decided to head home. u noe...friday night...orchard...trains...human jam...so i suggested to take 167 instead. perhaps there would be seats.

so we WALKED all the way to opp far east and waited eagerly for the damn bus. from 10.10 to 11pm, there was only ONE 167 you noe. and it was so full...selyn wanted a seat. but my gosh, 50 mins of wait and only ONE bus. where the hell the bus hide to?

finally i told selyn "lets take 171 lah. it goes yishun interchange. then we take 856 home lor." there and then, it sounded good. but....

me: where are we liao?
selyn: bukit timah
me: then now where are we le?
selyn: still bukit timah roah.
me: ...............i wanna sleep le. wake me up when we are outta bukit timah.
15 min later...
me: now where are we?
selyn: =looks for road sign= upper bukit timah road.
me: i wanna faint liao. damn bukit timah so big ah? ah look at all these guys getting down. all kai zi!
selyn: haha...indian man leh..u want ah?
me: he is black kai zi. hahaha...
another 15 mins later....
me: haiz are we out of bukit timah yet?
selyn: ya..now at hillview road...
me: where the hell is that?
selyn: near bukit timah lor...
me: ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! =saw assumption english sch= eh...bukit panjang soon lah...thats my ex bf's sch. he lives in bukit panjang.
selyn: no leh...the bus stop sign still put upper bukit timah.
me: 0.o'
yet another 15 mins later....
me: aiya bukit panjang le lah...i see the lrt.
selyn: good.
me: hehe yah lor...bukit panjang and yishun very near right?
selyn: dunno. shd be lah.
me: eh go highway le. reaching soon!!!
10 mins later...i was frantically looking for a road sign.
me: where the hell are we? eh u look for road signs leh...i nv wear specs.
selyn: eh i also cannot see leh...=looks around= dun need to see liao lah. i see singapore zoo.

"world's tallest animal" read the board...

i wanted to kill myself on the spot. why i backside itchy suggest take bus? if we had took train, we would have been home donkey hours ago.

so we finally got down at sembawang road.
selyn: eh i see sembawang road, reaching yishun le!
me: eh get down here lah! got 980! press the bell!

and we sat at the isolated bus-stop, waiting for our bus for another 15 mins.
me:wat time le?
selyn: 12 plus le lah!!
me:huh so late ah? still got bus or not ah?
selyn: i wanna smack u leh. i'm not gonna trust u ever again!

when the bus came, i flagged and the toopid bus driver didn't wanna stop. he was driving so fast and stopped slightly after the bus stop. the entire bus witnessed us running to board it. and selyn farecard has no more value! so she was asking the uncle bout the fare and slowly counting out the coins. by time i was already seated and giggling to myself. everyone was staring at her can? haha..it was a hilarous experience lah...and i nv wanna take bus again.

darling no buses for us k?
boey and alan, no buses for us too k?
to everyone i noe, no buses k?

It just sparked something inside of me...

i just read someone's blog...and whatever she blogged actually made me felt sad.

yes she's my friend.
no i'm not gonna disclose her name.
and i hope she wouldn't be pissed at me for reblogging wat she blogged.

I force myself to a corner where i isolate myself from many. I've come to a point that i wana do things myself. I've come to the point that asking u for help has become very hard for me to request. Is this wad it means by becoming independent?

guessed wats the problem about already?


no?


I ended up becoming used to not seeing u for a day & dun feel the very sad kinda feeling.

how bout now? roughly see the gist of wat she's trying to say?

there are many more sentences she blogged that actually set me thinking wat kinda turmoil she is going thru now. she, one of my bestest friends ever in my life, is going thru this rough time. love brings sweetness and happiness...but it also messes up ppl's life terribly.

u r so occupied to the max that u dun feel the pinch of not seeing me n to u it seems so perfectly alright. Perhaps. i wana be like that too. it juz feel kinda sucky when i m always the one feeling so grumpy n unhappy when i wana see u, when i m the one missing u when u r busy, n u r at one corner laughing ur head off with ur frenz. wads more, i have to show myself as being very tolerant n alright n understanding that u r with ur frenz n wan to be with ur frenz. so tired of juz feeling that way. serious.im totally not ok with it when i m not ur centre. i m not. i like the attention u give me juz like i always give u. ok, correction. It should go, " i like the attention u GAVE me juz like i always GIVE u." yes, i m a sour grape now. I admit. I dun like it when u r so occupied with all ur stuff n not giving me enough time.

it sounds so much that she's collasping. she talked to me before. but i wasn't of much help becoz i didn't know wat exactly was going on in their relationship.

u once told me u r looking for a partner in that aspect who can take care of herself. I dun tink i fit into the category. perhaps u should have realised. But we r juz too stubborn to let go.


too stubborn to let go? how many feel this way too?

