hmmm...

blogging reminds me of my diary...where i used to write quite often back in secondary school. who can you blame when online blogging doesn't offer you the privacy u get from penning down ur tots? both hold memories...happy or sad... just like ur sms-es and mails and whatever...

its quite tormenting whenever i have to make a decision to delete them...just becoz this phase of my life is over. and on many occasions, i just can't bear to.

reading back these "past memories" actually set me thinking... and sometimes it makes me laugh at my past stupidity.

maybe like what most ppl say...we are always growing up and maturing along the way...and maybe becoz of this reason...we make mistakes...we take wrong moves...and we love the wrong person.

ah love...very peculiar isn't it? whats up with all the saying that you only know how to cherish when u lost that person? i think love, in this case, simply came at the wrong time.

and why is it bothering so many out there? i seriously have no idea.

"have you heard? they are breaking up after so many years."
"so? its time to move on anyway."
"huh but afterall they've been together for ages."

so is time a factor in love? or is it a habit to many? i remember watching "dharma and grey", whereby this couple met and got married on the very same day... ok its a little extreme...but i was just trying to illustrate the "time" factor.

the conclusion is, everyone shd just like shave their heads and be nuns and monks. we will be the cool and hip ones who needn't shave if we dun want and can eat meat still. and right, we could have underground flings with each other and pretend not to know the very next day...[last christmas i gave you my heart...but the very next day you gave it away...] now how does that idea sounds?

i have no idea what the hell i'm blabbering at 1.30 in the morning...but love is bitter, then sweet, and then....its gonna be bitter all the way...

The end is near...

yes i'm dying...i've only 2 months to live...no i'm just joking...

but the end is really near...first paper on the 6th, and i haven even touch the pile of notes. so tml...i have a DATE!!!!!! are you guys happy for me?!

this is incest...and its gonna be the boriest date ever...

i dated my sister to woodlands library to study! wheeeee how exciting that soundS?

so tml, its gonna be me, sista, and the library!

i could start counting down to my birthday soon. damn i'm turning 20!!!! =faintz=

Armageddon

oh no...its time again...its showing on channel 5 now...

its time ...to cry again...

tissue paper!!!

Disgusting!

argh...have you peeps ever hurt ur toes so badly that ur nail just dies and dropped off?

the very first time mine did, was at a cousin's house. we were playing catching when my middle toe knocked against the step, and the entire nail pry out. the pain was too disgusting for words...

now i'm facing it for the second time...for regular readers..they would have remembered the fall in my kitchen...yups...thats it! but this time...the nail is daggling there...and last night...i brushed my big toe against that injured toe! =screams!!!!= how clumsy can i be? sobs sobs...

but yes...its still hanging there...

and becoz i couldn't paste this at the earlier post... it shall go here....

In your eyes, people see love... You're constantly around people who love and adore you, or you're the one spreading the love! You put passion into everything you do and the results end up great! You love to hang out with your friends, go to the mall, and just have a good time in general. Your sanctuary would just be being able to be around other people. You would rarely be found by yourself because you're a very sociable person and enjoy all the company you can get. However, despite the amound of love you have to give to others, it can also be your downfall. Sometimes you're just a tad over protective over the things/people you love. But hey! Who can blame you for marking your territory? Your lover is extremely lucky to have you because many others are probably dieing to be with you, yet alone get a chance to talk to you ^-^ Continue spreading the love and be loved :)

suddenly i felt like doing all these...


You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.



You like the ones that understand you.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)

sick and bored...

alrights...its a nice sunny tuesday afternoon and i'm sick. am so freaking bored i decided to do this:

got this from someone else's blog....and there's 100 qns!!! i'll be so surprised you guys have the patience to read it....
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false

01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton (who?)
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year (i tot i had became less naive)
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart (i'm in self -denial)
21. I've never broken someone���s bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now! (i dun mind you noe...)
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast (used to...now i'm so much slower)
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldnt survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow (what's cornrow?)
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my web journal
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God.
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I love to sing
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything (just antibiotics...weird huh?)
77. I have a lot to learn (Oh, yea)
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube���s newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on my web journal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy country music
89. I would die for my best friend (how to ans this?)
90. I think that Mountain Mikes has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick���s "Children���s Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I have cut myself before
100. I have love with all my heart and soul. (love was meant to hurt!!!!)

okie...it was halfway thru this thingy that i realised most of the questions are not very relevant...haha...happy going thru the list ppl...

Love Is Everything = LIE

everyone agrees?

