It just sparked something inside of me...

i just read someone's blog...and whatever she blogged actually made me felt sad.

yes she's my friend.
no i'm not gonna disclose her name.
and i hope she wouldn't be pissed at me for reblogging wat she blogged.

I force myself to a corner where i isolate myself from many. I've come to a point that i wana do things myself. I've come to the point that asking u for help has become very hard for me to request. Is this wad it means by becoming independent?

guessed wats the problem about already?


no?


I ended up becoming used to not seeing u for a day & dun feel the very sad kinda feeling.

how bout now? roughly see the gist of wat she's trying to say?

there are many more sentences she blogged that actually set me thinking wat kinda turmoil she is going thru now. she, one of my bestest friends ever in my life, is going thru this rough time. love brings sweetness and happiness...but it also messes up ppl's life terribly.

u r so occupied to the max that u dun feel the pinch of not seeing me n to u it seems so perfectly alright. Perhaps. i wana be like that too. it juz feel kinda sucky when i m always the one feeling so grumpy n unhappy when i wana see u, when i m the one missing u when u r busy, n u r at one corner laughing ur head off with ur frenz. wads more, i have to show myself as being very tolerant n alright n understanding that u r with ur frenz n wan to be with ur frenz. so tired of juz feeling that way. serious.im totally not ok with it when i m not ur centre. i m not. i like the attention u give me juz like i always give u. ok, correction. It should go, " i like the attention u GAVE me juz like i always GIVE u." yes, i m a sour grape now. I admit. I dun like it when u r so occupied with all ur stuff n not giving me enough time.

it sounds so much that she's collasping. she talked to me before. but i wasn't of much help becoz i didn't know wat exactly was going on in their relationship.

u once told me u r looking for a partner in that aspect who can take care of herself. I dun tink i fit into the category. perhaps u should have realised. But we r juz too stubborn to let go.


too stubborn to let go? how many feel this way too?