The little love...

Adults are contradicting!

no, i think only boey is. hehe...
boey: say wat.
me: wat?
and she tickles me. correct wah...i had been a good girl and said wat she wanted me to. still....=sighs=

i dunno why but i'm like even more sick today. scared jingwen when i met her on our way to school. she said i looked so sick. and she had this horrified look on her face too. hehe...

somehow i ended up at boey's house. this time it was planned. just hope she would get over with everything soon and that things would get better for her.

THE LITTLE DARLING IS SO ADORABLE!
alissa is so ke ai....just makes me feel so motherly! haha....

sleeping soon...goodnites!

Ah...Ah...Ah...chiu!!!

i've lost count of how many times i sneezed today. the flu bug in residing in my house is that strong!

brother>daddy>mei mei>ME!

and it chose to start on the night i sang...horrible virus..

haha and yea....i sang horribly.

anyway i'm supposed to blog about how sick i am and manja and whine and make u guys just wanna sayang me! haha...

feverish...fluish...sore throatish...i look so sick! and i seriously feel sick!

lack of sleep for the past few days...and i walked in the drizzle on sunday on my way to class...and mei mei was sneezing and blowing her nose in front of me all the time when i'm home...i guessed my immune system is not up for fighting when i'm all weak.

the panadol cold relief doesn't seem to work YET.

once again...i very ke lian...sick and xing ku...so poor thing! =pats my own head=

All's well...i'm sleepy...but i need to sing...

I've made my choice, and my stand is firm.
I'm not gonna change my mind.
nothing and no one could make me.
It was you who made me strong enough to withhold my promise.
And i shall keep it till the end.
For you dear, i love you.

zhong qiu jie kuai le! happy mooncake festival! haha...okie that's lame. but i'm looking forward to the celebrations at the cafe later. i have this feeling that its gonna be FUN! haha..of coz lah..with me around sure fun. =shoots myself= okie dun believe me.

attended the music workshop conducted by amos yesterday. damn...we are still not out of the whole audition thingy, just that we get to perform less. but i was jumping for joy when amos told me his brother commented that my singing was not bad. haha...at least he didn't like bad-point me in front of all the others...unlike some unlucky ones who got critisized.

alrights, i'm singing later...but i feel like sleeping now. haven memorise lyrics. why am i always like that?! i picked gu dan bei ban qiu and yong qi. then shifu picked out the 3rd song, ning xia. dun ask me why i'm always singing jingru's songs(as if she is my friend, call until so qing qie) but i just happen to like them lah. haha...

okie dokie...off to do some last min preparations for the performance later.
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zeng: you wanna take keyboard lessons when u come out and work and have the money to do so?
me: yea i think i will. i've always wanted to.
zeng: erm...wanna take the lessons together in future? i heard sharon wanted to take lessons too.
me: haha can...if i have the financial means to.
i never knew you could make such sweet proposal. hehe...its just so unlike u!
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oops and i almost forget...xiao an how are u?! hai hao ma?! hehe...take care and miss ya!

So true!

i just did the most amazing personality test from colorgenics. the results are so true its like my com has a 6th sense. haha...

here goes..
At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. You are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

Lousy, Pathetic me.

remember me, as the only one who set you free...
maybe time along can make you see...
how deep our love could be...
you know its never too late...

hmmm...sometimes i feel we're just too late for certain things. there's no turning back. there's no second chance. there's no more courage left to try. there's just nothing left that you can do. why do things always turn out opposite wat of u want them to? is this really wat we want?

argh..i dunno wat i'm feeling inside now. my headache is killing me. i'm feeling damn lousy. maybe thats just how pathetic my life is. i should just cry.

even so...crying is tiring...

Audience night

meaning?

everyone-can-sing. and no one could say you sound horrible. haha...it was so fun! wheeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! you guys must come! MUST come!

anyway, i kick start and sang first. quite enjoyable to sing without stress. haha...i can't imagine come sunday, i would start feeling the panicky and stressed up feelings all over again. all the anxiety. =shakes head=

i'm such a dumbo. i packed my bag, put things i'm supposed to bring. all but my extra pad. and i was like searching frantically for it earlier on. lucky sharon has one. haha...i can't believe i'm blogging bout such matters. bleah. yes the cramps is killing me too.

