A very random monday...

i'm tired. physically and of watever things which are happening to me and friends.

maybe the emptiness i'm feeling inside of me now is due to the fact that 2 weeks ago at this time, i'm in my vocal class. but not anymore. had since suspended classes due to upcoming exams.

argh yes exams, time to mug. which is something i've lost touch for. perhaps i've been too slack with my studying life, other than attending lectures faithfully. or perhaps its the flexibility of my classes that changed my lifestyle completely. frankly speaking, i do wish i had more things on hand to do rather than to idle my days away...

i get fustrated whenever i think of the advice i give to a particular friend. becoz i feel my advice are too rational and it doesn't seem to fit into the situation. i mean hello, who on earth can break up with their partners and be on the ok track a few days after? giving comfort, being there for them, giving moral support, all these seemed ok, but not if the problem is recurring. i'm even more fustrated when this problem happens again and again and i keep having to repeat wat i had already said long ago.

and watching ur friend crumble in front of you, yet unable to do anything, thats the worse off feeling. wats up with us humans? too soft-hearted huh? holding onto something that seems dear but in actual fact not so? i'm agitated. i'm fuming actually.

"life is like a box of chocs" my GP lecturer used to quote this to us, thinking we are morons. but to a moron with the surname ong, ur life is full of drama. everything bout you seems nothing but a lie. u are a freaking dreamer. you fantasized bout perfect situations but u failed to realise humans have flaws. no one is perfect, and you, are FAR FROM PERFECT. your existence is a joke. go on, freeze urself, cut urself with a knife, if u had meant to die, u would have died long ago. stop ur acts in front of us and get a life. dun try to be a prince when u dun have a dick. and if u are too bored, mess up ur own fucking life and stay away from the innocent.

lesbianism is simply not healthy! for those who thinks u are happily attached and thinks i'm crapping, please just click the "x" button at the top right hand corner of this page. otherwise, listen to me, it screws up ur life! u will undergo an emotional turmoil(okie straight ppl do too, but at least they are straight!). and u end up in a shitty mess that sinks u further into watever u are going thru. argh!!! i feel so disgusted!

i dunno if i've gone too far to critisize someone my friend once loved. well its my blog, dun like wat u are reading? then stay away.

i feel so pms-ed. but it isn't. perhaps its becoz my friend is down, and so i am indirectly affected. think i'm better off taking a shower and doing some work.