if i’m not dripping blood, what justifies my cramps?
it has been 2 days…
yesterday after lunch…i felt sort of a churn in my tummy…and today…now…i feel the exact numbness kinda cramps i get when i am you know, bleeding.
and it worsened after the intern treated me to some wine gum from M&S.
always like that one…i guess i’m just not cut for alcohol. i dun like the taste of it even.
and i finally gotten my registered package from taiwan. ordered some earrings and bracelets from taiwan some time back…i’m so in love with my crowns. crowns are in fashion now you know? hahaha…
and i was passing some colleagues over at the other office where she asked me, “so i heard today is your last day?”
me: yups. -smilez-
colleague: first time i heard someone wants to leave becoz she feels she slacks too much.
i am a lazy girl. i dun really like working so much to derive some kinda satisfaction certain people get. but, to the extent that i feel bored enough that made me felt i am simply learning nothing, i can’t accept it. i mean, we all gotta start somewhere, if we just wanna blindly take up a job that doesn’t benefit ur learning process, then i would say leave.
the peeps here are real nice, but they are always giving me the excuse that they are busy so they usually only delegate very simple tasks for me. not that i am complaining, but this is not what i am looking for. i can enjoy a slacker job for a short period of time, but it gradually bores me out.
and it doesnt feel good when ppl around you are passing comments like:
“wow so good….slacker…”
“you are an overpaid clerk”
“you complain what? you slacking most of the time”
i is dun like it lor. not i dun wanna do. is they dun wanna gimme work. i can’t help it if i have nutting to do and i msn and surf net. what else shd i do? take a cloth and wipe the glass doors? then perhaps the cleaning auntie might hate me coz i am snatching her ricebowl.
its a pity that its only when i am leaving that we are getting closer to the intern. his name is mingleong and he is the most soft spoken guy i’ve ever known. not in a sissy way, in a very gentle way, often resulting in us going “har!?” and him having to repeat himself, more than twice.
that silly twit opened the fridge today and took out a pack of overnight sushi. it had 5 pieces and he offered me a couple of those without the seaweed after i kindly informed him that i is weird and fussy and do not take seaweed.
his eyes popped big big and asked: you dun take seaweed?
me: nope, i dun like the taste, i will puke.
ml: har?
me: yah…thats why i always remove the seaweed before eating the sushi. hehe
ml: eh here got one without seaweed, you want?
me: when u got it? eee i dun want…i dun take raw food. hahaha.
ml: my gf bought for me lor. yesterday. dunno spoilt le not.
me: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks!!! confirm spoil le lor! where got ppl eat overnight sushi one?!
ml: spoil le meh? -smells- no lah…she will kill me if i dun eat lor.
me: chey…throw away she also dunno. hahahaha.
i is bad hor?