why i blog again...

okie...since i'm not sleeping cause i can't sleep yet, i'm gonna blog.

mr delon chew is marrried! for those who used to frequent #emirates, he is that delon guy who used to chat rather actively. he is blissfully married now to his lovely wife. wow-whee...am i growing up too fast or wat?

i wonder how it would be like when i personally recieve my first red invitation. how i would feel...dun count mr yeo's wedding please...haha...

i dun really wanna admit that time is passing so quickly, dun wanna admit that i am going on 21. for those who keep thinking wo kan bu kai that i am getting older, you are so very wrong. i just feel so empty inside actually...not as in emotionally empty...more like real emptiness that is constantly reminding me that i've accomplished nothing.

yes i noe, i'm a student, isn't studying my priority now? it is, and will be till i finish this blardy acca thingy. but the feeling isn't exactly the same being a private student. you meet different people and experience different lifestyles and schoollife. its just so different..

kenneth once told me to try applying for sim or smu, at least i'll get to experience campus life. i didn't think much of it when he suggested it initially...but its all starting to make sense now...-shrugs-

darling always says i give up halfway. but i'm determined to finish this race.

2005 seemed to have breezed through...i'm just so blessed to have met some really great people who have in one way or another, been influential in my life. to these special and important people, i lurve you guys. to people i've hurt, directly or indirectly, i'm really sorry.

i'm just a stubborn girl who doesn't know how to cherish and appreciate. my pride is always stopping me from speaking the truth, even if it meant hurting people who cares with good intentions. i'm evil.

somehow i feel i'm gonna regret some things later in life...and somehow its too late to salvage... its like crossing a shakey bridge too far you can't turn back...becoz its far and i am scared.

sighs...sleep kicking in. i'm sleep deprived.