1) Don't turn your back to love when it's already in front of you. Don't drive it away from you,because if you do, someday, you'll think again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you.

2) In Love, think things first over if you're sure about how you feel. Don't fall too hard not knowing where you will stand, coz it will hurt really bad if things don't go the way you want them to be.

3) It's an irony to know that it takes hours for someone to have guts to say "hi" to the one he likes, days to admire, weeks to miss the person, months to love, but just a blink of an eye to say goodbye...

4) Go for the person who loves you. It is not wrong to love someone who belongs to someone else, but it is much better to love someone who could also love you in return.

5) Love isn't something we hold, it is something we set free. It's not something we just do, but it's something we don't imagine to be. Lastly, it's not something we choose, it chooses us..

6) The scariest thing about falling in love is getting hurt. The scariest thing about getting hurt is not being able to love again. The scariest thing about not loving again is being alone forever.

7) When you follow your heart, worry not where it will lead you, for your heart knows the way. And if you do get lost or reach a dead end, use your head to lead you back home.

8)When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults,you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight for the mistakes,you accept the faults, and you overlook excuses.

9) It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than lose your loved one to your useless pride.

10) Love is ......... not "it's your fault " but "I'm sorry",not "where are you?" but "I'm here",not "how could you?" but "I understand" not "I wish you were here" but "I'm thankful you are".

11) The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves, and not twist with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

12) If a relationship is truly meant for you, your love will find a way to make it happen,and God will be there to make sure it will stay.

I'm in denial...

I just can't believe wat i did on sunday. indeed i felt it was a rash decision. but at the same time i wanted it. it was so tempting...and since i had been pondering on it for quite some time, i went ahead with it...leaving me with what i had never seen for the past 4 to 5 years of my teenage life.

could you guys already have guessed it?

yes...i cut my hair.

typical qing's thinking "aiya how short could u cut ur hair? ur hair is always long...so boring."

i admit it isn't as short as anyone else's...but to me...its a record short!!! it couldn't even reach my bra strap now...it used to be almost reaching my waist u noe...and my ponytail looks so short and cute when i tie up my hair...goodness...wat have i done?!

for my hair admirers, if there are any(haha...), i'm so so sorry...and i feel more sorry for myself can...comes to the conclusion...the next time around...i'll just tell myself i can't even afford 10 bucks to cut my hair...haha...just let me be ba...let me suffer all this alone...i deserve it....someone shoot me...someone smack me...

life is like a OBSTACLE COURSE

this is gonna be a long entry...

no matter how late i sleep the night before...i'll start waking up at 11am...without fail. guessed thats the time my biological clock is set...

awoke only to discover that i received 3 smses...
xiao jing: are you coming to study today?
qingz: sorry cant meet you got something on later
boey: morning!! (this msg was sent at 6.41AM!)

eventually met up with boey and alan for lunch. i was so lazy to travel that i made them come to sembawang. haha...no choice...i'm the princess...and then it was chit chatting session at my viod deck AGAIN. this time round we recorded quite a few conversations....on boey's phone...and one on alan's which i really hope could be deleted. mr allany...get my hint? haha... sat for a few hours till my butt ache...so we decided to go sembawang beach....could u guys believe i actually brought my brother along? haha...see i'm the angelic sister today...

i think sembawang beach is one of the few places left with sand playground...plus SWINGS!!! it has really been sooo sooo long since i last sat...haha...and erm...there was the usual play thingy which is like a obstacle course to me. first they made me climb up the ladder, which had big gaps in between each steps. so scary can?! i climbed halfway i kept screaming that i dun wanna continue le. but alan was encouraging me and standing behind me while boey was in front. and there's no way i could back down...

finally reached the top...and i took another 15 min to overcome the next obstacle. becoz i saw my brother fell lah...so i tot its damn slippery. was screaming and shouting lah as usual....till the kids were laughing at me..paiseh can...and i saw this 4yr old boy with big eyes and long eyelashes. when i finally slide down the roller slide, he came to me and with thumbs up and said "good!" soooo cute lor...then i asked him "u wanna be my bf?" haha...boey say i scaring him....

slacked around awhile more till 8 at the bridge jetty before we went for dinner...