=sings= "i'm a good girl...i'm a good girl..."

i folded my clothes and changed my bedsheets today! hehe...goodgirl right?! now i can ROLL on my clean bedsheets...whee whee wheeee!~

morning lecture. sleep. nitez.

wed the 14th...

hark music celebrates mooncake festival on sunday. all are welcome. anyone who wanna come to the cafe, you're more than welcome to. recevied the death sentence today. gonna perform again(dun ask me, i dunno why). 3 songs. no alan, i'm not gonna sing yue liang dai biao wo de xin. =smacks your head=

visited ah girl at thomson medical centre today. she just gave birth to baby alissa. the little princess is so cute. i carried her and she happily lie on my right breast. hehe...she is all soft and snowy and smooth and cute. sighs...am i crazy to say i want my kids too? haha...but no...i'm not pregnant k?

i having cramps. reason? do i have to spell it out? eeks...hate it. =counts the number of pimples it gave me= i hope these pimples disappear with the wind! or like bubbles, burst them and be gone forever....with no scars! maybe that explains why i'm always feeling so tired for the past few days. i'm sorry for blaming it on jet lag.

xiao an left for his operation overseas le. so poor thing...so painful...he'll be gone for bout 2 months..hee..must take care of urself there k xiao an?

i'm gonna have sweet dreams tonight cause darling just drowned me in sweetness. i must be blessed coz i have you. i love my dearest le le! together our love will grow stronger k!

gdnites everyone..my bed is seducing me already.

i gave my best
but i guessed my best wasn't good enough
coz here we are back where we were before

seems nothing ever changes
we're back to being strangers
wondering if we ought to stay
or head on out the door

just once
can we figure out where we keep doing wrong
why we nv last for very long
wat are we doing wrong

just once
can we find a way to finally make it right
to make the magic last for more than just one night
if we could just get through it
i know we could break through it

i gave my all
but i think my all may have been too much
coz god knows we're not getting anyway
seems we're always blowing
whatever we got going
and it seems like time is all we got
but we haven't got a prayer

just once...i want to understand...
why it always comes back to goodbye
why can't we get ourselves in hand
and admit to one another
we're no good without each other
take the best and make it better
find a way and stay together...

oh~ we can get through it...just once...

I'm super tired!

it must be jet lag.
boey: how can it be? bangkok and singapore only 1 hr difference.
me: yea i noe...i'm finding excuses can?

seriously i find myself in need of sleep. maybe its becoz i didn't sleep sufficient for the past 3 nights...the hotel was comfortable..but i just couldn't sleep soundly...awaken by daddy's snores...awaken coz i found no pillows to hug(i had 3! but 1 was under my head and the other 2 landed on the floor. hee!)...awaken coz i was feeling cold and i kicked away my blanket...awaken by so many minor minor reasons...

let me sidetrack a little...wat happens if u are about to enter the lift and u see a macho-fierce-big looking man approaching the lift? a NORMAL girl with her sense intact would have waited for the next lift. but me, i panicked a little, got into the lift, and graciously held the lift door open for him. i even returned his smile when he did his hi-i'm-your-neighbour smile. yes i must have been too tired...

okie...returning to my bangkok entry...brace urself up a little..its gonna be like a long entry with no pictures. leave now to save urself this agony...

my wonderful mum managed to jam the lock code. i couldn't get the luggage to open at the airport. thats when everyone panic...

i told her..to take nanny's hardcasing bag...she didn't want to..see lah...in the end we broke the lock in bangkok. the broken lock even cut my index finger when i merely gently brushed against it..sobs sobs...

arrived at bangkok on time...the first thing when i stepped out of the departure gates, there were these two thai men grinning at me, and greeting me hello with a very selang smile. never try to talk to me when i'm groggy and half asleep. i stared at them and walked on. i didn't even know them. wat the hell they wanted?

checked in...the hotel was good. big room...1 queen size bed per person. the bed was super bouncy...hehe...and mtv was shown all day long...hehe..

okie...i supposed u guys wouldnt really wanna read bout every single minute detail bout the trip..so i shall do a summary.

places we visited:
the floating market
the temple along the floating market
mah boon kong
siam square
patuwan
chinatown
world trade center
chatuchak weekend market

things i bought:
7 t shirts
5 bags
12 pairs of earrings
many many hairclips
2 eeyores
1 eeyore mug
1 mickey mouse wallet
3 heartshaped keychains
my treatment hairspray
1 slipper

and i think thats about all...i wanna go bangkok again...this time without my brother and parents...who wanna bring me this time?

i'm off.

leaving for bangkok.

not exactly excited. not very pleased.

i'm gald to have this time alone.

