it never fails to amaze me, how some people can turn on the computer and blogging ideas would naturally surface. and also, how much effort they painstakenly take to photoshop their pictures to make them look drop dead pukey.
okie i am not gorgeous. but neither do i photoshop my pictures to mislead people who reads my blog to think so. its already very "imaginery" to hold a conversation with a stranger online. and more often than not, we tend to fantasize bout how goodlooking the other party is, not taking into consideration that there ARE lots of plain janes and average looking people around.
the furthest i ever went with my pictures on picasa, is to sharpen the images, as well as to add the glow function to the collages. this, i dun think equates to photoshopping's standards.
i digressed. i had no intention to pinpoint any bloggers who enjoys photoshopping. i had wanted to purely blog bout how lazy i am to actually take pictures of things i buy/places i been to/who i went out with/what i ate/and whatever that are picture-takeable and then to post them online, letting everyone know what i bought/where i've been to/who i went out with/what i ate and whatever that worth me snapping their imagines.
i was packing my shopping loot from yesterday. since i had no use for most of my purchases yet, i decided against opening up the nicely-wrapped items just to capture a picture for you guys to visualise what i bought. the thought of destroying the wrapper, only to put it back thereafter put me off. you can call me lazy or whatever, i dunch really care.
the only thing which i am very willing to unwrap as many times as possible, even to the extent of taking a picture of it, is the whitegold key i had bought way in advanced. mommie had already given the green light which allowed me to buy it. knowing her finances, i didn't try to be a difficult birthday girl. i felt i only needed something simple and nice to symbolise the first step into adulthood.
its simple, and i like it. i dont need loosely cut diamonds on it which would cause the price to go up by a couple of hundreds. i'll only be wearing it for a year anyway. and yes, i'm finally turning 21. its freaky. only seems like yesterday when i was mugging for my A-levels.
i dont come from a well-to-do family. money is tight at times for my parents, esp in the past. but mommie never fails to try and give us the best and most of our needs, as well as some of our wants.
i didn't grow up with sega gamesets and europe/aussie/us holidays. i didn't pass each birthday with branded birthday cakes and expensive toys.
and i was largely taken aback, when mommie asked me what present i would like for my 21st. when i replied i want a digicam, she refused immediately, and i know it was quite impossible. but from the looks of it now, it seems highly likely that i might get it. it doesn't really matter to me actually. there's no lack of friends with theirs during dinner get-togethers and outings. and i have a reasonably good cam phone.
i think i sound too uncheery in this post. at times i do get this sudden moodswings. and i'll just sit down and think things through.
pardon me, for i am not able to express to you what i really feel. i prefer to bottle them up. i prefer to be the only one to understand what i am feeling/going through. maybe its because i trust no one enough to bare myself. maybe its because no one bothers to ask. maybe its because, you're just not the person i want to open myself up to.
sighs, enough of that.
my chalet is confirmed.
venue:downtown east resorts
date: 1st july, saturday
to date, i can only divulge that much. all other misc stuff like timing, theme, what presents i would really like to receive and who is invited will only be released much later. perhaps like after my exams when i am more carefree.
things i do not want: soft-toys(i will chase u away with a broom), silver accessories(i am very allegic. i itch and i get rash and i'll scratch and it leaves scars), watches(i dun like to wear watches which i dun fancy, and i have weird expectations. and i itch too when i wear watches), cds(i dont have a discman?), perfumes and bodylotions/comestics.
here's what everyone has been asking me----things i want: money(who doesnt want?), memory stick duo for my k750i-1gb(get me the 256 one and i will hit your head solid solid one time. ps: learnt it from jaywalk), mp3 player(and please let it be of an impressive storage size. i have no need for a 128mb mp3 player), digicam, birks, lifetime supply of moonflower perfume, a new mini hi-fi system would be nice(esp if its pink), a holiday treat, the ruby ribbon-design ring, the heart shaped diamond ring(haha...okies this is way too expensive and no one would be able to afford it), a new wallet(easiest to buy right?! but please make sure you know what kind and size of wallet i like) and erm....i would think of it again...
get the rough idea already?
if u had not/do not receive my invitation(by mouth or sms) by now/mid june, chances are, you are NOT invited. dun take it too personal, you are just not there yet for u to be invited. haha...okies this sounds bad...let me rephrase...what i meant was, my guest list is already scaringly long, and i don't need people whom i've never seen for the past 3 years to show their faces just because its my birthday. if you hadn't bothered to meet up with me, then don't expect an invitation. common sense isn't it?
going to bed soon...
there are certain people you miss, but the hurt they brought to you could be so great, you couldn't bring urself to face them the same way again. it can never be the same again.