Chen XinHui

cheryl nicole tan...thats the name of chad's baby sister. she is soooooooooooo loveable...her skin is sooooo silky smooth and her hair so soft and cottany...and she is soooo rosy...goodness...she is one active little girl...always kicking away her blanket...sighs...i wan a kid too! hehes

but seeing the pain clara(the mummy) has to endure after her c-section operation, i have second tots bout having a kid. haha...=smacks myself= i'm talking as if i'm 5months pregnant right? hehes

anyway my uncle made me write the chinese characters for cheryl's chinese name in the birthcert. i swear this girl is gonna hate me for writting so horribly. it looks so yucky i feel like banging my head against the wall. but the mummy said its much nicer than the dad's handwritting...so...i guess...its ain't that bad. its so tedious practising for it...till i told them "i'll marry a ang moh to aviod such situations" haha...okie...just a joke...

chad is so so so so cute...his vocab improved tremendously!!!!! he noes "M" for mac. he noes colours like blue green pink...he noes frog...he noes how to call "ku ku"(which stands for auntie)...and he can count...but he always starts from 2...and revolve around 2 and 3..goodness...soooooooooooo cute can?

went for singing rehearsal earlier on with sharon and esther...then went kbox(again?!) with sharon to further practice together. i'm so glad there's someone in the same boat as me...so at least we could give each other advices...so...my finalised song list:
1) ru guo you yi tian
2) wo ying gai de dao
3) yin wei ni
4) xing qi yi tian qi qing wo li kai ni

Study + kbox

went back to sch to study since my friends are there... studied abit...then i discovered my shoe strap gave way. i hadn't experienced this since the time i was working in call floor...and the feeling is as shitty as before...not to mention i was totally at a lost. hello, i'm like in orcharD?

decided to buy a pair of sandals...went centerpoint with xiao jing...and guessed who we saW? zhou chong qing and thomas ong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my god...thomas ong even gave me a big and warn fuzzy huggies!!!!!!!

nah...i'm joking...he didn't...haha

finally bought my sandals at world of sports...and me, xiao jing and rare gem decided to go for dinner and then go kbox. so exciting can....so long nv sing with him liao...somemore he sings so well...haha...okok...singing only...nothing else...

was ushered by this kbox manager. so obvious she's a bung. but she looks like lin jun jie can? i couldn't help looking at her. and she is soooo nice. she recommended me the new almond lemon drink. then i ask "if not nice how? if almond taste too strong how? then she said "then i change for you lor" hahaha.....so sweet hor? rongz, if u are reading this and thinking i sound so lesbo, i'm not k? i'm perfectly straight and as unbendable as the metal ruler. hehes..

in the midst of singing, my uncle smsed me "why you nv come and visit my daughter?"

you see...chad's younger sister, cheryl nicole tan, was born 2 days ago at KK Hospital. so i dun have a choice...gonna drag my ass there tml morning...haha...anyway i already saw her pic le. this newest addition to the family weighs 3.42kg at birth(i was only 2.95kg!) and 52cm in length. and she has big nose and mouth! haha...i always felt girls shd have smaller mouths....:X

i'm so so so tired...zzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzz

my dear, start opening your books and study!!! NOW NOW NOW!!!!

oh no, i'm talking to myself now...think i'll take a shower and study...

wheee...and its raining...
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you never know what the other person is thinking...because u are not him/her.

BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today [seemed like forever since i last saw him]

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares [ this is on every girl's mind]

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him [he still manage to make my heart beat faster]

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend [ouch i think that hurts]

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now [yeah...without me...he shd be]

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me [does he hate me that much?]

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it [he is just making me feel better]

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it [okie i noe, he is trying very hard to make me feel better...]

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend [he doesn't love me anymore]

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug [could i turn back the hands of time?]

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried [and crying is indeed tiring]

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him [love was meant to hurt]

From Jensen to Esther

forgot to mention on my previous entry...but they changed my instrumentalist becoz jensen has other commitments. so esther would be playing the piano instead of jensen on the guitar. she is easy-going and willing to make changes according to my pace of singing. so well...i'm okie with it. but she did played wrongly a few times, which i hope wouldn't be the case on the day of the performance.

was happily practising for the very last time when this guy suddenly barged into the room, staring straight into my face. that immediately imtimidated me...suddenly i sang very soft...because i dunno wat he wanted. from the time he came in till he put his helmet on the chair, he was staring directly at my face. i thought wat was on my face can? weirdo...but i remember seeing him on the day of the audition...so he went thru the audition too..so rude right... bleahz...guys...

