Sad..

no reason to smile. sinking feeling in my heart.

I feel as though someone just slapped me across my face.

and its just so degrading that someone actually thinks so lowly of me.

i know...i may not be an angel, someone who puts others before myself all the time. i'm not gonna deny i'm a selfish girl. but to the extend where i completely neglect or hurt someone's feelings, i would always try to avoid. maybe this proves that i've not tried hard enough. i'm flawed.

i'm not gonna ask for too much but just a gentle reminder from you guys that i'm not doing things right and u feel that i've gone overboard and hurt u in the process. and i'm really sorry if i still continue doing so despite countless attempts at u guys telling me not to. i really didn't know my brainless rantings and jokes can be so detrimental. sometimes i really needed to be hit hard to learn my lesson.

Just like now.

And i deserve it.