a couple of months back, and i would have been absolutely anal bout eating alone, shopping alone, and doing stuff alone.

today, i find myself looking back at recent months and feeling proud of myself. its true that i still can't shop and watch movie and got ktv alone yet, but at least i took the first step towards loneliness, i can eat all by myself already.

now thats nothing special, i can eat all my myself and NOT feel sympathetic stares directed at me.

maybe u could say that circumstances brought this out in me. good or bad, i can't answer you guys now. if u think loneliness doesnt exist in this bubbly girl, i think i have just proven everyone wrong.

i was all alone today to kickstart my exams. surprisely, i didn't really felt out of place. i walked out of the hall nonchalently whilst others yakked and chattered. but it didnt seemed to matter to me anymore. i didn't know what took over me, but i completely blocked out the world, and to me, i exist for myself.

if growing up means an endless road to loneliness, should i be glad that i am indeed maturing?