And it was Hougang again...

had dinner at sun plaza's mac on sat evening...was going over to boey's place for to study, and alan is supposed to repair her com.

surprise surprise! boey actually had macspicy double...instead of her usual big mac...and once again, she didn't get to drink coke beside i didn't allow. muahaha...so she had medium ice lemon tea. she is a fluid vacuum cleaner...haha...she finished her drink way earlier than me and i had like more than half a cup of my coke left. seeing that "oh-i-am-so-poor-thing-and deprived-of-a-drink" face, i offered her a mouthful of my coke. her face immediately lit up! she looked soooooooooooooooooooo cute...=pinch boey's cheeks=

went to boey's house to deposit my things before she went to meet her client, miss jasby ong.
finally i get to see her...haha...all i can say is...it wasn't as bad as i expected...

win and karen came and met us for supper too...talked till midnight before we went back to boey's house...

and i finally get to play monopoly!!!!!!
=hugs ezu= thanks for buying it!
and i won both times we played!!!!!
muahahaha...i did not cheat...please do not believe boey...

oh i'm full of crap now...sleepyhead sleepyhead!!

friday the "THIRTEEN"!!

wasn't a bad day afterall...no mishaps no nothing...i only melted in the sun...thats all...

met up with darling for lunch at billy bombers...i think the staff would really like to kick us outta the place because we lazed there for around 2hr plus. can u imagine darling was actually early in meeting me? haha...everybody must buy 4D already...sure strike one...

anyway we shared chicken pestso pasta and chicken grilled with cheese...not bad...plus it came with desert...and free flow of drinks!

by time we left the restaruant, i could feel my tummy bubbling with coke...we were so full we decided to do some window shopping. the moment i stepped into the sun-baked pavement, i hid behind a pillar. goodness...Mr Sun is indeed working very hard, as though he would be retrench...haha...

hereen stinks...because its filled with stinky delinquents in their uniforms...we went around mumbling "stinky kids stinky kids". the STENCH was really UNBEARABLE inside the annex where 77th street is. i nearly puke.

darling: why so many people?
me: hello its friday, end of the week, sure alot of people one.
darling: really? if its me i would go home already...orchard is so far from my house! otherwise i would rather go home and change than shop in uniform...
me: at least u have tampiness mall...
darling: aiya i walk until sian liao...
me: try walking in sun plaza...

for readers who don't already know, sun plaza is quite...erm...pathetic...the stores are closing down one after another and they can't seem to sustain business.. macdonalds and kfc and the foodcourt probably has the best revenue!

i'm bored...and i received nus's rejection letter yesterday. not really sad cause i don't really have the desire to study there. haha...woo have training with my instrumentalist on sunday. turned out that the guitar instructor is my instrumentalist...haha...not really good looking, but better than many others...and he is a professional, so i need not worry bout him screwing up the performance...lala...

you were there when i was down and out...
you made my heart came alive again...
it was you...

OUT OF MY WAY PLEASE!

if u are an irritant, you better get lost now!

my fine fine mood has to be spoilt by my brother, whom i wish i could kill. he has absolutely no idea how freaking irritating he is. i've endured him for almost 11 yrs, and its GETTING ONTO MY NERVES!

so wat if he is the youngest dick in the family?
so wat if he gets everything in his way?
so wat if my parents are sooooooo fucking afraid of him they give in to him?

i'm sorry he's stepping on the wrong tail. and its getting me so PISSED i might just burst a blood vessel! ARGH!!!! LITTLE BOYS!!!!! GO BURN IN HELL!!!

Lavender's Bakery...

dear nanny, i swear i woke up at 8am this morning...but the weather cum my air con was feeling so shiok i couldn't help lazing in bed. it wasn't until 10.30 did i get outta bed to meet ah girl for lunch, then proceed to auntie veron's house for the cake baking session.

wonder why my blog's title is so? becoz auntie veron house is at lavender...and she has all the necessities for baking, so we're always over at her house to bake, thus earning the name "lavender bakery"...

erm...i was as usual feeling lazy...so i did not do most of the work...nanny did! haha...

auntie mary got keyboard...and she is willing to lend it to me...in exchange for the hello kitty magnet board...haha..its okie with me!!!!!!! now anyone wanna teach me how to play? haha...

Over at boey's (part2)

humid...hot...typical singapore's weather. and it didn't help that it didn't rain...initially i was supposed to be sleeping on the bed. but it was so warm i swapped places with alan, indeed it was much cooler slping on the mattress on the floor...but still...i was perspiring like hell..

i already had 2 fans blowing at me...haha...and boey even had to fan me to sleep with a magazine! and the princess is mean...i stole boey's bolster!!! haha...and she claimed i hugged it so tightly she couldn't manage to steal it back...oopsie...and i kicked her too! haha...i seriously have no idea i did...but she told me the next morning...oopssss...my mummy used to say i kicked her too...haha...so so sorry boeyyyyyy....so i think i'm the kind who needs to sleep alone...

anyway went to liqing's church on sunday...the singapore idol contestant david yeo was sitting behind me...IRRITATING is the word for him...and he is freaking short and noisy...and i saw my primary sch mate there too...turned out her brother was attending that church. haha...the world is so small...was so tired by time i reached home then i went straight to bed...without studying...sighs...

