The worse feeling apart from crying, is not being able to cry

sometimes when things happen, its somehow a fortune to be able to cry...rather than to be hurting inside...and the tears just won't fall...

the guilt is overwhelming...the pain is killing me...

i feel so lousy...my heart's so heavy...

sorry may seem the easiest way out...it may sound like an excuse...

but i really am feeling sorry...

i didn't lie...everything was for real...i didn't take you for a ride...

you are probably hating me now...i'm so so sorry...

and its hurting terribly...it really is...