Chalet at Aloha Changi...

with mommie, jasby, alanny and ezu's sister, qaniah.

so...how do u feel when a 9yr-old makes a genuine yet funny offer like this:

me: eh i wanna go toilet leh...boey go with me...
boey: dun wan. you go urself.
qaniah: i go with you lor.
boey: muahahaha..u paiseh not? a 9 yr-old just offered to accompany you to the toilet! haha..
me: 0.o"

and she lay on top of me when we were watching herbie. just like tarapanda style...and she almost fell asleep.

overall we had fun, though it was just a one night affair. we all slept in one room...i made alan carry the 2 single mattresses so that all 5 of us could sleep comfortably. hehe...

okie. watever that i said was boring. i have no mood to blog at all. going thailand tml evening le. taking finair...will be at the airport by 7.30pm i think. wheeee!

its not everyday that i could pick myself up again

its amazing how things could take a sudden twist. i'm not liking this twist..its tormenting me. but, it inevitable...so i'll have to live with it. i'm always asking myself why, but it always leaves me puzzled. i have no answers, just lots of question marks. i dun really see myself as a pathetic naive person, but somehow, i just can't and dun understand why things can't be simple and straightforward. its a mess once again, and i dun even know how to go about clearing it up.

sighs...

baby i love you and i'll never let you go. heard this song for the very first time maiyo sent me "the boys" version. haha...and i happened to hear the girls singing...so yea...its playing on my blog now. i like the ting ting ting piano part...gives u a very carefree feeling when u listen to it isn't it?

i certainly hope i'm not falling sick, been sneezing for the past few days already. but no flu no running nose no blocked nose. just an irritated throat. =sneeze= its not my room k...my room is not that dusty...maybe only slightly...hee

one part of me is super excited bout going bangkok soon. but another part of me just can't feel happy bout that fact. wat is happening? yes, it must be pms. i'm gonna be a loser and blame it on pms once again.

i'm lost for words.

I hate PMS.

this is the 3rd pimple its giving me. and i dun wan! i dun like!

and its making me agitated. i dun wan chocolates. it doesnt help.

just think of the cramps when it starts. think i'll be in pain when i'm thailand.

argh...not enough sleep. think my mood is made worse by my mum who constantly wakes me up early for minor reasons. headache headache.

you dun cry...it'll all turn out fine...

Dream came true...

muahaha...who says u need a rich bf or husband so that u can have every single little thing u want? okie maybe they will speed up the waiting time...but its enough at my age, to have parents who listens to you at times.

okie, not exactly listen to me. i whined to mummy bout going bangkok bout 1 week back? for those who read my blog regularly, you would have remembered more or less. hehe...and yes, we are ready to set off!

i woke up today to have mummy telling me bout the bangkok rates. i was momentarily stunned. maybe i was still dreaming...becoz my mum is the well known procastinator. and she, calling up agencies to enquire bout the rates? haha..almost impossible. but i guessed she wans a break herself. afterall...she has been working for the past 30 years. so ever since i woke up at around 1pm, she officially handed me the baton(is this the correct spelling?) to do the remaining calling up. she left me with no choice when she said "dun call then dun go lor". i'm such a sucker for threats.

yea i shalln't bore u guys with the calling process. just be happy for me when u read the next line:

I'M GOING TO BANGKOK SHOPPING!

wheeeeeeeee~!

yes of coz of coz, i'll miss you greatly dearest. not to forget wonderful ppl in my life...boey, alan, flynn(xiao an happy not?), my friends, my classmates...oh to maiyo, i miss you too!

anyway, i'll be leaving on the 9th early afternoon, arriving back in singapore on the 12th evening. didi is gonna miss his first day of school...but...well...can't be helped! muahaha...i'm evil. i purposely planned it on those days when i'm free...i'm evil...evil...evil...

i remembered my first trip to bangkok was with my aunts and my sister. we were so thrilled that we started writting out our shopping list way long before the departure date. i was 11, she was 9. its been...9 yrs...and once again i'm feeling the thrills. shopping list? haha...maybe i shd just write it again.

not exactly enjoyable to travel with mummy coz she nags alot. and she's a born worrier. but well...its okie. hope she could enjoy herself and daddy too...sister not going...she has prelims...muahaha...she's always missing out on our holidays recently. poor thing poor thing...second uncle coming along as well. he can speak thai and he often goes to thailand. so we have a free tour guide!

okie i shall go and further dream bout my all expenses paid trip...=excited=