Over at Boey's....

Boey is a big bully, i SWEAR! and she plus alan, confirmed adulterous pair! they ganged up in UNO to prevent me from winning...

ALL boey's misdeeds:
everytime i'm about to game, she makes me draw MANY cards from the pile. otherwise she would skip my turn and allow her adulterous lover to go, thus allowing him to get rid of LOTSA cards..and this routine continues continously! the poor princess is left deserted and stranded with her cards....=sob sob= and whenever she puts the wild card, for me she will choose the colour that i dun have. for ALAN hor, she says "anything u wanna put lor".... i feel like banging my head against the wall le....

ALL alan's misdeeds:
bascially he is like manipulated by his lover. boey tells him to throw this then he throw lor. boey ask him to throw that then he throw lor. then they peep and discuss each other's cards before they discard. SMELLY!

yawns i'm tired...am typing this as the adulterous pair is playing with UNO still...BIG BULLIES!!!!

Proud...

okie peeps...these pics are outdated...but i just got them...



see this is the cake we baked at my house for rongz!



and the box that we decorated! we had funnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!

My Name...

Although the name Jolene creates an interest in the deeper aspects of life, we emphasize that it limits self-expression and friendly congeniality with a moody disposition. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the heart, lungs and bronchial area.

The name of Jolene gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. It is far easier for you to express your deeper thoughts and feelings through writing than verbally. You find pleasure in literature, in poetry, and in your ideals and will turn to them when you feel you have been misunderstood. You are deeply moved by the beauties of life, especially nature.

Shou Fang Kai

Wo gei ni zhui huo de teng ai shi shou fang kai...
i'm still so so so in love with this song...i'll marry anyone who can sing like him!!!! alright...enough of my shit...i swear if i continue with all these rubbish...boey will skin me ALIVE.

so how? my new skin nice? nice right...i knew it...anyway i really think its gonna rain soon...which might not be good news today...becoz i might need to go and get a new remote control for my tv. kinda sucks that the remote spoilt after a mere 4 months usage. its the sort that requires winding daily instead of battery power. so clever ppl would have guessed, the winding knob broke.

geez law's mock exam next tues...i'm so determined to go for it. ppl please scold me if u dun see me studying kaes. i deserve it!

Missing you...

the guys in class are leaving for greener pastures next semster. haha..not really lah...but most of them are changing schools already. time has indeed past very quickly, i'm already in the second semster of whatever shit i am studying now...people come and go...yes i know...still...it got me upset to know they are leaving...

boey told me "life is like a bullet train. people get off at stops and new faces board ur train. not everyone will stay right thru ur last destination."

sounds so true...but at the same time, i find myself not cherishing people i have around me...i find myself taking people for granted...its not something which i could control...and i do not wanna feel this way. ahhhh crap...i think i'm feeling lousy again...in one of my lousy moods where all i do is to think in the wrong direction and feel like crying my heart out. bleahz...sucks

to those who feel like they deserve it, i miss you guys to bits...and i really hope you know who u are. =huggles=

Long weekend?

its already monday morning and i can't believe my long weekend is almost over. seems that time is really passing FAST. and my dear classmates are like pressurising me to study. i noe...time is running short...1 month left...very fast one...i also know...but i'm like no longer in the mood to study....sometimes i'm wondering why the hell am i still doing accounting...

couldn't sleep last night...i felt a tightness in my chest and breathing seemed to be a chore. everytime i doze off, i would wake up not long after feeling breathless. this went on for the whole of sunday...till i went to see a doc earlier on...

for those who noes wat ECG is, good. for those who don't, i also dunno wat it meant. but its just some test to check ur heart for problems according to wat the doc told me. it was kinda embarrassing when u had to be half naked to do the test. luckily it was the nurse who did it...so at least it wasn't that bad...

anyway results turned out to be good...my heart is in good condition...and he couldn't tell me wats up with the tightness in my chest. so he related it to stress...i was like "huh? examz coming ya...but i'm still slacking around"

and the doc has a good sense of humour. he look like the kind of guy i would like. haha...but no...he is too old! for readers' information, esp boey and maiyo(if u are ever reading this), i do not have fetish for very much older guys!

am going off...hope everyone enjoyed their "long" weekend...